Talisaurus

Dear fellow nerds and wonderful supporters, I have failed this challenge. I will not say I'm defeated because I learned so much this time around. I am not invincible, I am not unbreakable, I am not some super hero. I am a mere mortal. Still capable of amazing feats and achievements but I need to take it slow. Much as I wouldn't walk into a gym and attemp to lift 200 lbs on day 1, I need to reassess what I want and how I want to accomplish it. Baby steps. I did manage to increase my water intake to a human level rather than the mouse quantities I was drinking before. I managed to figure out how to set up my bat cave and what does and doesn't work. I learned that I'm an addict and that I'm addicted to a very potent substance - food. I learned that even if the chocolate is labled as a gift to someone for a month from now, it doesn't mean I should keep it in my stash drawer near my computer desk. I will eat it and replace it and regret the former and the necessity of the latter. I realize the challenge isn't over but I think this will be my last post for this round. I need some time to figure some more things out and hopefully be ready in time for round 2.

So.....I fell off the wagon. I hit the ground hard. Then I got up, chased down my wagon, and here I am. I am still strong and sitting in my wagon. I am up to 80 oz of water per day. I managed it yesterday at least. I am aiming to make it again today. I need to reduce my appetite again now that the most glutinous holiday of the year is over. It may take a few days but at least I packed good food for work today. I feel like I've gotten really good at packing the right kind of food and in reasonable quantities. As far as workouts I think this will take some time. But I recently watched Jessica Jones and aside from glorifying alcoholism, it made me want to be strong and to get over my stupid fears and just get those workouts in! So tonight I need to cook and clean and stuff but tomorrow I am going to jujitsu. Even if I am a mess and am huffing and puffing the whole way. I need to go. I'll never stop being the lease in shape if I don't work on getting in shape. I think it also helps to remember why I go to jujistsu. It's not to get a workout in, that's just a nice side affect. It's to learn to fight. To learn to take care of myself. To learn to be strong and capable. I'll be looking back at this post tomorrow when I want to run and hide. Future me, please listen to past me. You can do it!

YES WE CAN!! So it's Wednesday already. Half way through week three! I am on point with water drinking mty 60 oz and it's getting almost second nature now to wake up and reach for that water. I am doing better on food this week too. Was there a chocolate bar on monday? Definitely. Was there Ice cream on tuesday? No, just some chocolate chip! For someone whoes boyfriend just declared he's going on "vacation" (a.k.a eating whatever he wants especially ice cream and donuts) I think I'm doing great this week. I even made it to my BJJ class yesterday. This took some courage but like you say, jusy 20 seconds. Once I'm in that car there are only so many places I can go and I'm not going back inside with my tail between my legs that's for sure. Yay week 3!! Let's kick some butt!!

Hi guys! You are so encouraging. I feel like I keep disappointing myself though. I didn't do great lately. Weekends are so tough and working from home is not something I'm good at yet. So far I've binned once and done no workouts all weekend. I can give you excuses about my sister and her kids visiting and family dinners/breakfasts/brunches or how Sam loves his milkshakes. I'm tired of excuses. They all stink. I'm still doing good on water. 50 oz regularly. Next week outta up to 60oz. As far as exercise I will treat each day separately. I need to really only miss workouts if there are physical reasons or true scheduling conflicts. No more excuses. I guess to be fair to myself Kat wrk was a pretty bad fibromyalgia week. I am feeling better now though. As far as food, as I said before, I ended up binging at some point. As small victory there is that it wasn't as bad as it usually is. Today my boyfriend asked me if I want a milkshake though as if I'd come get one with him. I went and didn't get one. Instead I had a small amount of ice cream at home. It's not a huge trade off but I feel it was still a trade up. As yummy but fewer calories. I will do even better tomorrow though. I will eat better, I will do a 10 minute without, I will drink all my water. I want to do better. I think I need to pick a cool super hero to aspire to. Any good strong female super heroes? Who do you guys like?

