Tamesis

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Finding Myself, Finding Tamesis - Taskade (I have never tried sharing a list on Taskade before. If anyone tries to use the link, let me know if it works or not. It's supposed to show you my project so you can see what tasks are due on which days and if I am completing them. My accountability. ) I am running late. But I am working on it. I feel as if I've hit a bit of a bottom. I just want to be able to have focus in my life and feel like I'm achieving something. My life is becoming increasingly monotonous, and I don't like the way that it is making me feel. It's time to shake things up a bit. In addition to this, I have no drive to do anything. I'm stuck in a helpless cycle, and it is incredibly frustrating. Overall, for this challenge, I want some accountability, and I want to work on my mental health journey. In tandem, I need to work on getting my house clean. I cannot live in this mess anymore. Finally, what really sparked my need to do something, was my mom and my grandma insisting on giving me money to treat myself to a massage. They want me to do something for me, but I really don't feel that I deserve it. I can promise that that money will only go towards that. The location that I'm going to go through books out several weeks in advance regardless. 😄 My Overall Objectives Create a thread on the forums Complete Duolingo dailies Complete My True Value exercises Complete Voice training Further my Inner Realms Journey Create an efficient morning routine Get the downstairs cleaned up

Okay, so this is my first challenge back in a while so I'm going to keep it simple. I am going to focus on four tasks. Completing at least one activity in the Inner Realms Journey app Post in my battle log, challenge, or both Duolingo Track Food/Exercise on Fitbit [Insert Excel link here] And, as a new edition and to give myself more motivation, I am going to have a reward at the end of the challenge if I complete with at least a 90%. Details to come.

I killed it at work today! I got so much done! I feel a great weight has been lifted off of me. I was a 12 hour day though. I need to be in a half hour early tomorrow too. This is alright though. It'll give me a chance to jump into the paperwork that accumulated since I picked everything up this morning. Inner Realms Journey Today I was tasked with creating my sanctuary realm. My realm is a green, lush forest. There is a long river running through it. There is herbavore wildlife as well as fish in the river. At the base of a beautiful waterfall is a clearing in the forest. Here, is a simple looking three room log cabin. You walk up five steps to a partial wrap around covered porch. There is a porch swing, love seat, and two chairs arranged so companions can interact with one another and appreciate the scenery. A coffee table, with a mason jar full of flowers, is in the center of the seating. You walk into the cabin and are greeted by a spacious living area. To your immediate left is a gorgesous wooden coat rack. To the right of the door is the portal that leads to the other realms. My portal is a ring of stones; seemingly affixed to the wall. The portal is linked directly with my mind and will take me wherever I request to go. If someone is trying to enter my realm, I will recieve a telepathic "ping" letting me know. Looking ahead, there is leather furnature surrounding a large fireplace. There is a metal basket, to the left of the fireplace, filled with firewood. To the right are black fireplace tools. At the far end of the room is a modern-with rustic charm-basic kitchen. There is a large oak dining table with 6 chairs around it. On the right side of the kitchen is a door that opens up into a large bathroom. One wall is a large window and in front of it is a large soaking tub with a rain shower head above it. There is also a toilet, sink, and vanity. The final room is the bedroom. There is a walk-in closet filled with anything you can think of needing for an adventure. The bedroom itself held a king sized bedframe made of logs. The mattress feels like heaven and is made up in a royal purple bed spread.

Thank you. It doesn't get any easier on her as the years go by. I'm trying! I'm desperately in need of change right now. Things have been stagnant for too long and bad habits die hard. I keep wanting to add more and more to my plate. Which is most definitely a problem I have. I always go big or go home. Mostly going home when I set the bar way too high. Of course, trying to find a good work/extra work/life/school balance is always difficult as well. I am really hoping that these two simple quests will help me better handle all of the stress of juggling things. Thank you for commenting!

Work was very overwhelming today. I honestly feel like I am drowning, and I have no idea how I'm going to complete this project for work in addition to my actual work. One day at a time though. I'll have more time to get caught up tomorrow, I hope. Since I'm working a 12-hour day and all. Today in the Inner Realms Journey (IRM) app I created my avatar which will allow me to "travel the different inner realms." My avatar's name is clearly... Tamesis. My current height, body make, age, but much fitter. A healthier version of me if you will. Long auburn hair that is worn in many assorted styles depending on the occasion. She wears a functional tunic, pants, and boots for traveling in the wilds. She also carries a long cloak, bow and arrows, and a book of healing. She is strong-willed and not afraid to speak her mind. She is smart, kind, loving, and just wants to make a positive difference in people's lives.

Today went okay. It was the anniversary of my dad's passing. I got through work okay overall. We usually go up to the cemetery on this day and plant flowers at my dad's memorial. It was downpour raining though and my sister forgot that my niece had a fitness class to attend. This day is hard on our mom and everyone at her home had, apparently, left her home alone all day despite knowing this. My hubby and I rescued her from the isolation as soon as I got out of work though, and we had a nice dinner together. She seemed to be in better spirits after and we have essentially made plans for the rest of the week. Tomorrow we'll get together with my sister's family and have dinner. Saturday, we'll go and plant flowers at the memorial. Sunday is a bit up in the air, but at the very least it will end with my mom, sister, and I supervising my husband and brother-in-law putting together a playground they just bought. I'm sure we'll have lunch with my grandma as well. Now I must start focusing on my college work again too. I just jumped feet first into my next class so I'm going to have to add in at least one quest related to that. Related to the inner realms journey app; I have only completed the first and second portions of it, but so far, I am enjoying it. It interacts with me how my mind likes to relax. For years now, I must imagine myself a story to focus my mind on one thing and not hundreds while I'm trying to fall to sleep. This form of a guided/quest base/story-based meditation is fantastic for it. The past two nights trying it, I have felt incredibly physically relaxed after listening. I'm very curious to see where this journey will lead.

