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Eat Keto! Lose Weight! Get the perfect bikini figure! Carry around proudly your baby bump while others present there bikini figure in summer. Hey guys, it's been a while since I did a challenge. 2019 will bring some major changes for me. The actual best news: On 9th January I will finish my apprenticeship and can leave that horrible company. Second, I will become a mother in August. I'm so happy! (Even tho at the moment I puke out my soul each morning). Since I am pregnant I stopped doing keto diet. At the moment I'll try not to eat for two. But eating feels like the only thing against my morning sickness. Since 3 weeks I only think about that sickness - from getting up till going to bed. The goal for next month is to do a food diary to control how much I eat. I also need to reduce my juice intake because of the sugar. Usually, I was drinking coffee 3 times a day, now it doesn't taste anymore and I get a headache. Running or doing other sports is currently not good with that sickness. But going for a 30 min walk each day feels good. When I feel better I'll continue going to the rehabilitation sports group once a week. My doctor prescribed me that after my therapy last summer after my psychotherapy. But the most important goal right now is to find a new job. Would be bad to sit home and do nothing till my baby will be born. (Especially for my financial situation.)

Looks like you got already a plan. Just a fit fine tuning and you gonna make it! Much success!

Well done I was running on Saturday. I did 20 min intervall training. 2 min running, 2 min walking. Afterward I was exhausted. I feel like I have no endurance at all anymore.

Everyone is welcome how did you like the book?

Cue: Coming home from work at 16:30. Change into running clothes nd the new running watch. Routine: Go running or at least walking. Reward: Enjoy the sun and relax.

Monkey Tamers United Hey Monkey Tamers! @fitnessgurl@Wobbegong@MaD MaLKaV@Shello@Judge@Xyndjrn Hey everyone, I started this thread 2 months ago and failed the most. I thought about not doing a challenge this month but now I decided to buy a running watch for some motivation. I had depression and anxiety and was home for almost 3 months and not working. The depression and the anxiety are (almost) gone. But I did fall back into bad habits: Eating too much, not going out into the sun, just sitting home watching Netflix. In two months I write my exam and I avoid learning for it. It's really imortant for me to pass it because I want to leave the company where I do my apprenticeship. It took me a lot of courage to go back into this company and now I am going crazy because of boredom. My boss refuses to give me other tasks besides cooking coffee and filing away papers. this company was once the reason for anxiety and depression. It won't be a second time. The Power of Habit I really can recommend everybody to read "The Power of Habit" by Charles Duhigg. For those who don't want to read the whole book here is a short summary. Building new habits is harder than to change old habits. To explain changing old habits I use an example from the book: 1. Identify the routine (the behaviour you want to change) Imagine you work in an office. Each afternoon you stand up, go to the cafeteria, by a cookie, talk with colleagues, then go back to work. You feel good after talking to colleagues while eating your cookie. Then you feel bad. You got already some pounds but you can't stop yourself. You even ignore the post-it at your desk: No more cookies! 2. Isolate the cue (the trigger of the habit) need for a break, hunger, need for social contact, boredom...? 3. Reward cookie, distracting, socializing, a burst of energy because of sugar...? 4. Make a plan In Duhiggs case it was the following: Cue: around 3:30 in the afternoon Routine: going to the cafeteria and eat a cookie Reward: social contact Plan: Set an alarm, go to a friends desk and talk for 10 min. He felt better ending the day after talking to a friend. Spreadsheet to track our habits. 1 - you committed to your habit 0 - you failed Don't worry if you fail sometimes. Don't feel bad about it. Don't be angry at yourself. At the end, you will beat the monkey that distracts you from your good habit 1. Post you cue, your routine (the habit you want to build) and your reward 2. Commit to your habit and track it.

Always this bug, can't write afte i tagged one. It's absolutly true. I have really trouble getting past this starting point. Not just with habits but in general with tasks I don't like. At work I get often stupid tasks. Sometimes I feel embarassed because of the nonsense. So I avoid doing it. It really helps to imagine the next step and to set an appointment.

@Shello

Earl Grey and Darjeeling are my favorites. May I ask which garmin do you have? I am searching for a running eatch but can't decide which to take.

