Gaming_Jeweler

I've noticed I tend to ignore my mental goals. I'm literally neglecting my mind when I need to care for it more. If I'm not taking care of my mind, I become depressed and overwhelmed. I feel isolated and alone. Then I completely freak out and melt down. I think I need to up my mental goals come February. It's going to take me a bit to come up with everything I need to work on. In other news, I've started using bento boxes for lunch. I've found that helps me and my husband eat less food but still get full. I also pack one for the baby, but that's her food for the day. I also tried making deviled eggs for the first time. They turned out really good. I just had a bit of trouble figuring out how to get the eggshells off of them. I know a lot of people have made boiled eggs for years but this was a first for me and they turned out great.

I totally forgot to update! Here's my goals from this week along with what I've accomplished. Week 3 Mikey Remember to have fun Practice playing piano or guitar for 5 minutes a week Raph Find my strength Do 2 Wall handstand 1/2 Do 3 Planks & Side Planks 2/3 Complete at least 2 Strala workouts “Be My Valentine Yoga” “AM Yoga In Bed” “Beginners Yoga For Flexibility” Donny Sharpen My Mind Read for 30 minutes a week Strengthen My Spirit Try meditation Read 1 Psalm a day 5/7 Leo Make a battle plan & stick with it My Diet: Get truffles and use them to track sugar consumption Eat out 2x a week 1/2 Batch cook lunch for the week 2/1 Cook at home 5x a week 5/5 Working Out : Walk for 30 minutes a week 1/1 Do yoga 3x a week Find my balance: Use my wobble board for 5 minutes a week Do 2 tree poses a day (1 per side) 3/7

I feel like last week was all about acceptance. I needed to accept the fact that my grandparents are dying soon. I'm making plans to go see them soon. It's probably going to be the last time I'll see them both alive, so it's me going to say goodbye. I have decided that 2017 is going to be a year of change for me. I am going to lose my grandmother to Alzheimer's- the person she is now is just a shell of the woman she used to be- even if she's still alive at the end of 2017, she's not going to be the same person. This is the year I'm going to learn how to do handstands. Even if it's just wall handstands, I'm going to learn to do it. I'm going to get all the stuff I need to start longboarding too. 2017 is going to be a year of change. I've done a few things for this week already: Read 3/7 Psalms Completed 2/3 rounds of planks and side planks Completed 1/2 wall handstands Walked for 20-30 minutes around the grocery store (while carrying 3 shopping bags filled with groceries and pushing a stroller) Completed 1/7 tree poses

Today's off to a better start. I slept for about 6 hours but for the first time in a while it wasn't a restless sleep. Hubby took the baby out for an hour so I could get some time by myself. I love being a stay at home mom, but some times I need a break. I got my 5 minutes of playing music in. I decided to learn to play CCR's Bad Moon On The Rise because I know all the chords. However, the song isn't quite as easy as I had imagined and I'm out of practice. So it sorta sounded like CCR but not really. I also decided to look up some bento recipes. They might save me from eating out. I have 2 bentos, I just need to get a 3rd for my daughter. (I'm doing baby-lead weaning which means she eats what I eat. It really puts my bad eating habits on display and makes me want to change them.) Now if I can just stay on top of things today.

I'm trying to keep things simple this year- anything too complex with get thrown out the window as I try to keep up with my little one- but I have set my goals. 1. Be able to do handstands. 2. Start longboarding 3. Drop back down to my pre-miscarriage weight of 130 lbs or be able to wear my 8/10 medium clothes. (I actually wound up being smaller after having my daughter even thought my weight went up.)

Remember how I said I was going to get stuff done yesterday? Yeah, that didn't happen. My husband and I spend a good part of the day at the tax office so that our mortgage wouldn't go up because we "own multiple homes." We don't. We just happen to have a lot of our tax info under different addresses from moving from one rental to the next. But we got it sorted out. My current streak for not eating out is currently 1 day. I've been struggling a lot. I want to quit. I feel like nobody cares. Nobody. Not even family. I'm not sure where all the negativity this week has came from. Maybe it comes from the realization that 2017 is the last year I'm going to have my grandparents. Maybe it's from the stress-induced insomnia. Or maybe it's from hearing my daughter scream and cry all night from teething pains until she falls asleep. I started this challenge off with so much momentum and I seem to have lost all it in one week. I feel like everything is slipping through my fingers and that I'm losing everything. I'm not giving up. I want to but I'm too stubborn for my own good. I know if I keep working at this, I'll eventually start to see progress. Right now... I just feel lost and defeated.

I have 20 tabs with nothing but gifs in it. I am determined not to use them all in one post. Today's goal is to complete 1 task from each turtle. Which won't be too hard since I have read for 30 minutes, meditated, and read my Psalm for the day. So my Donny tasks are done for the day.

I have just discovered Giphy.com. This challenge and all my upcoming challenges this month will have so many gifs. I am so sorry for all the random gifs I'm going to post after this.

