HealthyMama87

Weighed myself last Wednesday and I was 172! So one more pound down towards my overall goal!!! Goal 1: FAIL I got NO yoga in last week. I got one three mile walk and after that it all fell apart. The weather was horrid so I couldn't take my baby out, but I did clean and dance around so I got some movement. I shall prevail!!! Goal 2: Meh--no just no I did bad. Horrible. Clean eating didn't happen much. So much happened last week. Kids first baseball game, ladies fellowship at church, wedding and recovery with a weekend away with my husband. I haven't had A drink in 10 months or something, and o had 2 glasses of champagne and some amaretto on Saturday. Let's just say I'm feeling the effects of five days of little to big cheats. I feel gross! So much water, oatmeal, and homemade soup to get me back! Goal 3: See that sky today? Talk about blue, fail/pass! Friday I broke down crying. My stepdaughter is just pushing limits, so I cried. I feel like my apartment is shrinking and it's like a reverse yard sale. People are giving me things I neither want or need. We're trying to move in 2 months...but until then my home is shrinking everyday. My poor husband quickly listened to my crazy and tried to help fix by cleaning the kitchen, bedroom and vacuumed. It's a pass because o actually talked about my anxiety rather than allowing it to overtake me and control me likely often does. I hung out with my friends from church on Thirsday and I always laugh a lot with them. Thursday is a super hard day for me because it's a not so pleasant anniversary of mine. 3 years stronger I guess.

I work out at home, mostly because then I have no excuses to get it done. With the gym for me I could think of a ton of reasons to not go... 1.) getting ready and getting there is a hassle 2.) I hate having people watching me exercise. 3.) I don't like the idea of leaving little squish with random people. I tend to walk with my mom, or pop on some free workouts from Hulu and a resistance band work out I found on pinterest. It helps because if I need to stop and nurse the little one I am able to, and then get back on it. I also can do some house work and get some lunges or jumping jacks in. Currently it's working for me.

If I see you on Facebook while I'm up nursing the baby I plan on yelling at you to go to sleep. Please note it's out of love for your health.

It's more about how I handle my anxiety. I can tend to explode and then I beat myself up for everything! This week has been killer, we've been so busy that I'm letting my mind get ahead of me, and I'm worrying about things that haven't happened yet. Lame!! And I've read my bible once.

Progress Report!! Last week I felt I did pretty awesome! I'm feeling good, and I'm still addicted to oatmeal. However there is a conspiracy in the High Desert against me having a caramel macchiato since EVERY Starbucks is out of caramel sauce!! Wahhh???? I have lost two pounds, so I am at 173. I haven't weighed myself since though! Goal 1: PASS On top of other workouts I did manage to squeeze 10 minute yoga in as well. I'm really enjoying my resistance bands and walking crazy amounts of miles!!! I'm feeling very relaxed and happy overall. Other than a few issues which I'll get to in goal 3. Goal 2: PASS Milk supply has had no changes thankfully! I haven't weighed myself but I'm doing good with my calorie intake and eating good things and not just a ton of lunchables. Goal 3: Meh. I read my bible 4 out of 7 days, not including church. My stepdaughter has been acting out a little bit so my anxiety went up a little. Squish got shots and didn't sleep as well as usual for 3 days. But I will power on. I'm back in my churches choir and that is an amazing support group. I did start to read my book. I'm about 6 pages in! Go me!!

Progress Report!! Last week I felt I did pretty awesome! I'm feeling good, and I'm still addicted to oatmeal. However there is a conspiracy in the High Desert against me having a caramel macchiato since EVERY Starbucks is out of caramel sauce!! Wahhh???? I have lost two pounds, so I am at 173. I haven't weighed myself since though! Goal 1: PASS On top of other workouts I did manage to squeeze 10 minute yoga in as well. I'm really enjoying my resistance bands and walking crazy amounts of miles!!! I'm feeling very relaxed and happy overall. Other than a few issues which I'll get to in goal 3. Goal 2: PASS Milk supply has had no changes thankfully! I haven't weighed myself but I'm doing good with my calorie intake and eating good things and not just a ton of lunchables. Goal 3: Meh. I read my bible 4 out of 7 days, not including church. My stepdaughter has been acting out a little bit so my anxiety went up a little. Squish got shots and didn't sleep as well as usual for 3 days. But I will power on. I'm back in my churches choir and that is an amazing support group. I did start to read my book. I'm about 6 pages in! Go me!!

I started reading last night. I got about 4 pages in before little squish needed attention and a feeding.

Today I did Yoga Detox for 10 minutes! Then I did a resistance band workout! Amazing!

Day 8: My little squish and I went on a walk today. A three mile walk in 50 minutes! Yep! I feel great... sore and ready for bed. But glad I busted it out! I then cleaned my whole house. Scrubbed it down from top to bottom. Off to make dinner and then a bath.... then sleep!

Day 7 Work Out!: 20 minutes of cardio and arm resistance mix. I'm sweating so hard now! I wanted to stop after about 11 minutes, but I took a little breather and powered through the rest of the work out! Ate my oatmeal, now going to make a cup of coffee and do some devotionals, shower and start my day with my little squishy!

I had my little squish Feb 13 of this year. Two days before I delivered I was 207 pounds. 6 weeks postpartum I was 175, I still have 15 pounds to lose to be at prepregnancy weight and another 25 after that to be where I would like to be. I find it easier to exercise Mon-Fri because it's just me and the little squish. Weekends my husband and stepdaughter are home so there isn't a lot of time. I find that I get discouraged easier because my body is so out of whack from having her. I know it took so many months to do this to my body it'll take time to fix it but still. I'm doing the 14 day shred on doyouyoga.com. I was trying to do the 21 day fix, but sometimes 30 minutes is too long wen I have a 8 week old who demands food!!! We can do this ladies!!!!

Funny you should mention that! I adore baby wearing. I was gifted a bjorn and infantino which I despise, then bought a Mei Tei and a second hand Beco Butterfly 2. Little squish despises the Mei Tei but loves the Beco! I want to invest in a newer one but husband says I have to clear out the other three first. Baby wearing is amazing!!!!! I have a stroller but I prefer the Beco. It tends to keep her calmer and then random people can't just touch her!! I'm determined to feed for at least a year, after that we will see. Breastfeeding seems to be helping with losing weight, but the extra calories are freaking killer to make sure I get.

How do you almost burn down your house? Honestly. Then again I'm not one to talk. I'm glad there wasn't too much damage, it could have been way worse that's for sure.

As some one who is also battling through depression and has battled suicidal thoughts I think your goals are amazing. You can overcome the thoughts and the tendencies. It's just an uphill battle filled with things that make you want to run back down. But you can do it. Keep with your routine and find something positive to hold onto every day for when it gets to be overwhelming. If you need someone to talk to judgement free I'm here for you!