My mind is in an overwhelming whirlwind of late and I am trying to get myself back to some normalcy. I have decided that I really need to do something about this because it is effecting every facet of my life. It basically cripples me. It makes work very difficult and at home I basically get nothing done. I always have better success when I have more accountability than just me so I am returning to the forums. The goal of my battle log is to slowly help me organize my thoughts and bring myself to a better place mentally... maybe even physically in the long run. So for this first week, I am giving myself to daily quests to complete. The first is going to be writing in my battle log once a day. The second quest is going to be interacting with the Inner Realms Journey app for meditation once a day. 1233: So far, this Monday is going pretty smoothly. I have more or less, been in a borderline happy mood. I am still very overwhelmed from being on vacation. I have so much work to catch up on and it feels endless. Tensions in the office are pretty low so far today and we haven't dealt with any "high school drama" yet, thank fully. I am looking forward to this evening. Today is my grandparent's anniversary and we are having dinner with them tonight.

I woke up early and ate a good breakfast today. I'm trying my hand at WW again and actually found myself struggling to use enough points today. That felt like a win to me. I am still caught up at work today. I did not do anything extra for studying though. I got to talk to some friends today. I also found myself really looking forward to spending time with my sister, niece, and nephew today. My sister and the kids came over and we worked on wedding planning together. I feel like I finally have a set theme and ideas to run with. It's nice to have my sister help rounding out my ideas. No house stuff was done by me today. I'm looking forward to tomorrow. We're having family over for my brother-in-law's birthday. We're having a cookout and I'm super excited. I'm finding that I like to host events at my house.

Today I woke up early. I was able to take my time getting ready for work. I ate a good breakfast and I found a document I was looking for last night. At work today I was able to finally get caught up with everything. I have been so behind for weeks and it just feels like a weight has been lifted off me for me to be caught up. I did not work on any classwork though. I reached out to some friends that I haven't talked to in a while. It was nice getting in touch with them. My husband, brother-in-law and I, spent the evening together. We've started watching The Umbrella Academy and it is giving me mixed emotions. I did no house stuff today.

Background: I feel like I'm in a constant state of being overwhelmed. At work, at home, with most aspects of my life really. My husband and I were trying to become foster parents, and after months of going through trainings, paperwork, background checks, fingerprints..., they told us that they think it would be best for us to hold off for another year or so. I'm trying to remain positive about it. A year does give us more time to prepare and focus our efforts on other aspects of our lives. The whole process also showed me that disaster planning is an important thing we should take into consideration as well. Finally, it also inspired me to renew my efforts for my own health. I have a surgery coming up in the next couple months and I would like to start a family of my own. My husband and I cannot conceive naturally so the only way to move forward with starting a family is through artificial insemination. My weight is too high for the doctors to let me do that though. They won't move forward with that until my BMI is in a certain range, which comes out to roughly 200lbs. I currently have 66lbs to lose to get to that goal. So I have some broad areas that I want to focus on/journal about for accountability: My Health (Mental and Physical) My Career (Associates RN and Learning Spanish) My Family (Wedding Planning and Spending Time with Family/Friends) My Home (House Projects and Foster Parenting Changes Disaster Planning)

So yesterday I finally had my reproductive endo/fertility appointment. It was a bit nerve wracking and overwhelming. So while we try to regulate my cycle, I need to lose ~100lbs so that I'm in the healthy weight range to have children. I've been slowly but surely working on losing weight. I was feeling pretty confident and then I was informed that to regulate my cycle we'll use hormones. I'm not sure why that surprised me... but it'll make it more difficult to lose weight. I'm concerned about this but it's not like its impossible. I can do this. I know I can. It's just overwhelming. I did discover, thanks to Facebook, that Nerd Fitness has an app now! I downloaded it and started it. It feels like starting the academy fresh. I'm really enjoying it so far! It was a great, inspirational find!

I like To-Do lists. I frequently make them, and forget to ever look at them again. But I'm trying to get a bit better about it. I'm also working on getting myself up a little earlier so I have time to sit down and organize my day. I have also spent time detailing every minute of my day. I try not to do that so much anymore since wrenches are frequently thrown my way. I prefer a more loose plan of the day. Of course the main points of the day are work, family time, sleep, and school stuff when class is in session. Maybe I should start micromanaging again. Hmm. I'll think about this a little. I am very rambly right now. o.o sorry. :D Yay! Thank you! I'll have to look into that book! I added it to my sample list in my kindle. :)

A little recap. So I forgot we were starting this up again before Saturday. But I am busy as always. It's overwhelming as always. The challenge could be going better but it also could be going worse. Does anyone have any advice for managing your time while working a lot? I keep saying I'm going to fall into a routine but I am really struggling. I'm afraid I may have to turn to coffee soon lol

Good morning Rebellion! Previously known as Neeko, I'm rising as Tamesis. Neeko really held some unpleasant memories for me so it was time for a change. Tamesis was and is my boss healer in WoW. The name comes from the River Thames and means the Dark One. This challenge is similar to my last challenge but I've backed off a lot on my goals. An unwritten (written) goal that has cause this is the need to spend more time with my family, especially with my soon to be sister-in-law. She is 17, soon to be 18, and not in the best of situations at home. She has been staying with us for the last couple weeks and her parents are still not treating her great and upsetting her. There's nothing I can do about them, but I want to make sure she understands she has me and her brother's support, make sure she has everything she needs (so her parents' can't hold it over her head and make her feel like she owes them), and get her through her senior year of high school so she can go to college. So needless to say, I need to have a little more free time to work with her which is hard when I'm working so much. Current Challenge