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Hanging in there. It's been a rough year. I'm trying to come back to the NF-verse though!

Minnesota nerds! I'm coming back!

Hi Lara!

Hello Friends! I'm back and excited to get into the swing of things. It looks like a new challenge will be starting up in the not too distant future, so I may jump back into the fray then. Let me give you a little recap of some of the things happening in my world. I've quit my current job and will be done with work here on October 22nd. I've got a new job back in Minnesota that will be starting on November 30th. My spirituality has shifted in a massive way. My mental health has been under serious strain. My health team has expanded to include a nutritionist. I also worked with Bri Campos for a while on my body image. I'm still firmly in the intuitive eating camp. Movement continues to be a struggle. That's the short version. What's going on with all of you?!?! I've missed you.

*pokes head in* *sneaks up to the bar and gets some tea, earl grey, hot* *finds a quiet corner to sit and sip*

So... maybe daily updates are more than I want to do at the moment. If I'm not doing them when I'm on vacation, that's probably unlikely to happen when I go back to work, right? Right. Week One Update Health Team Therapy - we talked a lot about body image and some of the deeper stuff underneath it - brought up the idea of trying to figure out how I feel safe in myself and in relationships Nutrition - eating enough snacks - cooking about once a week - body grief workbook - call went well and we worked through the first exercise in the workbook - goal for Tuesday is to work through the second exercise in preparation for our call Coach - mindset : anger expression - did this twice and felt good about it - mindset: "what can I learn as I hold this?" - this is coming up more recently because I'm getting anxious about going back to work - mindset: gratitude for my foot - forgot this for a few days, but doing pretty well - movement: PT exercises - starting to get a lot of resistance to doing these - movement: mindful movement - 2 minutes - some resistance here as well Positive Connections - doing really well here, honestly - joined a few more supportive online communities - I think I'm maxed out on my communities at the moment, time to pour into them Creative Fun - also pleased with this - have a new idea that I've been discovery writing with - second novel is waiting until I start edits mid March

These are great! Thanks musical nerds! W1D2 - Monday Health Team - worked on anger expression - sent my foot some gratitude - did my full day of PT exercises Positive Connections - updated my challenge - chatted on discords - connected on voxer Creative Fun - not sure W1D3 - Tuesday Health Team - sent my foot some gratitude - did my light day of PT exercises (supine IT band stretch, calf stretches, and towel toe scrunches) - met with my RD and talked about how food and body image are going (pretty good, actually) Positive Connections - chatted on discords - connected on voxer Creative Fun - put on a NaNo virtual write in and free wrote a bit

Haven’t heard Pantera before. You weren’t kidding about the vocals!

For this at the moment, I'm doing System of a Down, lol. I am open to basically any kind of music but have been tending towards indie, folk, and other things that aren't exactly angry lately.

Still drinking Earl Grey over here, with a bit of lavender please!

I love you, nerds. In for this!

Hi Elise! Here for you!

Killed week zero, I see. Keep it up!

Anger Expression

W1D1 - Sunday Health Team - cooked some pasta, nom - worked on anger expression (see separate post for details) - sent my foot some gratitude - did my light day of PT exercises (supine IT band stretch and towel toe scrunches) Positive Connections - put up an NF challenge - cheered some rookies - chatted on discords - connected on voxer Creative Fun - did a little challenge on the WB discord Not a bad day one at all!

Work has been... bad. I'll type up an update at some point. I'm looking for new jobs though. Always glad to have you around, love. Yes, I lurk. Happy you're here, chaplain! Thanks Addelas. Welcome welcome! Sorry about being in the brutal work club. It's like the least fun club... Highly recommend, lol.

Sounds like big things are afoot at Owlshire, as usual.

Creative Fun I finished the first draft of my second novel this last week!!! So I'm going to give the story about a month to sit and rest before I dive into editing. That means that I have time to play around with other forms of creativity. Maybe I'll write some poems or short stories or mess around with other types of creativity.

Positive Connections I am very lonely during this pandemic since I moved fairly soon before it and didn't have time to make local friends before everything was locked down. This means that I'm leaning on online communities. - NF - Writer's Block discord - World Anvil discord and offshoots - Embodied Witch Inner Circle

Health Team I am working with my therapist (Taylor), nutritionist (Rebecca), and coach (Amy) to try to heal and take excellent care of myself. I'll report in on the homework that they give me as we go forward. Therapy - working on trying to do nice things for myself when I get stuck in a shame spiral Nutrition - eating enough snacks - cooking about once a week - body grief workbook Coach - mindset : anger expression - mindset: "what can I learn as I hold this?" - mindset: gratitude for my foot - movement: PT exercises - movement: mindful movement - 2 minutes It's kind of a lot when I write it out like this, but it's lots of small choices to take care of myself that we've been working on for a long time. This is the biggest focus of my challenge.

Hi Wolfdreamer! Just FYI, The Brother's Karamazov was meant to be part of a series that never really happened. It's epic and awesome... and didn't really feel tied up in a bow to me when I read it. If that makes a difference in your decision.

Hi EG! Keep rocking!

Here to cheer you along!

Sounds like a great way to get started again. Good luck!

Hi Addelas! Your goals look great. I hope you have a lovely challenge!