Things have been rough for the last couple of days. My daughter has been in so much pain from teething that she wants to spend all day in my arms and crawls after me crying whenever I leave the room. That being said, I have managed to get a few things done with her in tow (or solo during nap time). Now if only I could crack down on m diet better. Thus far I have: Walked 1.5 miles during 30 minutes Balanced on my wobble board for 5 minutes while cooking and holding baby (she found it very amusing) Did 2 wall handstands (I can't kick off just yet, but getting upside down and balancing with my feet on a door/wall has been difficult enough) Bought 2 bags of truffles and two of the most disgusting candy bars I have ever eaten. I actually ate the disgusting candy bars today. I bought them as a treat because they were "coffee chocolate" truffle bars from a company I like that's kinda pricey. But these were on sale... now I know why.

Week 2 Mikey Remember to have fun Explore downtown Practice playing piano or guitar for 5 minutes a week Raph Find my strength Do 2 Wall handstands Do 3 Planks & Side Planks Complete at least 1 Strala workout “Be My Valentine Yoga” “AM Yoga In Bed” “Beginners Yoga For Flexibility” Donny Sharpen My Mind Read for 30 minutes a week Strengthen My Spirit Try meditation Read 1 Psalm a day Leo Make a battle plan & stick with it My Diet: Get truffles and use them to track sugar consumption Eat out 2x a week Eat paleo (50-70%) for breakfast, lunch and supper 5x a week Eat paleo (50-70%) for breakfast and supper 2x a week Working Out : Walk for 15 minutes a week Do yoga 2x a week Find my balance: Use my wobble board for 5 minutes a week Do 2 tree poses a day (1 per side)

After doing really well for a few days, week 1 kinda caved in on itself. My grandparents that helped raise me (basically my 2nd set of parents) are getting towards the end of their lives. My grandmother has Alzheimer's and keeps forgetting who people are (like me) and mixing people up (me and my sister). She's had it for 10 1/2 years now, so it is amazing that her memories have stayed in tack until recently. But she seems to be going downhill fast. My grandfather has COPD from working in the mines and congestive heart failure. If it's not his lungs, it's his heart. And to make matters worse, my mom is taking care of them while being treated like crap. Her big sister literally dumps all her responsibilities on my mom so that she can see her youngest grandbaby. Which pisses me off because she pulled that same stunt when I had my baby (my mom's only grandchild) and forced my mom to go back home early after I had a c-section. My mom barely gets to see my daughter because of this. I could go on, but that won't help anyone. Let's just say I have had a really crappy couple of days before I write an essay about my aunt. But I did get stuff done in spite of all the crap. Oh, and I found Christopher Reeve's Superman on Netflix. I have so many good memories of those movies. It was fun to watch with my 6 1/2 month old trying to sing along with the music. I'm going to try to post this week's goals - which I'm doing pretty well on- tomorrow. Baby Rebel's top teeth have decided to make their debut sometime soon, so she's super fussy and clingy, but I'm going to try to get it posted. Week 1 Recap Mikey 0% Completed Raph 100% completed Donny Sharpen My Mind Read for 30 minutes a week - did not complete Strengthen My Spirit Try meditation - 1/1 completed Read 1 Psalm a day - 6/7 completed Leo Make a battle plan & stick with it My Diet: Get truffles and use them to track sugar consumption - completed... but I ate 2 bags of truffles in like 3 days... Eat out 2x a week - 6/2... I turn to food when I'm upset Eat paleo (50-70%) - I ate out way to much to track this. Working Out : Walk for 30 minutes a week - walked for 20 minutes Do yoga 3x a week - 2/3 completed Find my balance: Use my wobble board for 5 minutes a week - 1:20 completed Do 2 tree poses a day (1 per side) - 6/7 completed

I love the kitties! Especially the calico... Bean right?

Guys! I completed all of my Raph challenges for the week! I did a wall handstand for the first time since I got pregnant. I got myself upside down and my feet on the wall. I started to kick off, but my arms felt like jelly and I had to rest. But, hey, I got it done! Now I'm going to sit back and rewatch some Smallville.

I did tree poses yesterday and today. Baby has been a bit clingy and fussy this evening. Watching me workout always makes her smile. So I did 2 reps of planks and side planks and "Be My Valentine Yoga." I forgot how weak my upper body is. I did one plank, a side plank on my right, plank, a side plank on my left, & then another plank and I found myself completely wiped for a few minutes. If anyone wants to try the workout I did, here's the video.

It's time to start the challenge off! Since the "snowpocolipse" hit during our anniversary, John and I went out to celebrate our anniversary yesterday. We went out and got lunch at Applebee's and then made our own dessert since the ice cream shop closed early "due to inclement weather." There wasn't any ice and most of the now had melted... so I don't know what they were talking about. But the 4-week challenge has started, so it is now time to post my goals for the week! Week 1 Mikey Remember to have fun Practice playing piano or guitar for 5 minutes a week Raph Find my strength Do 1 Wall headstand Do 3 Planks & Side Planks Complete at least 1 Strala workout “Be My Valentine Yoga” “AM Yoga In Bed” “Beginners Yoga For Flexibility” Donny Sharpen My Mind Read for 30 minutes a week Strengthen My Spirit Try meditation Read 1 Psalm a day Leo Make a battle plan & stick with it My Diet: Get truffles and use them to track sugar consumption Eat out 2x a week Eat paleo (50-70%) for breakfast, lunch and supper 5x a week Eat paleo (50-70%) for breakfast and supper 2x a week Working Out : Walk for 30 minutes a week Do yoga 3x a week Find my balance: Use my wobble board for 5 minutes a week Do 2 tree poses a day (1 per side)