Yes yes I said I wouldn't update EVERY day but here I am. I weighed myself this morning and I'm down 4 lbs! Another 3 till I hit the next big 0 (any number that ends in 0). It's pretty nice to see. so that's 4 lbs closer to my 15 lb main quest goal! Almost a whole third! Ok ok I'm done bragging. 1. I went to class last night. My body did not like that but I'm glad I did it anyway. I'm starting to wonder if there is anyone on this forum who also has fibromyalgia. Seems like most people with this condition don't try to do strenuous ecercise but when I go regularly I feel like it makes me feel better and I'm not willing to accept that I can't do something. That's ridiculous. So I don't revoer like other people and I spent most of the day in bed. W/e I went and I will try to go tonight too. Try and stop me. This bout of my body's rebellion is temporary and when it's done it will be stronger. 2. Still drinking water though not quite the 50 oz. Today I'll do better though. I'm already almost half way there. 3. I have gained a lot of control over my eating and my house being cleaned out is great. I think I need to adjust my diet a little though. I need good healhy complex carbs in my diet. I feel better when there is some. I also need to up my protein just a touch more. I was trying to change mybreakfast away from steel cut oats but now I'm thinking I might be better off keeping it and adding some protein powder to it. If you guys have any ideas on supplements that might help my muscles recover and be healthy I'm open to try new things.

Thanks for the support! Yeah being obsessive is counter productive. It's like if you're tru do is thinying to eat better but all yok about the food you eat. You basically end up thinking about food all day. It will just make you hungrier. Plus there are so many things to do in a day that spending unnecessary time on minutia is only hurting you. I use the same technique here as I would for candy. Out of sight out of mind. The scale is hidden in our spare bedroom at home far away from my office, the candy is in the cupboard and super boring (chocolate chips only), the only thing regularly accessible to me is this forum and the facebook group. I would like to spend less time with them because I know it's already affecting my productivity at work. It's hard though, it's always on my mind and I get these emails and they're fun. I'm sure the weighing yourself is the same. Good luck to us both!

Update time! Quest 1: I haven't had any classes scheduled yet but I plan on going tonight. Once I get through the door to my dojo it will get a ton easier. I just need to get my butt in there! I also have another class planned for Wednesday. I am not going to look at anything further in the week than that. I am taking this a couple days at a time. Quest 2: I am doing great on water. I have hit 40 oz ever day and most days I go over by about 20 oz. This week I'm aiming for 50 oz so I guess it's time to up my game. I think I managed it yesterday. I know I hit at least 40 oz. Quest 3: I would say I have been mindful of my eating. I consciously choose to eat things I shouldn't when I do that but it has significantly decreased. Even my binges have changed. They start and abruptly end and I recognize what I'm doing and put the food down. I think this, above all other changes, is the biggest and most encouraging change for the better. As someone who has struggeled with binge eating for years I am super happy to be making progress in regaining control. I am both excited and nearvous about checking my weight in a couple days at last to see what progress was made if any. I will try not to write here every day as I know I can get obsessive and I'm trying to avoid that sort of behavior. ( It burns out my motivation quicker if I obsess over my diet/exercise). So I will talk to you all after my next weigh in.

I finally got around to reading other people's posts and it's so much fun! I love your writing style btw. You're a good story teller. I live in the city and have been stuck in the same situation of having to walk home with a crazy amount of groceries. I recommend if you choose to go grocery shopping by foot a) do it more often so you don't have as much to carry and don't use a cart, use a basket. If the basket is too heavy in the store, you can imagine what it would be like to carry all the way home. I used to go 2-3 times a week! These days i'm lazier and own a car. The car is the best and worst thing to ever happen to me. Way to go on your progress and despite the mosquito bites I bet Heimdall is loving the extended walks! Keep it up!

Awesome job!! Not binging is hard. I don't know if I binged over the weekend. I ate a lot but it wasn't out of control so I'm not classifying it a binge. It was just a family dinner with my favorite food. I found eatin gthose dark leafy greens that are kind of bleh, those keep me from random hunger bouts. That and regular exercise. I feel like the exercise helps regulate my hunuger while the leefy greens just kill it. That being said switching to the greens is a bit of a gassy process. Fair warning. I've been sneaking out on long walks at work lately until my stomach adjusts. Also I cook a LOT so if you want or have any inspiredmeal ideas I've got some to share but would also love to hear some.

