SkyGirl

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  1. SkyGirl

    Errata: Welcome to S.T.A.R. Labs

    I know, right?? Too creepy for me. Do not like. Thanks guys!! I feel silly for continuing to announce the steps over and over because honestly nothing much has changed since the last time I announced it ... but the difference in this one is knowing for sure that they like me and they want me enough to wait for me. That makes me feel simultaneously really special, and thoroughly convinced that they are making a terrible mistake. No, no. Curse you, impostor syndrome. I am talented, well-trained, loved, valuable and valued. I have journeyed a long way, learned many things and practiced a great deal of faith to get to this point. I will not fail. They have chosen well.
  2. SkyGirl

    Miau Comes Back

    THEY ARE SO FRIGGIN CUTE SQUEEEEEEE I WANT TO KISS THEM ALL Hey, good for you!! That's a big adjustment!! That sounds like a simply fantastic end to the day!! I don't know what I'd have done either if Gray Major were lost!
  3. You ARE strong and mighty, Shaar, and I hope with all my heart that everything quits being so stupid soon.
  4. SkyGirl

    Errata: Welcome to S.T.A.R. Labs

    Today was a good day ... in the first place, the contract admin from NASA called to say that my team has decided I'm worth waiting for, and I can finish my degree and I'll have a job waiting for me after the first of the year. That's ... like, seriously amazing. I'm honestly afraid I don't fully appreciate how awesome it is. And not only is it a job offer (though I'm still waiting on the paperwork), but I get to finish my degree and be home through Christmas. I'm stunned and so grateful and amazingly excited. I hated to leave and I'm so glad I get to go back. More space adventures ahead, guys!! ------------ The rest of today was quiet - I went to the gym in the evening but had zero energy and my blood sugar plummeted as I was wrapping up, so I just did a little bit of rowing, stair climber, crunches, and hamstring curls and then went home. Tonight we watched The Blues Brothers and I am taking a rest night from homework. I also had a long, weird conversation with my deskmate (flirting-not-flirting guy) in which he said I shouldn't be so hard on myself and stress about everything all the time - he said it's very obvious that I have a rigid internal rule system that I live by, and I'm afraid that if I don't follow all of my own rules, I won't be a good person. Now, that comment is so oddly and specifically insightful that it would be creepy anyway; but what made it even creepier was that TYM said exactly the same thing to me, almost exactly a year ago. I mean they used the exact same words and everything. Even better, I'm pretty sure TYM was on the other side of the room listening. It was all very disconcerting. Physically and emotionally, I felt like crap today - my pre-shark symptoms have worsened significantly in the past 3 or 4 months, to where I'm not only incredibly physically uncomfortable, but this time I think some of my inexplicable sadness and irritability the last few days has something to do with it too. I've been meaning to go to the doctor for a check-up just to make sure everything is okay ... I honestly feel so crummy I might do that sooner rather than later. For tonight, though, getting more than 4 or 5 hours of sleep might be a good place to start. I haven't slept much at all this week and that certainly can't help anything.
  5. SkyGirl

    Miau Comes Back

    What a great day! And WOWW, that bath bomb is AMAZING!! How lovely to have your house and yourself all clean and stretched and fresh!
  6. OH HONEY I JUST YOU POOR POOR THING YOU ENJOY THAT PUMPKIN BEER AND DON'T YOU WORRY ABOUT ANYTHING ANYMORE ... at least it wasn't like that??? I hope your poor car feels better soon and no more almost-trips to Valhalla!! This bothers me deeply.
  7. SkyGirl

    Miau Comes Back

    OHHHHHHHH THIS IS SO AMAZING!!!!!!!!!!!!! Nooooo, you poor thing!!! I'm so sorry!! How are you feeling today?
  8. SkyGirl

    Errata: Welcome to S.T.A.R. Labs

    No such thing as too late, Jupiter, this party is 24/7!! I'm glad you're here! Yeah, you know, this actually ended pretty well ... he ended up asking me to clarify what had made me uncomfortable, and when I explained, he apologized and promised not to say anything like that again. I think part of it might have been that his English is pretty poor and he's still learning about American culture - I know for a fact that people are much freer with conversation and compliments (and insults, for that matter!) in his culture and I strongly suspect it was more a miscommunication than flirting. So it was nice and different to clearly and firmly say "this is what you said and this is why it made me uncomfortable" and not apologize for that, and a nice experience that he took it well.
  9. SkyGirl

    Errata: Welcome to S.T.A.R. Labs

    Thanks Tank, that actually does make a difference. I *have* made a lot of progress in the past year. Sometimes I forget that in light of how far I have yet to go.
  10. SkyGirl

    Miau Comes Back

    By the way, "Eggroll" is absolutely the cutest name for a cat that I have ever heard in my life. They look like fluffy bundles of zenergy and awesomeness!!!
  11. SkyGirl

    Miau Comes Back

    Those are absolutely precious names for such TINY PRECIOUS KITTIES!!!!!!! They're so small and squiggly and snuggly!! How do you not just play with them all day and all night????
  12. SkyGirl

    Errata: Welcome to S.T.A.R. Labs

    Fighting so hard to stay focused and on top of all my feelings today ... between pre-shark week, lack of sleep, and general Overwhelmedness, today's another day I could really use a punching bag or tae kwon do practice. It's not anyone's fault (except maybe mine, for spending too much time relaxing these last few days); everyone thinks they're being helpful by "encouraging" me not to fall behind, to remember my deadlines, to make sure I'm spending enough time on everything to get everything done. I know they're trying to help and to make sure I don't let things slip through the cracks. But to me, it all just sounds like a cacophany of people whispering You're not doing enough ... You're not doing enough ... You're not doing enough ... You're not doing enough. It's so weird to experience this as anger, though. Like I said - I never used to get angry. Or at least, I didn't think I did. But now I get angry, irritated, frustrated, peeved, and all of those things on a regular basis. And I don't know if that's good? Like, maybe I'm being more honest with myself than I used to be? Or am I shifting blame to make myself feel better about my issues? More processing needed, but it's interesting and strange to observe. I am practicing some good emotional boundaries in other areas today, though. Last week, one of my married male classmates made some comments on my appearance that I think he thought were friendly / innocent, but I found them very inappropriate, and I told him I was not comfortable with them. He then asked me to go out with him and I said I was too busy, in a way that made it clear my answer was "no". So yesterday and today, he has pointedly avoided me, turned his back to me, refused to speak to me, etc. I was initially tempted to try to smooth things over and close the breach - but I stopped myself and realized, his miffed feelings are not my problem. I politely and firmly told him where my boundaries are and that he had crossed them, and if he wants to be mad about that, then that's his choice, not mine. I have no responsibility to backtrack and give up my standards just to make him happy, and I'm not going to. Got to get back to work, but those are some of the Thoughts making me peevish.
  13. SkyGirl

    Miau Comes Back

    I Agree With Tank™ You're family, Miau. Family doesn't quit being family even if they go away for a bit. They're family for life. Yes, I think we do too!!!! And of course, I'm following!!
  14. SkyGirl

    Errata: Welcome to S.T.A.R. Labs

    Thanks Wolf!! I keep trying to get to a story segment but NO TIME ........... I AM SO FREAKING EXCITED TO SEE YOU @Miaulin