Darkwoman

Can I throw in the Soska sisters?

Ended up not getting to a computer so I'm logging Saturday and today. Saturday: Food: Breakfast (9.00am): 2 nectarines 1 scrambled egg Mug matcha Break 1 (1.00 pm): 500 Ml water Lunch (4.00 pm): 1/2 cup curried lentil salad 1/2 cup fish stew with squash, peas, edamame and carrots 1 red bell pepper 500 Ml water Break (6.00 pm): 500 Ml water 1/3 cup almonds 2 tomatoes Dinner (9.00 pm) 1 mug raspberry tea 4 stalks celery and peanut butter Exercise: Worked 8 hours Biked 45 minutes, the last 20 minutes were with about 15 extra pounds on me (errands... so many errands.) Today Breakfast (7.30): 1 mug matcha 1 hard boiled egg 2 tomatoes Break 1 (12.30) 500 Ml water 1 red bell pepper Lunch (2.30) 1/2 cup fish stew with squash, peas, edamame and carrots 2/3 cup spinach salad with strawberries 1 small slice pumpkin pie, with no crust 500 Ml water Break 2 (4.30) 1/3 cup carrots with peanut butter 1/3 cup of my remaining spinach salad 500 Ml water Dinner (7.30) 1 mug peach tea 1 fillet of cod 1/3 cup fresh peas Exercise 8 hours of work 45 min body weight work out

When working out, I tend to wear cheeky undies or whatever they're called; I'm kind of uncomfortable without coverage, but I hate it when stuff rides up, so wearing underwear that covers some of my butt but also doesn't ride up as much is a compromise I'll live with. In everyday life, I wear briefs or boyshorts pretty much exclusively; and will occasionally just wear those if I'm going for a short run or bike ride.

At the moment I have two from, The Return of the Living Dead, I might be biased, but damn that movie has some amazing music. 1. The Trioxin theme, it's just so catchy and I want to start running when I hear it. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e3LHws9mcho 2. The Do You Want to Party song, it always get me hyped up no matter what I'm doing. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JLPmyoxvTPo

I was hoping I wouldn't have to because I don't have a family doctor and just go to walkins (which can be a hassle), but I'll make the time. So thanks for that advice.

Worked today, I eat a lot more while working and drink a lot more too; since my workplace is freaking hot and I am on my feet for eight hours. I also don't eat dinner really because I get off work late and do not like trying to sleep after eating anything too big. Food: Breakfast: Matcha tea 2 scrambled eggs with chives and shredded chicken 1/2 cup peach Greek yogurt Break 1: 1/3 cup of almonds 1/2 cup carrot sticks 500 Ml water Lunch 1 good chunk of salmon 1/2 cup curried lentil salad 1 big tomato 1 nectarine 500 Ml water Break 2: 1/3 cup almonds 1/3 cup strawberries 500 Ml water Dinner: Mug of raspberry tea 1 apple with peanut butter Exercise: 8 hours of moderate to heavy exercise (I work as a cleaner, so I am constantly moving, sweeping, mopping, scrubbing walls and equipment, and wresting heavy items into places I need to put them) Ran 30 mins: did intervals of 5 mins running, 3 mins walking; it's still smoky out so I didn't go as long as I wanted to. Least I got outside and ran, because today was long and I needed to get it out of my system.

I have a possibly dumb and kind of incoherent question (sorry, I have not slept much and am still a little confused.) I've been trying to do more body weight exercises and have been trying for at least four times a week for the past month or so, but I'm still getting bad pain in my groin. I pulled my groin a few times in the past few years, so I am not sure if the pain is due to the past groin injury or if my form is really off. As for my form, I do try to keep it as good as possible but my feet pronate outwards and I have shortened tendons; so either my knees bow inwards or my feet stick out painfully. So my question is: could my poor form be the only thing hurting me? Could it simply be due to the past groin injury and my body is just taking longer to get used to the exercises and I'm totally fine and just stiff? Or could I be re-injuring my groin thanks to my crappy form?

Breakfast: 1 mug matcha tea 1 peach 1/3 cup yogurt Lunch: 1/3 cup lentils 1/3 cup curry peas, beans, carrots, cauliflower and venison 1/2 cup pineapple Dinner: 1 good chunk of salmon 1 cup of fresh peas 1/2 cup fresh brocolli Snacks: 1/4 cup almond brittle 2 apples 1 yellow pepper Exercise: Again too smoky to run Walked 4 Km Did a 45 minute body weight workout in my room

Breakfast: 1 mug black tea 1 large peach 1 cup yogurt Lunch: 1/3 cup lentils 1/3 cup curry with peas, beans, carrots, cauliflower and venison 1 red pepper Dinner: 1 cup spaghetti squash 1/3 cup curry (see above for ingredients) 1 peach 1/3 cup peach Greek yogurt Snack: 1 apple peanut butter Exercise: Walked 6 Km Wanted to do more, but it's really smoky here right now and running just kills me.

Roasted beets are really good, if you don't mind a snack you have to eat with a fork Just toss them in a little olive oil, maybe a little garlic powder or thyme, or whatever spice you think is good with beets. I like to roast my beets at 350, the time varies between sizes of beet pieces and kinds of beets; usually start checking at 15 mins.

