Shai

So. Went to the second weight watchers meeting yesterday, shit was awesome. So I'm counting "points" instead of calories, which rake getting used to. I'm shit at math, so that's nice. Also, I'm studying to improve my math score. It's hard,but it gives me time structure at the base. I ran yesterday at the gym, and it felt so good. I think I'll make it a thing where I run on the first home day. So yesterday I didn't count beyond breakfast,just sort of counted this morning from the memory. It was in not my budget.

Okay. So I went to a weight watchers meeting. It was nice, I sort of observed during a meeting, and the next one is real. Start of the base week. Wish me luck Sent from my w5 using Tapatalk

alright. so for the past... month, I stopped counting calories. I figured that since I'm joining weight watchers I don't need to count calories. I feel it. I'm feeling out of control in a lot of areas in my life, and it all traces back to the moment I stopped counting. even though I wasn't losing any weight, it gave me a sense of control. right now I'm just eating freely. I'm a chubby dude, and if I keep eating like that I'll get real fat. 10 min ago I ate a shit ton of chocolates. so back to counting.

Short update Ran 10 minutes and then did some pushups with the sworkit app thing. I liked it, and the new running app also works nicely. Nice and easy opening for the week. Sent from my w5 using Tapatalk

Just wanted to say I'm impressed about how neat and organized your log is. I'm jealous[emoji12] Sent from my w5 using Tapatalk

Update Still struggling to find a weight watchers group to join. Sent from my w5 using Tapatalk

okay, i missed like... 4 weekly posts? that seems like too much. one wouldn't upload, with another one i forgot to press send, and then the last two weeks i was internetless- which was a challenge I'll discuss later in this post. and now that i think about it, i have been rather lost in my diet way the last 4 weeks. i started questioning the slow way, since i "haven't seen results yet." I've lost 2kilograms but gained them the next week. so i gradually stopped counting calories... somehow thinking "well, it didn't work that well so far, i shouldn't continue". its not an overall stupid idea... except that it was the one thing that was working- alot of other regular things i didn't change and so i ended up with the same usual result. today i went back to counting and found that over the course of a month i slipped back to eating 4000 calories a day. without any thought or feeling it was off. so anyway, i need to be smarter then this. I'm going back to counting calories, hopefully this time ill remember that i can't "power thorough" weight lost. its a method. if i put more work to the right places - buy healthy food to the army, count calories, cook healthy meals, workout with a program.... diet is a change that you have to work and try hard for: but it isn't hard in a movie, "squinting your eyes hard and wish it'd work" way. so, the least of things I'm doing this week- 1 calorie count everything, at least until the end of Monday. (last time i counted until sabbath ended- but i feel i can pick up the pace a bit since I'm loaded on tons of sleep from the internetless week, and feeling really motivated, for a few days in a row now. i should note to myself that even of i feel like I'm failing i should be able to do it at least until Sunday, and if not then its because I'm rusted and then ill succeed better next week. 2. cooking isn't happening, so i need to break it to steps. i can order that cool cooking book online, but it'll take a month and i cant do it until i cash my paycheck and fix the international credit card. so, in short, i should print a recipe from the Internet, a healthy one i think ill like. maybe from thug kitchen. thats it on cooking for this week. 3. at least one workout this week on the days I'm not working. on Monday after my dinner with dad maybe... and it should be at the gym. i don't go to the gym in my base cuz the treadmills are always taken. but i do jog there. if i run on a treadmill, i can know what my pace really is (the reception is shit at the base so i dont really get accurate reading from the running app. so that's it for now, I'll try to post on every sabbath from now on.

Wow. Im slipping today. I ate carbs at lunch. and now at dinner. My new job means im missing meals, so there's a rotating duty to bring me food. problem is they always put sweets and carbs and very little salads, if any. what i can do is: A. Tell them each time to bring me salads. They don't always do even if u say, and its awkward. B. Bring my own food to put in our mini fridge. C. Just eat only the healthy parts. Superhard. my ways to deal should be to bring some of my canned food here when i start my shift. Side note,For next week i should buy more canned, like i planned. so thats how ill take control on this food slip. Also next week i should bring cans like i planned. i packed in a hurry, and i didnt pack enough running pants. So I can only have 2-3 workouts this week, unless I do some at my room. But Friday and Saturday are gonne be tough. Must people go home for the weekends. So im thinking I should put atleast one of the workouts there.

This week was a huge success. I met my goal to keep track for 4 days - sadly i now see i forgot to post the post which stated it as a goal. Oh well. It felt so easy and right. I also tracked about half the meals on the other 3 days home. goal for next home week- track 5 days (wednesday to sunday, including sunday). this week i left myself remainders to count calories in my phone and they worked great. so note to self.

