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Thank you, everyone. I am in the process of planning and prep..

So.. it's march. I don't believe I've lost any weight like I had planned to at the beginning of the year. It's very depressing. I work an office job then go attend meetings and then I travel weekly. So a lot of the time I'm sitting on my butt, basically. Now I am beyond discouraged.. It's been a viscous cycle of work, eat and sleep. When i'm not working, I'm sleeping, when i'm not sleeping, I'm eating. Today is just a really crappy day and could use some kind of motivation.. or something. I'd really just like to be home right now, in bed, sleeping.

thanks Nusuth!

I used to always check my phone first thing in the morning but now I'm in the middle of setting up my own connection with the company and also I'm moving so there is no wifi at my place atm and its actually kind of nice. This morning though I woke up with a bit of an attitude. Recently I've been going through a separation and I've gone through the "i don't need him" stage and then the sad/depressed stage and now its a "mad" stage lol so I didn't really meditate but I blasted some nicki minaj music and felt pretty boss. It's a mutual separation and he's been really helpful since we made the decision. I almost asked him to stay last night. He would have too. But we both know why we're doing this, I just hate that empty feeling. I've been in and out of relationships for the past 9 years and now i'm finally taking a break from it all. It's going to be really weird, Considering there are others that I know are interested in me. But I ended up breaking down last night, held my tongue and let him leave. Basically why I want to start taking things slow within myself again. Practice meditation and yoga. Focus on other things that are going on in my life other than relationship stuff. It actually sounds so self-centered talking about it lol there are far more important things happening in the world right now! So I want to better myself and work on myself and realize my own strengths outside from the lovey-dovey romantic-life stuff. so today I will work on a routine schedule. But first things first I guess and that's set up a nice meditation area. I have nice throws and candles and mirrors.

So I joined the druids because I guess at the moment I want to focus more on my re-alignments and whatnot.. But I also enjoy so much more, like yoga is nice, but I also enjoy strength training, hiking, hoopdance, etc, etc. I also play ball hockey. So I guess all-in-all I'm more of a rebel.. I want to start lifting too lol

Hey everyone, I'm fairly new to this site and I'm interested in practicing yoga/meditation first thing in the mornings..for starters.. I have forever been hearing that how you start your day will set the rest of the days outcome.. So far I will practice deep breathing... some warmup/wakeup stretches and a nice little workout routine. Wondering if anyone else does this routine? Any tips? or any posts I should be following? Thanks =)

Goals: To rebalance myself. Refocus. Readjust. Where? anywhere as long as it doesn't involve heartbreak How? Move on, learn things happen for a reason, grow. I really want to get back into meditating and focusing on breathing and stretching our my body and relearning all these gifts that I've taken for granted for far too long. This body is mine and it doesn't need to be given to anyone else. I have control who I share it with and don't need anyone's approval to know my self-worth. To realize the bigger picture and not engulf myself into my own feelings. I feel so selfish. I need to be doing more that doesn't involve me falling in love with toxic people. I want to live. and love for all the right reasons..

thanks, guys =) It's been an up and down experience so far. Trying not to be hard on myself. There is so much more to look forward to.. Well I have written up myself a schedule and I'm taking supplements. I was bad last night though I had Chinese food and drinks haha! Well I attended my first ball hockey tourney last weekend and am motivated now to keep practicing and do better at the next. I've lost some weight but I feel it gaining again because I've been lazy since the tourney. I'm trying to set myself new goals to look forward to. It feels weird, but nice, trying to be independent. It's also going to be weird not to do the new years couple thing. but then again I will look into something that the kids will enjoy doing. its a new mind-set for sure, considering I've been in an out of relationships for the past....8 years.... yikes But I do want to start lifting! it sounds like so much fun. So far I've been doing various upper/mid/lower exercises. I think my butt has gotten rounder lol but regardless, feeling pretty good about myself.

Recently I am going through a separation of 6 years.. I'm trying not to be hard on myself and give in to comfort food. I really want to make a change. So far I've joined ball hockey--gets out the anger and I enjoy doing tae bo--again anger.. also I do enjoy stretching/yoga/hikes and I have hula hoops--I used to practice hoopdance all the time and I've stopped for quite some time now.. will probably start practice again and work on another video soon.. All these things and I'm a mom of 2. I'm 26 and it feels like I had my life all together but wasn't happy. Like I did all the right things that we're "supposed to achieve" but it never made me feel complete or happy.. The father of the kids is very understanding and we are both working on ourselves at the moment. We don't regret anything, it was a nice experience but we've grown into different people in the past while... it makes me feel kind of crappy... but now I'm back on the road to figuring out what it is that I, myself, really want to do.. for myself and my kids, I love them so much and the only people I want to be focusing on from now on is myself and my two little ones.. Fitness is definitely something I want to build a good habit on.. I refuse to feel crappy and helpless. not if I can help it. anyway... I would like to work myself out of depression I guess. I joined this site a while ago but it was just for fun. Nerd and Fitness go quite well together =P

sweet -----newbie rebel------ excited && ready to get back into a fitness lifestyle Diet (pick two) Eat a vegetable with one meal every day Take one processed snack you have each day and replace it with a healthy protein, fruit, or vegetable Fitness (pick one). Complete the NF bodyweight workout at least 1x a week Level Up Your Life (Pick One) Say one positive thing to yourself each morning when you look in the mirror

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