Flex Luthor

Inch by inch is a cinch

Hey Laurine! Welcome to the rebellion. This is a question only your doctor can answer. Please consult with them about when to resume your workouts. Good luck!

You are a hero

33 minutes ago, Tanktimus the Encourager said:

Dude, burden away. Stuff gets real here on the forums. Part of the magic of this place is the support you get.

Oh I'm well aware of the magic here  I just like to keep things close to the vest usually on public forums.

22 hours ago, Tanktimus the Encourager said:

Very wise Flex. When your emotional strength matches your deadlift, you will indeed be unstoppable. 

My physical strength is a byproduct of my emotional unrest. The only way I've ever been able to keep myself sane is through lifting. As I'm finding out through therapy it fixed nothing but it allowed me to keep fighting and I'm eternally grateful for that.

11 hours ago, The Shogun said:

Are you NF updates way more interesting than your already amazing and instagram posts.. y'know, like @RedStone's !? I'll hit the follow (After week two, pfft) right now!

My NF updates are a lot of shop talk usually. I don't like to burden people with my shit. On Instagram I just throw it out to the ether.

I wrote this for Instagram and had to share it here. Be strong my friends.

This thread is no longer productive.

Workouts are still going well.

Therapy is getting quite difficult. What people don't mention about it is that really digging into why you do the things you do is a really painful process. Hoping to get at least a glimpse at the light at the end of the tunnel soon.

Update! Workouts are going well but most importantly I'm stating to separate my self worth from my performance in the gym or how I look. I noticed the other day that I'm smaller and weaker than I have been in at least a year. Normally this would have been a downward spiral for me mentally but I still feel really good about everything. Mental progress has been huge just in the 4 sessions of therapy I've had. Reminding myself every day that my body is a product of love. It's a lot easier to find peace when I come from that perspective.

19 hours ago, Tanktimus the Encourager said:

(I know this doesn't solve the problem, I'm hoping to bring a smile to your face)

Wear Ranger Panties, stand in front of mirror, imagine the rebellion giving you the thumbs up.

Seriously though, so happy for you that you got some good help on this, negative self-image is a bitch to deal with.

I do have that one picture from camp....

12 hours ago, CourtnieMarie said:

so glad to see so many people (IRL and on here) taking advantage of therapy and/or being more open about going regularly. the more we can talk about it, the less it becomes a stigma. it's my thought-process that everyone needs it. and i am a hypocrite because i don't do it... but, glad it is helping!

 

following along for the awesome  

I excel at not taking my own advice. Now I'm paying someone to give me the advice I won't take from myself  (not really but kinda)

12 hours ago, Tanktimus the Encourager said:

Been there man. For me the watchword was "Good." I had to convince myself that I am indeed a good man, and when I did that, lo and behold I did good man things. My newest one is: I am no longer a fat person, therefor I no longer do fat person things. I am a healthy person, and therefor I do healthy person things.

Thanks for the advice Tank! Right now I find myself really in need of a win, a big win. Difficult to do with body image and worth but I think I've found a way. More on that to come.

14 minutes ago, spezzy said:

proud of you, for all of this. following, of course.

<3

I've taken mental health breaks before with NF but this was the first time of being open about doing so. Love the support and all of you.

I had a therapy session today. I likely won't share most of the details of these sessions but progress was made. Legs tonight

6 hours ago, Br0din said:

are we still racing to 200?  cause...  I've been going backwards...

I haven't weighed myself in about 6 weeks and I'm ok with that for now. The race may continue someday.

Hmm these goals seem familiar......

Ok much longer post incoming. 

2016 was a very big year for me. The highlights: Moved across the country out of my parents house for the first time. Went to Camp Nerd Fitness and met some of the best people in my life. Got a job working in a new industry (Restaurant; Serving). Fell in love for the first time and had my heart broken. Started therapy for the first time in my life (having needed it for quite a long time).

SO, with all of that said I have many new things to focus on this year. Priority number 1 is myself in all aspects. I will do what I need to do (not necessarily want but need). I will NOT sacrifice myself for other's happiness.

2 main ways I intend to do this.

1. Train the way I need to. Bodybuilding. PHAT specifically. Late night when the gym is empty. Non negotiable.

2. Worth. I have not now nor have I ever felt worthy. Of love, a fulfilling career, true friends, anything good really. Surprise! I have had a really hard time in all of those areas. I am going to change that. The biggest way is intention. When I do things that are positive for me I'm going to actively remind myself that I do them because I'm worthy. I'm going to assess honestly whether a situation is in alignment with my current needs or not, and most importantly act on it if it's not. I'm going to do whatever my therapist says. I'm going to trust my friends who have seen me at my darkest what my good qualities are. I'm going to continue to post to Instagram my thoughts as I workout. I'm finding it helps to reinforce the good things I think about worth and to actually internalize them.

My cards are on the table. I post here to remind nerds that we all struggle. We all fight our own battles. And we can all win.

Peace

I can't say I've ever been one to make big declarations about my goals so here's my challenge so far. Stay on my motherfucking path. I will, however, be updating here as to how I'm doing with that. For now assume things are being lifted.

Frantic confusion makes for a snazzy life!

Good luck on your meet man! Love seeing powerlifters doing their thang.

Welcome to the swole side. We have protein cookies..

The numbers I figured out using this chart and picked what ranges I liked.

Monday - Squats started at 9, 3x3@65% spoto press.

Wednesday - 9 Deadlift 8 Bench

Friday - 3x10@65% Squats

Saturday - 9 Bench 3x3@65% pause deads

Monday and Saturday secondary lifts are accessory so whatever you feel you need there. (Full credit to @spezzy for giving me the template)

3 minutes ago, Gainsdalf the Whey said:

What's the program? I haven't been lifting, trying to find something simple to follow that I can knock out in 45 min segments until after the holidays.

https://docs.google.com/spreadsheets/d/1fIaEkI75nw8DX8bE8ius7wNzMKCbl-i0eOW0ZRh-ilo/edit?usp=sharing

I've got about 3 weeks of data in there. The only thing programmed are my main lifts. Accessory are usually whatever I feel like which ends up being shoulders or back and then leg stuff on Friday. With just the main lifts you can knock it out in an hour with adequate warm up.

On 10/13/2016 at 8:22 AM, ~RedStone~ said:

Someone else: I said/thought something self deprecating in response to being amazed by @Flex Luthor's elevated handstand pushups when really I was just impressed by the epic stronk. Foolish and more importantly distracting from the fact that YOU'RE AWESOME FLEX! and one of my biggest inspirations! Your hard work and skills are incredible.  

<3

I've hit every workout so far. 4x4 @ 270 on bench on Saturday. Loving this program.

Hey @Br0din

We ended one streak already last night. With a pitcher I might add. You should consider yourselves very lucky.