Anita

Yeah, we over think things and gather underpants instead of just doing. Thanks for the moral boost!

Hihi! I entered into an anti-fragile mindset without even realizing it. So, it's break time and I'm having a slice of key lime pie, talking with a co-worker about how we're all going to have to move locations if we want to keep out jobs without becoming registered inspectors for the an insurance company. Now, I've gone to this second location twice. I'm pushing 40, morbidly obese and am a generally lazy person over all. However, the complaints about having to walk from the parking lot and up some shallow stairs really bothered me. I had believed myself as pretty fragile and if I had a car, the parking lot walk and those shallow stairs would be nothing, just as natural as breathing. Maybe, if I didn't take the bus everywhere I had to go and walk 20 min to and from work everyday to get to the bus stop, I very well may be one of my many coworkers who are going to quit this easy peasy job over a flight of gradual stairs... When she asked me my opinion, I did something rare. I dropped the "professional" façade and simply stated "As large and old as I am, I hope I never become so weak as to be put off by a parking lot and a single flight of low stairs. I'm getting back into this program that's all about being Anti-Fragile and to be honest, if you want to be happy, you have to be proud of who you are. That's why I'm not happy, I'm a sloven mess." In the midst of shocked stares and blinks, I realized my Big Why (Mindset Quest 3: Find Your BIG Why). Being physically weak is simply not acceptable anymore. I've been accused from time to time of being a meta-gamer or a min/maxer. I remember responding with "Look, if your f'n character dies, it's not going to be because mine wasn't powerful enough to do her f'n job! It's our responsibility to keep each other alive by not being weak or making others take up the slack! Know your f'n role!" How can I have a mindset like that where character creation is concerned... and not apply it to myself? I blame it on always having a strong and distinct line between fantasy and reality. Up until this point it has always been a merit... but now I see the flaw in it. It's difficult for me to un-compartmentalize and use useful insights and outlooks from the fantasy aspect of my mind and apply it to rl. But... since I've joined NF, it's been easier to get my head into the healthy space it needs to be for success. Thanks Guys!

8/23/16 Breakfast: Bacon and Egg on an English Muffin Lunch: Monster Afternoon Snack: Half a slice of Keylime Pie Dinner: Nothing Soda: 2 bottles Water: Nothing Goal Accomplishments: Wheeled out a full garbage bin when I got home! Notes: Believe it or not, this is much better than my usual intake of nonsense. That goal accomplishment might not seem like a big deal, but I'm coming out of a dark place where apathy and simply accepting the landfill my apt has become had set in. I started goal setting yesterday for my Quests. As I acknowledged just how much I have become a waste of space and squandered potential... I actually felt a slow tingle of excitement as I organized all the things that I need to do to be become the basic human being that my dog believes I can be. By the time I was done, I felt a sense of peace from since a time unknown. Last night, when I was wheeling back that trash bin, I took my dog out and let him play in the lawn in front of my apartment for a good hour. True, it wasn't a 30 min walk, but we had a blast and he's such a goofy boy. Took a shower and woke up... with a smile on my face. Another thing that hasn't happened for a very long time. But I did curl around that happiness and didn't get up as early as I normally do. However, this is a great foundation to build on! Also, as I was reading the site and filling everything out, my day flew! I glanced at the time and was all omg, it's 5 till 6pm, wth?! My days at work have become drawn and soul sucking. Thank you Nerd Fitness for giving me something that makes the life of a Wage Slave a little more bearable! +++++ 8/24/16 Breakfast: Slim Jim and Livewire Mt. Dew (BREAKFAST OF CHAMPIONS!) Lunch: 2 strip bacon and egg white sandwich with spinach and the subway vinaigrette on white flat bread. Soda: 2 bottles

6 Con, rolled a 1 on my d3... Can I even start with a -1HP? Nope, min 1hp good good... -trips and falls on own dagger- -unconscious and bleeding- -fails con checks to stabilize for the remaining rounds- DAMNIT! Yep, that would So happen to me at my current level of Fragile. Let's see if I can do anything about that. Rather than state my goals here and what I Want to achieve... I think I'm going to simply state what I achieved the day before. See ya tomorrow!

So, I joined a long time ago with an enthusiasm I haven't felt in a very long time. But then my default settings kicked in, mainly the "I will still be alone even if I am healthier, stronger, and change my life. I'll just be waiting to die again like I am now. The only difference is that I'll leave a prettier corpse." Morbid, right? I knew then that I have to remove my extremely high and extremely low levels of enthusiasm from the equation in order to start. Success and meeting goals and doing a fucking pull up should trigger the initial enthusiasm I had felt... not for its sake alone. So now, I'm in a very neutral mental state and think I'm where I need to be for a solid start and to maintain a slow burn to continue. Good Luck Nerds. If you've been waiting to die, why not live in the meantime?