I can't seem to keep up with stuff; thanks to work, illness and school I'm not getting to the pool or gym all that much and haven't been eating so well. I think I can remedy this, but I have to push it a little. I'm not going to even think about getting to the pool or gym; I don't have the funds, instead I'm going to work out at home and take runs since it's easier to do that in between everything else. I'm going to start preparing paleo or at least healthy foods in advance, and then just pack it with me. everyday. I'm also going to actually track what I'm eating, and since everything is made in advance it should be easy since it'll probably just be the same thing for days on end, just with different veggies or fruits and possible portion sizes.

Busy couple of days but pretty much been keeping on top of everything; except sticking to my sleep schedule (which is part of my DBT work) I had a few days of wicked allergies and didn't really sleep all that much, since I don't like taking medications if I can help it due to the fact that I'm already on so many other meds. I'm back on track now though, and even with the insomnia I'm sleeping pretty well. I've also found that going Paleo is easier than I thought it was going to be, I didn't really realize it but don't eat that many grains to begin with and other than an experiment in the kitchen now and then, I don't really eat a lot of sugar either. I've also started forcing myself to eat a proper Paleo breakfast when I get up (usually something like an egg and some fruit or veggies and tea) and it's making a huge difference, even if I don't eat normally during the day I don't get as crabby or exhausted. I tried one batch of traditional macarons, and they turned out ok, and tasted good too; I gave most of them to my roomie though. I've also found a recipe for paleo macarons, and am going to give them a shot, soon. Knife throwing isn't my thing as it turns out (my hands get hurt enough at work, with out having to worry about taking chunks out of them at home) so I've substituted for card throwing, which while not quite as cool looking is still pretty fun and a lot less likely to end in bloodshed.

Well today was a good day, not only was it my day off; but I started off strong with the challenge Kept up with everything in mind; except for watching a horror movie Didn't go swimming today, ended up going hiking instead; I also ate two big meals today (both Paleo) and two big green peppers (I can't quit you green peppers) Spent my hike doing walking meditation, I also played a table top role playing game via roll 20 (the GM lives way too far away from us to manage anything else) Didn't do anything on my side quests, Oooh and yes, Iridian I am actually hoping to make macarons with less sugar or no sugar... that is once I learn to make passable traditional ones

Ok, so I know I'm a day late, but I've been pretty much living on the road between seeing family and my boyfriend, on the other hand I think I've fulfilled my goal of being social for a dang long time. Since this is my first time doing this, I'm just going for the basics; mind, body and soul. Mind: -Keep up with DBT homework, attend DBT group sessions, take meds, take supplements *A = keeping up with everything everyday (once a week for DBT group, but this is a biggie so not going is an automatic fail) *B = doing at least 2 of the things everyday *C = doing one thing everyday *D = skipping out on days *F = missing group -Watch one horror movie a week; I didn't just put this down to give myself an excuse to watch movies. Horror movies help chill me out and de-stress, so it's just kind of something I include in all my mental health plans but it's not a part of DBT, hence it gets its own little goal *Pass = watched one or more movie this week *Fail = didn't watch a movie this week Body: -Improve swimming; this one is not so rigid, so no passing or failing here (I just want to see if I can do this, but no pressure) plus I actually haven't timed myself for a long time, so I'm probably not where I should be since I'm not really pushing myself at all *take even a little time off my lap times *take less strokes per lap -Start going Paleo, so try to do two Paleo meals a day (I kind of want to ease into this, because I don't exactly eat three meals a day and so I have to regulate my eating as well as going Paleo) *A = eat two Paleo meals a day *B = eat one Paleo meal a day *C= eat one Paleo meal, but skip breakfast *D = not eating Paleo *F = not eating Soul: -Meditate at last once a day; this is also a component of my BPD skills, but hey, it's important, and I now have no excuse to not do it *There's really no pass or fail here, because that would kind of undermine meditation in the first place -Be social; if allowed to, I would spend all of my time alone, which is not good seeing as humans are social creatures and all, so I'm aiming for doing something with friends or my boyfriend at least twice a week, I also work full time so anything more than twice a week would drain me completely *A = did two social activities this week *B = did two social activities but called off during one because I was getting overwhelmed *C = did one social activity *D = did one social activity but called off during it because I was getting overwhelmed *F = was not social Side quests: totally useless things I want to learn and I now have an excuse to be a bit of a lunatic in the kitchen -Learn to make perfect French Macarons... ok passable French Macarons... ok semi-passable French Macarons... actually I'll be happy with an end result that does not resemble a baking sheet of demented amoebas -Learn to throw knives or other kitchen implements, because it looks badass (what other reason do I need)

Yep, didn't realize exactly how badly I was eating till one of the clinicians I see, made me do a food log and saw that I was just drinking a cup of tea at 9.00 or so in the morning and then not eating till 12.00 or 1.00 in the afternoon. I hate eating in the morning, but I'm going to force myself to at least eat something with protein and see if that works for me.