Cataleya

"I'm naturally chunky" same

I dunno if I have ever tried flax. I'll have to look for a small thing to try! Just did a deep clean of the apartment today and threw out some expired and questionable food, so I do have some room. I didn't log it because I want to see what tomorrow looks like but I weighed in at like 202.8 or something like that today. Could have been a fluke, so waiting. Would really like to get and stay under 200, so I can get a new Fitbit. My current one has a crack Did a roughly 4mi walk with a friend today, then the deep clean added another 3 or 4k steps. I'm exhausted, y'all. My apartment is ready for my MIL and SIL to visit. I dunno how I'll feel about clothes shopping with what I look and feel like but we'll see how it goes. I've increasingly had a desire to just a few items I really like rather than a bunch of stuff I'm okay with. So I dunno.

I hope the house hunting goes well. People keep asking me if we'll get one if I get tenure, and I have no idea. I'm too used to moving around a lot as a military brat.

I mean, ice cream and a walk sounds like a good idea.

Yeah no grains sounds insane. I could probably do it one day, but past that would be hard. Even if you don't want it, it feels like it's in everything.

You have a whole gym at your place right? What all is in it again?

Looks like you're making some progress! Back spasms are the worst. I hope dropping the weight helps.

It's possible, I think. Might be worth having a chat with them when they come out (or before).

I try not to eat out TOO often but when I do I use MFP to make my best guess. A few things make it easier: if I eat at a place that is either on MFP or published nutritional info, and eating simpler stuff on the menu (less to guess about). At the end of the day all nutrition tracking is an estimate so I try not to get too hung up on it.

I gotta do some cleaning tomorrow in advance of MIL and SIL visiting. I think it will make me feel better, but I also feel exhausted just thinking about it.

Following~ I like this challenge!

Sorry, I'm here. I think I might be going into a depressive episode. Or something. I'm in some kind of funk. It could be how weird our weather has been. Getting sick might have messed me up, too. Part of me is just exhausted. I have a lot of work to do and things to take care of and the apartment is kind of a mess (though it looks better now than it did) and I just feel this existential emptiness when I think about everything I have to do. But I started that TOM early, which is a little odd but I guess not surprising given my increased activity levels. I've been just... tired and not feeling very good about myself. I'm 30 now and still fat, still not found a great thing that works for me, still feel like I have to work harder than everyone else to get worse results. I guess there's a bit of self-pity in there I just gotta shake off. Like, I was tracking my food and feeling pretty good about it. Until I wasn't. Now I've stopped tracking, though I'm still working on getting more protein in and stuff. I'll be okay, I just... really wish the timing was better on this. Anyway, WEEK 0 * Weigh myself every Monday. 206.8lbs * Take my meds every day. 7/7 * Do intentional activity. Changed this to just "do intentional activity," because when I do weights or the NFA workouts, it doesn't always take 30 minutes. Anyway, 3/3 for the days I wasn't sick. * Read for 15 minutes every day. 7/7 WEEK 1 * Weigh myself every Monday. Memorial Day messed with my head. Weighed myself today. 204.2lbs. * Take my meds every day. 3/3 so far * Do intentional activity. 2/3 so far * Read for 15 minutes every day. 3/3 so far Okay now to put tiger balm on my calves because holy shit do they hurt after the trail walk I did yesterday with a friend.

Thank you! I'll have to check these out.

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I got a call this morning, a request to take a friend to the doctor. I thought it would mess up the rest of my day, and in a way it did (I ended up nabbing Starbucks for both of us), but I still managed to get in 40 minutes of stationary biking (5 warmup + 30 + 5 cool down) and 30 minutes on the track. I stayed inside partially due to bad weather, but mostly because I wanted to be able to easily stop if I got lightheaded. I tried to drink my protein drink after the workout but I didn't have milk and the powder is gross with water, so I had some a bit after dinner. Much better strategy. Went shopping. I actually forgot to pick up some protein stuff but I think I can do with what I do have. I at least got new eggs, and was pleased to find certified humane eggs. Nutrition: 150g carbs (44%) 39g fat (25%) - perfect 105g protein (31%) 11g fiber 1353 calories I think I need more fiber but I don't really know a good way to get it that won't also jack up my carbs. I usually get it from fruit and stuff. I'll need to look into it.