alexis88

This week hasnt been great, not been to the gym much and eating hasnt been the best just been feeling rough. Got drunk and was sick. Trying to be kind to myself about it and not get too stressed or things feel too much to handle. Just not a good day x

Lost 2.2lb this week, good solid start!!

2km on treadmill 11/07/16 - 20mins 40 seconds 12/07/16 - 19mins 52 seconds 14/07/16 - (could only do 1km due to cut foot) 16/07/16 - 18mins 46 seconds (!) as you can see, ive cut the time down by 2 mins in just under a week. Im pushing myself hard and it feels good (afterwards!) Mental health is bit better today, feel less exhausted and glad ive been to the gym, definitely gives me a buzz to see me beating times... alcohol - none still. feels good. Biting nails - not done for over a month now! Eating - still doing well with this. thanks for reading!!

I totally agree. I feel guilty for being so exhausted and trying to push my self through it but its such a struggle. Today has been a write off. I literally couldnt get out of bed. Ive got up and moved about a little in the garden but its so difficult. Dont know how to move past this, its been like this for about a month now.

Hey, Yesterday was rest day, today back to the gym. Bought some new running shoes as my old cheap ones had cut up my ankles so painful. New trainers are mega comfy but rubbing on the wound. I only managed 1km on the treadmill so did extra on the bike. Hoping it heals quickly... Did some more weight work as well. I can calf press 290lb which im pleased and surprised with. must be my chunky legs haha Having my bloods done next week as im exhausted constantly. They think it could be the anti depressants, or just the fact, im depressed(!) at the moment. It was a struggle to get to the gym but im proud of myself for going. Eaten pretty well today, maybe a bit too much cheese but MFP says its been a decent enough day! Mental health - had a cry this morning, feeling lost in my work and daily life. But felt better after the gym. alcohol - NONE!

Glad you had a good session! Keep it up!!

Hey, hows it going? Great goals, im also trying to read each day, so far so good! x

Thank you guys Fruit tea, ive got pomegranate & green tea, blueberry & blackberry and a mixed berry with hibiscus! (Hibiscus meant to be good for depression too!) Coloured pens and bullet point journals sounds great! Today has been another good one, been to the gym again will begin to log numbers here so: 2km on treadmill 11/07/16 - 20mins 40 seconds 12/07/16 - 19mins 52 seconds 2km on bike 11/07/16 - 4mins 46 seconds 12/07/16 - 4mins 58 seconds So already im improving! Eaten really well also, fish, veggies, salad. Drank lots of water, my fruit tea... Mental health - not too bad, saw my friend for breakfast which was great to catch up. Its the evening when i have time to think that i get a little worse, but will try to keep distracted. alcohol - none!

Today has been much better. Eaten well and been to the gym! Drinking lots of water and got some fruit tea which im trying to have instead of normal tea/coffee. Marked down my numbers for the 4km (2km walk/run & 2km bike) pushed myself hard, especially on the treadmill. Mental health wise - ok, bit sad for no reason, trying to look for motivation, positivity! alcohol - none!

Good luck, will be following along x

Not eaten well today unfortunately i had pizza need to do better and not let tiredness and 'cant be bothered to cook' effect my decisions. Tomorrow will be better for sure. Plus my gym membership is complete so i can begin tomorrow. LETS DO THIS!!

Great to read your journey, you are doing amazing, i will be following along!!

Just been to the shops and got lots of healthy food, fish, eggs, salad, veggies... Walked there which is a mile or so. also got some new nail varnish, a nice purple Will do housework today and watch the tennis! Ive joined the gym (i did so last week but my payment bounced ) but its sorted now and ill be able to use it from Monday when registration has gone through!

Thanks evicious! Yes, one second IS still faster lets hope i do this...! haha i tried everything too, and 3 weeks ago something just clicked and i havent bitten them since...ive even got them painted now, they look lovely. My goal is to not go back to the habit, but you know, i dont think i will thanks for following!! x

well i will do 3km each time i get on the treadmill, and each time i want to beat the time it took me to reach 3km....it will push me to work harder, run further etc. Once i can run 3km, i can change it up, go to 5km. Ill see how it works for me

Hello all, thanks to all the help and advice in the respawn thread Its probably time to begin a daily journal and i hope some of you pop in and help, encourage and cheer me on haha My mental health has been kinda bad lately, my confidence is just non existent. I want to lose weight, i want to be able to run, i want to be stronger and healthy. So, my fitness goals are to: Run 3km. Lose 20lb Yep thats it for now. i dont have a time limit. the way i plan to do this is. Eat well, fish, veg, salad, eggs, nuts. Im ok with eating anyway so it wont be a huge change. Walk 3km, add in jogging, then running; try to beat the time each time i work out. Start to cycle to most places i go. (but if i DO get public transport dont beat myself up) Few more lifestyle goals: Meditate daily Dont bite nails Read a little each day Drink more green tea Go back to volunteering I dont want to bombard myself with goals because ive done that before and i end up missing something and giving up, spiralling into depression thinking im a failure... Im also a recovering alcoholic so thats been difficult for me. Doing ok, 4 days sober. anyway, here we go...!!

back home to Manchester now! So good to be back and see my cat Jackson! I wondered if people thought i should start a journal or just keep writing in here? xx

oh yes i know that!!

Ive not actually said a goal...but i want to be able to run 3km. thats my first, small goal!! So i will walk it and just keep trying to beat my time by bringing in running/jogging... Im at my parents at the moment dog sitting, but i go home on friday and will join the gym. (i wont run outside yet im too ashamed) ill use the treadmill till i lose weight.

@Evicious two more walks again today. My favourite part is the nature, seeing the dogs so happy and coming home feeling refreshed. @Igaduma hello thanks for dropping by!! Im walking further yes, this evenings walk was 45 minutes, im walking quickly as well, and my head definitely feels fresher and clearer when i get home. I had some cake today (i made a lemon cake) so i made the conscious decision to walk further. Dinner tonight will be a big salad and lots of water!

done two walks a day again for the past couple of days nice to be getting regular exercise.

Two walks done with the dogs again today. Not too long but exercise done. Taking Happytin's advice on a WHY list - here is mine. I want to get fit because: I want to be able to run, i always imagine a zombie or an axe murderer after me...what would i do!? I want to run with my sister, who is very good and does 5 & 10km races a lot. I want to lose weight which will give me confidence. Im so low on confidence at the moment, it scares me. I want to fit into nice clothes, i have good fashion ideas but i always wear the same baggy dark clothes to hide away. I want my sleep, energy, reflexes, and abilities to all improve. I want to join the girls fooball team, im good at it but im just so unfit there is no point playing till i can run a bit! I want to drink less/stop altogether because: Not drinking means my mental health is better. My head is clearer, i can get things done, i can work out, i can make art in my studio. If i drink, i lose time...I spend the next two days hungover and miserable. If i drink i feel guilty and anxious. If i drink i cant look after my cat well enough, i dont feed him early etc If i dont drink, it will help me lose weight.

Hey Happytin, thanks so much for your great message. No need to apologise i assure you You are totally right about the past, to be honest in the past i would of self harmed, but not done that for 6 months! your advice is great, thank you again. I will be sure to write a list, WHY i want this... x

Yes they are great, we are like a family Oh no, you didnt come across anything other than helpful - i should focus on fitness here, but i will discuss my other struggles just not too much. thanks again for your concern and loveliness Thanks! Yes they are flat out now sleeping, one of them is barking in her sleep dreaming haha Ive had a nice bath and settled in for the night. x