analoggirl

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  1. analoggirl

    Only Constant is Change

    I will meal prep & do the weekly review this evening, if I do not go to this social/musical event that I am considering. Otherwise tomorrow, finally.
  2. analoggirl

    Only Constant is Change

    Ah thanks for the confirmation I do not feel weird about it though, I am just testing the waters since it is not something all humans can relate to - to say it in a really robotic way . A couple of weeks ago I had a conversation with someone about what I thought was pretty general information. I had the feeling I was expected to be grossed out by the topic but I always think: it is better to talk about some uncomfortable topic than not be informed? So that is the context of my self-conciousness On a lighter note, I have a much (MUCH) younger sibling and we just played with Magic Sand and it was SO COOL.
  3. analoggirl

    Only Constant is Change

    Ohhh. I never expected to like oatmeal at all a couple of years ago, and I did not expect to like "Carrot cake" oatmeal either. But here we are. -40 grams fast-cooking oatmeal -250 ml of half-and-half milk -25 grams of walnuts -honey to taste -cinnamon to taste Nothing you could think of yourself, but I am just not that creative with food (yet). I am probably going to eat the second half of this as a second breakfast later :p I know I need it, but I just cannot eat that much in one go. I eat quite a bit through the day. That's not so good for your teeth, and also a bit annoying when you have to travel a lot. But when the time comes, I'm just going to be carrying along a separate bag for my lunch box if my bag is too full. Or if I am afraid my stuff will get covered in food, even though it is in a good seal-tight box and so on. Ah, what an interesting story. :p Idk, I like reading how other people "deal with" mundane things so I am trying to be more open about those myself. On that note, a bit of me being self-concious is to be found in the spoiler:
  4. analoggirl

    Only Constant is Change

    OK analoggirl went self psychological analysis on herself. TL;DR - what bothers me the most is that I do not "let go" lately, do not keep my life simple, breathing, working hard (and smart) and staying healthy. Avoid drama like the plague. Enjoy the profit.
  5. analoggirl

    Only Constant is Change

    And well, there is also other things related to studies and future employment that bother me. It all probably feels a lot worse than it is but I make a big deal out of it. When I get distracted, and just chill and move on everything is OK. I DID it for a whole year adt year but since I got into that funk I have not been feeling light and energetic while that's the state I want to be in. The funny thing is, it was like I was looking for a reason to feel bad. It was genuinely a very terrible and sad thing that happened that made me feel bad when I got into that funk, but wow! :p I was just looking around myself wondering how it was going well for so long. Surely this is all a facade, I cannot be this person, that is capable of so many things and tucking in and judorolling like a boss every time an obstacle turns up. Ahh, I really want to get back into that state of mind. Work in progress.
  6. analoggirl

    Only Constant is Change

    Hmm, I think my weight fluctuates a lot within that range because 1) Before this challenge, I weighed myself once a month maybe. 2) The monthly cycle affects me quite a bit with regards to bloating/holding water or whatever the heck it is. Even when I do not binge. Usually I eat healthier. So with the rare weighing there is a higher chance to hit totally different stage/state of your body every time you weigh yourself. And it is quite frustrating to go: OH LOOK I DROPPED 1 KG and then to see you went up 2 next time and then drop two and so on :p also, I have not encountered an analog scale that is specific enough or a digital one that does not show a different number the first time you weigh yourself. And then a different if you weigh yourself 30 seconds later. So I always need to confirm my weight by going on the scale 3 times :') I think i have had 4-5 by now. And I agree @ mfp. I do not know whether there is an aspect of life I run into it the most. The area of life that bothers me the most is my studies. Fair warning, the below paragraphs are a bit dramatic. I can get distracted by a spot on the wall, so to speak. Although I love what I do, I love discussing the relevant topics, I greatly enjoyed my internship, I am passionate about what I could mean for others once I get my diploma and even now. But when I am busy on my own, I often take so long doing everything. When I manage to focus i feel tired. Sickness greatly demotivates me. When I manage to get into a state of "flow" I am a lot more energised, obviously. Just working takes less energy than starting and stopping all the time. I cannot pull allnighters. Coffee makes me groggy and does not keep me awake enough to work productively. My body just mákes me sleep enough by shutting off when I get too tired. Diet and exercise and rhytm help. Diet (and exercise and rhytm) get lost when I start to worry and overanalyse. Basically, I need to back off to do better. I need to do less thinking ABOUT doing and just doing. I have gotten better with it but it is difficult changing the thought patterns that come to you naturally. Not impossible. Not complex. I have gotten quite far. Just difficult. And sometimes I feel discouraged when I talk to people that are leaps ahead of me, initiative, LESSGO. It is not that they do not fall. They just think less about the exact angles and km/h that they fell with. :p At the same time, I feel lucky to have a great inner circle to talk with. The friends I have are to be counted on one hand but they are all quite assertive. (More) introvert (than extrovert), same for me btw, and I want to add that being introvert does not mean you are necessarily shy or an overthinker. I always KNEW how to be assertive and so on but it took a while to follow my own advice. Still not where I want to be.
  7. analoggirl

