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Work. Workout. WTF. I am finally, thankfully, working again. But with that comes a lot of, well…. Everything. I don’t have a 9 to 5 sit at a desk job. It’s a standing, moving things, making food, and dealing with lots of people face to face job. With a seemingly constantly changing schedule. The unofficial goals of this challenge: don’t let anything burn down, don’t make anyone disappear, and don’t mouth off to the wrong people. The real goals: wash my face, have breakfast prepared, and update my dry erase wall calendar when something changes. Also to keep following September’s exercise plan. More details to come.

How’s it going?

Today’s accomplishment: I didn’t cuss anyone out at work. Pro Tip: Don’t show up to work over 40 minutes late, clock in, and then be in the back on a video chat. Especially when your supervisor has been doing the work of 3 people cause you and your friend were both late. And on your first day? Great start.

How’s everything going?

Yesterday (or was it the day before?) I figured out why I’m depressed and don’t feel like doing anything and just want to stay in bed. I call it “The 9 Days of Hell”. Something goes wrong, I’ll hide under a blanket. Or cuss out an inanimate object. And can’t get more than a couple hours of sleep at a time. Yep. It more than sucks.

Well, I’m definitely a perfectionist. And doing one tiny thing at a time is a good place to start. But starting? Ugh. It’s “easy”. Or, you know, should be. And sure, you auto fail if you don’t even try. Except, part of me says, “you know full well that trying and failing hurts more than not trying.” The part of me that is very argumentative, and is better at winning an argument than me because they know how I’ll respond before I even know. I have no idea where my post is going. Or I guess went.

That sucks. It’s good that you have a plan though, and the PTO for it. I hope it goes smoothly. And that *knock on wood* nothing else happens.

Today: wake up go to work 4 hour catering shift, no sitting Lunch, I can sit for half an hour! 5 and a half hour concessions shift, no sitting go home eat left over mac & cheese around midnight, cause I only got home half an hour ago and I’m starving next, sleep

Yeah. The “at least start it” helped me actually do my workout yesterday. After procrastinating until almost bedtime. But hey, it got done!

Damn, I’d love a blend like that. But all I have is one for falling asleep. Well, unless you have insomnia. Where I live, there’s people that walk around with a whole store of oils strapped to them. All like, “what do you need? If I don’t have it, I know where to get it.” I remember seeing a few people doing that down in DC. But definitely more common in Baltimore. You can buy just about anything riding around our tiny metro system if you have a few bucks on you.

Having trouble getting myself to do things now.

The difficulty with holistic things is that you find a mix of science, faith, and snake oil. The first is generally pretty solid. And you’re more likely to find information online. The second, maybe there’s something to it. Maybe it’s just placebo. The only people I trust about crystals, reiki, and the like are other pagans/witches that I’ve meet in person. I’ve seen too many crazy people online, and I was definitely in the camp of believing people that in hindsight I shouldn’t have. Now, the snake oil is what’s dangerous. Don’t listen to people trying to sell you stuff. But I think the most important thing about all of this is to use holistic things as a compliment to medical treatment. Not a replacement. And that the more outrageous the claim, the more questionable it becomes.

First, my challenge progress. It at least looks good on paper. My motivation is waning. I’ve always, my whole life, had trouble with doing things because I should do them. I need to want to do them. Not just vaguely. I need it front and center. And that’s the direction I’m heading now. Without motivation, the want part fades away. And then I stop doing the things. Even if some part of me still wants it, or at least the end result. It becomes a chore. And never ask me to do chores.

When my BFF had a bad ear infection, she ended up getting eye drops instead of ear drops. Originally, the RX was for the ear drops. But our insurance didn’t cover it was it was pretty expensive. So then the doctor sent over one for eye drops. That insurance covered in full. I was very confused, but yep. The pharmacist explained that it’s basically the same thing. But cheaper.

Knowing it is half the battle.

Yeah. I’ve tried the sticky fruit fly traps. And they do not work! The only time I got a decent amount on one was when I kept swatting them with it. And I have been meaning to get a garbage can with a lid for years…

I’ve found the trick with professionals is to not “tell” them what to do. But to ask questions. ”Would it be better to do X?” If the answer is no, “why?” is a good follow up question. “I always thought Y, is that right/wrong?” “I think Z is needed, what do you think?” Of course that only works if you’re around when they are working.

I’m in the progress slowly camp. I only up the difficulty once a month. Two mottos: ”Progress, not perfection” ”Just show the heck up” (or a stronger word of your choice)

Okay, fruit fly traps. With the bait part, from what I remember they like sugar, vinegar, and booze. So more on the vinegar side should still work fine. What kills them is the dish soap. It sticks to their wings so they can’t fly and then they are doomed to drown. The part I’ve always had trouble with was making a top that they could get it, but would have to try really hard to get out.

Recording yourself when practicing anything is so useful! Keep it up. 😊

A lot of us have monsters we are trying to fight. They may say the same things, or different things. But in the end, we are all in this battle together.

If the lightbulb has been out for like, forever, there is no rush to get it fixed. So I think that can join the bottom of the priority list. Is typoese a language? It really should be! LOL I think we’ve all lived through that. I know I have. I’m one of those people who doesn’t get a new phone until the old one is completely dead. Or when I switch phone carriers and they don’t support my old phone.

Poor kitty! I hope they can tell you what’s wrong and that it’s nothing too bad!

The motto for last Saturday: Progress NOT Perfection. It’s okay if things aren’t perfect. And it’s okay to struggle with that idea. Week Two (or three, depending on how you’re counting): I missed drinking water on Saturday. I had a slow start, and didn’t catch up enough to meet the goal. On my workout sheet, the skull means it was totally reasonable to miss the workout. Saturday morning I was a bit sore from Friday. And my feet really hurt. Who know that would happen when you wear shoes you haven’t worn in a couple years! 😅 But I was feeling much better by the afternoon. And then we had to call 911 to get some paramedics over here to look at one of the people I live with (my BFF’s BF). He ended up going to the hospital, and had to stay overnight. He was gone for almost 24 hours all together. And we have no idea what the hospital bill is going to look like. So I was anxious, and my BFF was a bit of a wreck. And she couldn’t go with him. And then late that night, my BFF got some news (unrelated to her BF) that caused her to have a meltdown. So I did my best to comfort her. But it’s one of those situations where literally nothing can be done to help her. Trust me on this. So Saturday was a big ball of suckage.

I’d check Target or any similar stores. Maybe Radio Shack. Are those still a thing?