annyshay

Totally understand, love. Hugs!

Hello Nerds! So 2020 was a transformative year precisely because it was so painful and out of control. A lot of things have changed for me, so I wanted to provide a benchmark or snapshot of where I'm at now before diving into 2021. I'm nervous to share some of these details (haven't told some good friends or family yet because I'm worried about judgment from them), but I think it will be better for me if I am open about what's going on for me. So, that's where I'm at. Let's see what shenangians we can get up to. Shall we?

Well, it's been quite the year, honestly. I need to catch you all up on some pretty big shifts in my life. Things have been looking up for the last few weeks though. I had a big break through during a breath work session, and I'm feeling much more hopeful since then. I'm sorry to hear that Wolvie's sleep has been such an issue. Sleep deprivation is a HUGE beast. Sending good, sleepy vibes. Also, your family does deserve some punches. Just sayin'.

Hi Lara!! Here for you. Hugs!

Hi ExpectJade! Welcome back to the Rebellion. We grow stronger with you here!

Hi Folks! I think zero week should start tomorrow. Trying to cook up some new stuff for the new year. We'll see. Excited to see how the forum changes go. I will finally be able to multi-class more easily!

So glad to see my buddies have made their way here. Big *hugs* to each of you. Had a fairly good weekend focused on rest and relaxation. My homework from my therapist on Friday was to counter the thought "there's more that I should be doing" with "it's a pandemic, everybody is doing less." This thought comes up for me A LOT even when I'm not at work. I did it at least a handful of times each day. I wrote some for NaNo and some for my world building. I'm trying not to worry about the 50k too much and just do my best to get words down. I would love to finish the first draft of this novel by the end of the year. I did a lot of breath work and meditating as well. Drank lots of tea. Chatted with folks online in discord. Snuggled Dragon. Not looking forward to work at all. It has been seriously stressful since two of our partners quit in August. We've been two people, so we're sharing call and inpatient service. It means that I work 12 days in a row, get two days off, and then start all over again. Intense. I think I will reach out to the woman that my mentor suggested to ask if there are any accommodations that can be made for me.

You're gonna make me cry, Chaplain. Thanks. *hugs* Yeah, the IE dietician is pretty amazing. We started with two simple things that have made a big difference. One was adding in an afternoon snack and the other was making overnight oats for breakfast. I'm doing these most of the time, and it makes my eating a lot pressured during the day. Now we're working through parts of the IE workbook, which is pretty good if you haven't used it yet, Tank. This week we're focusing on identifying my food voices - food police, diet informant, food rebel, food anthropologist, nurturer, food ally, and intuitive eater. It's taking things to a different level to apply it thought by thought.

Hi Wolverine and Wolverina! Hope sleep works better soon.

So, where did we leave off? Life has been very challenging for everyone in 2020, and recently I've had some of the worst periods of mental health of my life. I had to stop a lot of things, including the forums. Things are slowly easing up, so I'm reappearing. My therapist had several triggering conversations with me and wasn't able to help me get through the resulting panic attacks, anxiety, and depression. It was no longer safe to be in conversation with my former therapist. I've switched therapists, started new medications, and used all the tools in my tool belt to get through the last few weeks. The panic attacks have stopped at least, but anxiety is still very high and depression is creeping in more and more. I'm exhausted and barely hanging on at work. I'm still working with my health coach, Amy Clover. I've started seeing an intuitive eating certified RD to talk through my nutrition. My new therapist is aligned with IE, HAES, and trauma-informed. I'm trying to figure out what support if any to ask for at work. My IRL friends have been unavailable due to their own stress. I've made new friends online, but it's very challenging in person during the pandemic. I think that catches you up on the big things...

I'm battle logging for now. *HUUUUUGS*

I'm sure that there are people that know the answer to that, but it is not me. Lol. Welcome, Sir Tanktimus.

Hello, friends! I'm sort of re-emerging from my shell. I think I'll hang out in the battle logs for a bit.

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Hello, annyshay here! I've been a member of the forums for many years and called most guilds home at one time or another. I'm a single, fat, queer, 30-something lady (she/her) who lives in the Northeastern USA with my cat, Dragon. I follow intuitive eating and a health at every size framework. Currently, I am focusing on my mental health first and foremost. There's a lot of backstory scattered throughout the forums and my old battle log. Please feel free to ask lots of questions and make yourself at home! Welcome to my corner of the Nerd Fitness Forums. Jump right in and say hello.

Hello nerds. I've been keeping up with the goals that I have and basically doing all of them every day. Things at work are pretty overwhelming at the moment, and I've had lots of other appointments in the evenings, so I'm sorry that I haven't been keeping up with posting as much as I want to.

Saturday w1d7 Mindset Pack - meditation: 5 minutes of breath meditation - joy journaling: desire mapping - intention mantra: what might feel good? Compassion - yup Drop into Body - did this in the evening Bonus - breathwork and journaling, online church service

Friday w1d6 Mindset Pack - meditation: 5 minutes of breath meditation - joy journaling: board games online with international friends - intention mantra: what might feel good? Compassion - yup Drop into Body - did this in the evening Bonus - breathwork and journaling

Wednesday w1d5 Mindset Pack - meditation: 5 minutes of breath meditation - joy journaling: Stardew valley gaming night - intention mantra: what might feel good? Compassion - yup Drop into Body - did this in the evening Thursday w1d5 Mindset Pack - meditation: 5 minutes of breath meditation - joy journaling: breathwork - intention mantra: what might feel good? Compassion - yup Drop into Body - did this in the evening Bonus - breathwork and journaling