    Only Constant is Change

    Hmf, I do not like this version of myself. Since summer of 2018 I have hit a funk that I cannot shake off. It has constant always been a constant balancing between "I will push myself and stretch my comfort zone." and "You are doing enough. Take it easy on yourself when you need to." I may be not experienced enough in the art of not giving a * about most things, and only giving a fly about the things that (should) matter. Priorities. I have always been bad or just OK from seperating the main points from the side points. Something with concentration and focus. I am rambling now. Have to leave in a bit. I really am trying to end this post on a positive note but all I have is that I will just keep doing what I have to do.
  8. analoggirl

    Only Constant is Change

    It is not completely true that the scale rarely shows the same number. For a really long time I was one weight, now it is another weight mainly. It just fluctuates between 0 and 2 kg up or down, I guess that is pretty solid as far as weight change goes.
  9. analoggirl

    Only Constant is Change

    Thanks @WhiteGhost It is going alright. I think I finaly made some easy enough goals. My performance is far from stellar but I am having fun and being healthier in the process so I call it a win. Week 1 MEALPREP for this week I had, for next week nooot really. Small victory. I am keeping some 500g off *maybe* but my face is not "swollen" anymore from keping water. Those veggies do wonders :p (my weight scale rarely if ever keeps showing one number.) MEALPLAN (-) MFP 3/7 Myfitnesspal gve up on me so I logged thursday until sunday on my phone and did not bother to enter it all in. Past 3 days I have been going far over my limit because I m not moving anywhere except during my morning warmup (little bit of jump rope and squats or something else that wakes me up and gets me going at 630 AM). MEDITATE 7/7 MOVE 2/5 One time jump rope workout, one time actually on the elliptical. LOGTHE$ Yes! Week 2 (wednesday) MEALPREP (saturday) For this week yes. MEALPLAN 3/7 Yup! Mfp works again. Im probably further away from my goal kcal than I logged because I forgot what I snacked besides sunflower seeds and one heart candy. Hmm.. MEDITATE 3/7 This has been going swell. ELLIPTICAL 0/5 I just. Do not know. Why not :') I did everything better during my getting into it weeks. LOGTHE$ No so far. Not spending much but what I do will just show up during my weekly review... if I do it properly. ___ Meh. I got sick again. I do not want to accept this as a fact of life. Last couple of times my ears join in for the ride and when my ears/channels hurt I get disbalanced. Literally. I start getting dizzy easier. Which is great when you bike a lot. And in general. Hurrah. Insert rainbows to make it less negative right now There are some things I have more reason to worry about now. Not sure if I can help them but it is time to sleep !
  10. analoggirl

    Only Constant is Change

    Fun fact: I like the creative intros of my fellow rebels. Ever since I have been seriously investing myself in my studies, my creativity is on the low. But I'll see if I can think of anything. My nickname is inspired by one of Erykah Badu's many names. Also, I like to write in poetry form when I do. I guess me being verbose in general is balanced out in the creative part of my brain. Now, for the challenge part... Fitness *Meal plan for the next week, based on the weekly discounts. Input in Myfitnesspal (adjust daily) * Meal prep for the next 4 to 7 days (i.e. cut the veggies, for goodness sake). ALTERNATIVE TO MEAL PLANNING: Simply do not snack more than once between meals, log everything (roughly, start of the day) in MFP. Have to start tracking what I eat again, that helps a lot. ------- * Meditate for 5-10 mins every day. Any type of, whether moving, sitting, journalling flow-of-thought... * Elliptical for 5-45 mins on work day evenings. Life *Log expenses/income everyday in program right when I come home or after I "do something financial". Side quest: Post the meal ideas I found while preparing for this challenge in Battle Log. PS - These meals will be preparing me for the February - April rollercoaster when I will be travelling a lot by train. Yeah, I won't add anything else. This does not really fit the "if it looks too easy, it is just right" criteria but I'll try. do it anyway. Copied from my Battle log. Was advised by @sarakingdom to seek community in 4-week challenge subfora (tagging you for the accountability factor to show that I am following up ), and by @WhiteGhost to check out the Assassin's. WG, seems like you were right about the assassins' quests and description being what I am sort of aiming for, so I'll check it out Anyway, I was just being silly when I said I am biased. Sure, I like the idea of punching things unconscious 'as swift as the wind' with my bare hands very much but hey, I mostly just want to reach my goals and have fun while I am doing it. Easy to copy logging template: MEALPREP MEALPLAN/MFP+SNACKMIN MEDITATE ELLIPTICAL LOGTHE$ Sooo, it's late. For me, anyway. Going to relax without a screen for a bit and go to sleep. Since the last few months of 2018 I (gradually) decided I'm going to stop with trying to get back to waking up at 5 AM. Sort of "going with it" is finally working for me, as long as I don't stay up past midnight (too often). I mean, I really enjoy it when I am an early bird but. Will see how this goes. Enough talking... Let's do this!