I've had a rough week.i Haven't seen my family in 3 weeks, since they went to a vacation abroad on my week at home. I go home every other week now, for a whole week. Headquarters are nice like that. And i find myself more on the edge, emotionally. I feel i got less perspective, like every time something bad happens i freak out. Didn't study music theory for the first few days of the week? Must have lost control and can't achieve any goal. Since i can't reach any of my goals, might as well skip the last set on yesterday's powerset. But also, yesterday powerset was the first one in two weeks. It's totally fine if it isn't as good as usual. so, this week is nearly at its end. Ill post the calorie diagram , like i did the last base week. It'll give me more accountability. I am debating myself, should i start running everyday. I know nerdfitness wisdom says to have rest days, but it also says to have rest Days. Tough call indeed. I really should schedule a workout planning meeting that my gym is offering.

Jumped home and back today and ate popsicels and cereal at home . Felt like i lost it, but calorie track turned out really ok since i missed the real lunch and ate some canned shit at home. I think im not using enough tricks to help myself. I dont make enough health potions , to use a nerd metaphor. bringing canned food (corn and beans, sorta healthy) was a good move, i should do it more. But also at home, i should bring some healthy shit to eat after work. Also driving to work on my bicycle is a good idea.

Ok, so last week was weird. I arranged my thoughts on paper, since i felt really lost. After looking at the calorie tracking app, i saw that even though i didn't track for half the week, i did track 3 days. That is maybe the longest i ever tracked at home. so not such a failure after all. So my goals for the week at home are to keep track for 4 days straight- it aint gonna be easy, but i think i can do it. Its just one more day then before. Also i decided i should cook one meal while at home. I have made reminders in my schedule app to count, hope it will help. Wish me luck. P.s I plan to buy more workout clothes. I really should.

O m g. It has been a little more then half a year of slow change. and it's starting. I did something right. This isn't an untrusted 1 kilo loss. This is 2 kilos below what i weight even without food. also i noticed my official uniform isn't as tight as usual. This gave me so much energy, and i thank NF and u guys. Just wanted to share:)

Okay, so on Sunday everyone got here, and from there the days went by much faster and i had more fun and felt more comfortable. Being almost alone in the base on weekends is creepy. first, fitness was a huge success. Three 3km runs, 20+ minute each, and a power set, with a pullup bar. Apparently, one of my roommates who i haven't met cuz he was sick till now is a gym trainer. He can open up the gym anytime of the day. So in addition to the two 3 km runs i planned (and did! even though i didn't see anyone else doing it, and feared it'd be weird, i did it! good job, me. Also the track i found was far enough so there wouldn't be people watching me, which i like.) nutrition: Calorie tracking the graph below is of how well did i eat this week. Except for a one day sleep, i met my goals. I was a bit sloppy on recording though- i forgot to track the calories right after the meal many times, but always did like half an hour later. it is better socially to not draw out the fun at the end of each meal, but recording later means i might make mistakes... Fuck it, people will deal with it, i should go back to tracking at the end of each meal. my goal for the week at home is to track everything i eat. Thats it. It won't be easy. my parents aren't at home this week, and I'm cooking for myself, means i have more control, but will be in greater danger of snacking. Also i did a 10 min warm up everyday, just for general good feeling and it was great. I think I'll stick with it.

Okay. It is day 3 at the base. i want to Make a workout plan. i should be able to, since i know my shifts already. And although i don't know when every discipline drill happens, i know most, i think. So.. the biggest obstacle is that I'm dying to go for a run, but i didn't see anyone else doing it here, outdoors. So maybe there's a path far from the base? I think i should just take the risk. They can kiss my running ass, at worst someone will say something, which will be fine because for some reason all of the people who have been sharing my room last week seem to just disappear. So, Run tomorrow at 8:00, because later then that it will be hot. Put a remainder for it. today do a power set, at 16:00 but before that take a walk to see if there's something to use as a pullup bar around the soccer fields i saw . On the week left, meaning Sunday-Tuesday (Thursday I'm going home. The job says one week base and one week home, Thursday to Thursday for some reason) i either run on 19:30 (on weekday i have different shifts, so i can do this.) or do a powerset, at the same hour. Okay. Time to think about my home time. My family is flying to have fun somewhere, so i have alot of control over what i eat. I think i can try this preparing meals for the whole week thing. I can figure out a menu while I'm at the army, and cook it all on Thursday. Even if some cooking wont go as well, it'll still leave me enough food for several days, or atleast several meals. I have to eat so many Popsicles. I know its super hot but it gives a vibe of being out of control. Anyway, my real goal for this week at home is counting calories. It is the number one priority, all the cooking comes later. also the last two days i ate over my calorie budget. gotta watch out, rice is fine for half a plate, not two. So in conclusion, workout is starting tomorrow, hopefully today. go look for a pullup bar. On the week at home count calories, and bonus quest doing meal prep.