Thank you womdercavegirl and Koaladle for your support. It means a lot to me. I'll check out the courtyard soon too. Thanks! Ok Here is week "1" progress. The quotes are because it was a very short week since it started on Friday. So far there were some set backs. Quests: Make it to class twice. I managed none. But before we all judge here's the store. Friday I left work early thinking I could make it home and have time to do a couple things before going to my boxing class. Instead I sat in traffic for two hours completely missing any opportunity to get anything done or make it to class. no joke, 2 hours! So I got home and decided "fine, I can salvage this" and so I did a 30 minute at home cardio workout. A lot of it was one variation of jumping or another. Turns out, like jump roping, I'm really not yet fit enough to do that a bunch. I am still super sore today from it. So saturday I had a lot of closely scheduled activities too. First the dentist, which went long also, then I had to go home and bake a quick batch of pumpkin cream horns for a family dinner in honor of my sister coming ot visit, and then I was supposed to fit jujitsu in there. Except I could barely walk after Friday's workout. So jujitsu was skipped again. I did take a walk to try to loosen up my legs though. As much as I failed quest 1, I did awesome with quest two driking far more than I had set for myself. I made it to 60 oz each day! Woohoo! Quest 3 was a hit or miss. Sometimes I did great, other times I was at the famility dinner with my favorite food and I may have lost myself in it and enjoyed every ounce of it. I regret it's bad for me but I don't regret enjoying it. I also find it hard to deal with my boyfriend's wishes for huge amounts of donuts and fast food on weekends. He eats like a saint during the week and does 3 workouts a day and basically pigs out on weekends. I can't do that though and he really wants my participation. Maybe it's time for another talk? I'm not sure I want to take it away from him since this works for him well enough but it's very disruptive for me. So overall I'd say 50% success. I will not weight myself right now due to the mensies but in about a week I'll check weight progress. I can say I haven't gained any at all at least which might mean I did lost some once all the extra water retained is drained away.

I will let you know. I think it will be soon. By the end of the week next week for sure.

Thanks for the support!! I made it through 20 oz already and a tea on the side. This is a lot for me so I feel accomplished. I also didn't do terrible on my food today. And though I haven't done it yet, I'm very ready to kick this boxing class's butt. Evil jump roping, I will defeat you!

I also have a binging issue and it's really tough to combat it but it's doable. I went a week without, then had a really bad weekend and it took a while to get back on track but here I am today doing better. I think every day you're in control is a victory so good for you! Mindful eating has been helping me a lot in gaining control. Good luck to us both, I know we can do it!

Hello everyone, Very new to this and a bit late getting started but here goes. Main quest! I will grit my teeth, ersist temptations, and manage to lose 15 lbs during this 6 week challenge. How you ask? By being awesome! Also by actually making it to three of my BJJ/boxing mix classes per week every week. This is a minimum! I've been paying for 4 classes a week and making it on average to 2-3. Not a great record. There are some set backs, I have fibromyalgia and once in a while I get thrown a curve ball. But as stated above I will use my awesomeness to manage. This week (being rather short) I only commit to two classes, tonight and tomorrow. I am also committing to increasing my water intake. I barely drink. I'm like a camel. I will have tea and coffee but we're talking 16 oz during the day total liquid intake and only another 20oz at night. So here I am vowing to you all that I will aim to increase the amout of water I drink by an extra 10 oz every week. This week I need to hit 40 oz (not counting things like tea and coffee) and by the end I should be drinking something crazy like 100 oz. I may drown or pee myself but this is a sacrifice I'm willing to make. Last and certainly not least, I commit to mindful eating as I was taught by a nutritionist. Not sure much the don't multitask philosophy which is good but I need time to sleep guys, eating and working is a life saver. Instead my philosophy is more focused on why I'm eating and is putting this calorie cake in my mouth a conscious decision done with proper consent or is it my lifelong addiction to all things food (especially carby food) driving me to commit sins against my body. I also have a life quest that I have been putting off. This is not a full commitment but rather a way for me to keep my mind on other ways I could be improving my life. I recently joined the desk jockey bregade. This was a big change for me since really I was a lab rat for a long time. This means I'm a bit behind on the computery stuff. I did start working on learning some coding basics though using code school and I like it but it gets pushed back on the priority list. So here I am adding this psuedo commitment to try harder to spend more time learning all the computery stuff and more specifically in making progress on my "Javascrip Roadtrip". Phew that was getting long.....Just to wrap up then, the big why! Why do I want to do all this aside from leveling up my life, increasing awesomeness, etc. I would like to look good so I can finally feel confident. There are a lot of activities out there that I'm too embarrassed to participate in because I feel like i'm too fat for that or people will treat me differently because I am bigger. Even with BJJ I feel like I'm not exactly the first choice when we break into pairs. I'm tired of feeling like I'm less. P.S. If you're wondering where the name comes from, in BJJ I learned I have t-rex limbs. I basically have to shrimp to accomplish almost any chokehold.