If a change in diet is one of many changes, which adds to the accumulated stress both mental and physical (which has a direct effect on ones immune system), then yes, a change of diet can indeed allow my immune system to be temporarily wonky and open me up to the current living hell I'm in. In addition, toxic food is toxic, but when your body has adjusted to it, like any addict, the lack of the substance my body has come to accept as the norm does have a mental and physical effect, similar to someone unable to get their fix. It's not a leap of logic. I just wanted to know if anyone else has experienced withdrawal symptoms when you've changed your diet for the better and how long it's lasted. If you're someone who has never experienced these symptoms, either in fitness or any other aspect of your life, consider yourself fortunate, but please leave the dismissing attitude at the door. Thanks~

Well, if nothing else, if I survive this level of "Why God Why?!!! T.T" personal Hell, it might raise my endurance and stamina over all for strength training!

hmm, any kind of sharp inhale makes sinuses, throat and lungs feel like liquid nitrogen is being poured down em... note to self, stop breathing.... x.x

Haha

Currently weaker than a kitten and joints ache, but no death rattle on the exhale and fever seems to have finally broken.

Hey gang, So... I've been making changes in what I thought was a slow and steady pace, but over this weekend, I got hit with this crazy fever/cough/cold combination that left my whole body pounding and as sensitive as a migraine. The congestion was so bad that I literally felt like I was going to drown in my own lungs and that mortifying loud death rattle sound on every exhale really scared me! ... am I ... going though "stuff face with bad stuff" withdrawals? I took a bunch of cough and cold meds and slept on my tummy with a towel under my cheek so I wouldn't drown in my own ick... and after 2 days of straight sleep, was able to take a shower, get on the bus and get to work... but I was seriously scared. If it's not withdrawals, is it because I'm causing too many changes to quickly and the stress is affecting my immune system? Thoughts?

Mornin Ms. Jalisac! Believe you me, I completely understand where you're coming from. The sense of anger, desperation and drive. That need for results and feeling that extreme measures need to be made to balance out being morbidly obese. And how sometimes, all we need is the support that the decision to act on all the underpants we've collected is a good one. I FULLY support your commitment and drive! However, in the unlikely event you get discouraged because the results aren't fast enough or LIFE rears its ugly head and sets you back on your goals and desires... try again in the way that was suggested by all these ppl who care for you. That's all Good Luck and I'm Very Proud of you for understanding yourself enough to know how to work within your means! p.s.: Once you do get down to where you're happy and healthy, all the previous suggestions would be amazing simple to help Maintain a positive health <3

I remember helping my mom rub in muscle and ligament creams/oils when my dad used to go to the gym religiously. Massages may also help!

Thanks for the heads up

-sigh- I don't think I'm nerdy enough to navigate the forums...

Noo cool stuffz guildies?

Noo cool stuffz guildies?

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Hihi! Kinda in a dilemma... So, one of the main things I'm trying to change is to be more social ~legasp~ I've already tried reaching out on the boards to see if there were any NFers in Columbus OH, but no response. I'm really excited about this change I'm making, but I really want someone to share the journey with... to have average joes get strong enough to go on adventures with me! However... no luck so far. -sad panda- I mainly have male friends of various level of fitness and when I talk to them about this and wanting them to join/go to Camp/save up for an expedition into the unknown... it always comes back to sex. Seriously. /headdesk I'm not A-Sexual but come on! Advice on how to approach friends and actually sit down with something serious and profound without it being reduced to just sex? Please and Thank You! Edit: Is any other female(s) experiencing this as well? If so, how do you deal/change the game?

Hihi Psicodom! As a former "I'm depressed, I'm happy, I'm bored out of mah mind, I'm breathing! LET'S EAT OUT!" addict, I can completely relate. What I did? Became a better cook than what I used to eat out at! With the exception of Popeyes Mild Tenders right out of the vat o' fat, I've easily accomplished this (I'll get the tenders from time to time, but make it a point not to get it when my FEELS are rampant). Another thing, I've found I love flavored water and replace most of my soda with it! I guess my main trick was find a TASTIER healthy alternative to the junk. I'm kinda lazy where cookings concerned, but found I absolutely love the taste of California Honey French Dressing and the crisp crunch of salad with sliced boiled eggs and a mountain of sunflower seeds tossed in (great replacement for crutons)! Yeah sure, dressing has fat in it, but compared to the HUGE AMOUNTS O' FAT I was previously consuming, who the hell cares? o.O Approach it with an open mind. If you approach it as a skeptic, you automatically set yourself up for failure!

2nd question: How do I properly "Quote?" I click the Quote button... write a response in the box, hit Post... No quote, just my response.