My company is hiring new people. Now did the next candidate decline. In German I would describe my feelings as schadenfroh. I'm happy because they have the damage.

I hate my colleagues. Not all but some of them. It's my task to file away all kind of papers. So they throw everything into my inbox. I asked already to have an extra box for this kind of papers. But they don't care. They throw the papers which need to be filed away and the ones where work need to be done into one box. We did this always this way. Of course it happend that I didn't see one invoice I had to check. The boss is right. We can't give you anything because you don't get the simplest things done. It hurts to hear this. Why people always hold onto old stuff even when you can improve how things are done?

The good thing about audiobooks is that you can listen to them everywhere. When you drive to work, during lunch break, when you go walking/ running... Some performer read the books really well. My favorite performer is Nick Podehl. And my favorite book series is The Land. Because I didn't want to wait for the audiobook I bought the 7th part as a book. After the audiobook was released I had to get this too. I buy my audiobooks from Audible which is a part of Amazon. 10 Euro per month for 1 audiobook is cheaper than to buy a book. The only things I still have to have as real paper are magazines and newspapers.

I was always a shy girl. And it's also because of anxiety. If I had to wear clothes like you like I would feel insecure.

I love ebooks too. I have a Sony reader but in the past years i didn't use it. It's easier to use the kindle app on phone. But most of the time I prefer to listen to books I've tried out the Rising heroes thing. It sounded really great. But at the end I was disappointed. It's kinda like a 4 week challenge. You should try it out for yourself. And if you don't like it you can get your money back during the first 60 days.

@Arkania Yay, another German rebel! Welcome. Very colorful clothes. I prefer dark blue, black and green. On rare occassions I have shirts with the purple of blackberries. It's always like I try to not get any attention.

Today I took my courage and asked if I could get client orders again (even before I read your post). My boss said: For the near future, no! Means for the next 5 months I won't get anything. He is an asshole. He can't prevent that I come to work, so he forbides that I get real work. Something positive: I had a great weekend. On Friday I was again at the Magic-evening, playing till midnight. All the boys there don't seem to mind having a girl among them. And it's a lot of fun to be there and play. And to be among people which like the same as you. In my school class I told once that I love playing vidio games when we talkes about hobbies in Englisch. They all think I am strange. And I think they are like the clichee teenage girls; two interests: boys and horses. My little sister thinks also that I am stange because I prefer clothes which are good to run around in every terrain. I think she is strange because she needs already one hour in the morning to do her make up. (I'm of couse to stupid to understand the reason for that.) My mother just thinks it's amusing how different her two daughters are.

Yesterday I got almost nothing to do at work. I pretended to be busy, pretended to write the homework assignment for school. But I couldn't concentrate. I went through several levels of memrise but after hours I had just enought. And it got worse after I mixed languages. I hate that I have nothing real to do. When the day was finally over I didn't want to go to the gym anymore. I told myself: We have 25°C and I have a headache, better to go home. I feel bad that I watched the whole afternoon and evening Netflix. Today I have nothing to do again. I asked alreday for some tasks but thex don't give me anything. and my supervisor was angry with me because I forgot to write into the logbook of the car for the whole last week. (I have to fetch the post daily.) I don't know why I forgot it. Maybe coz I had a different car on some days without logbook. It's just a smal mistake but it drags my mood down a lot. I don't want to do anything wrong anymore. And I don't want to be afraid anymore.

There is a forest nearby. 2 km straight uphill. This summer in Germany there was always the thread of fire so it was actually forbidden to go into any forest. There was some rain in the last week but the woods are still too dry. But I could go on the edge of the forest, right?

@Grandkai_NL Thanks for reminding me that I have still a thread I'm not consistent with practising clarinet and Japanese, but I did something. Lunch break is really good to use memrise. (Or when I am alone in office without anything to do.) My bodyweight training is more consistent. I also go now once per week to a local gym. My health insurance is paying this for one year. (Say thanks to social anxiety.) I really should start to learn reguarly for my exam. There are three months left and I need to work out some stuff I won't have in school before exam since I shorten my apprenticeship by 6 months. This friday I met some new people to play Magic: The Gathering. Two weeks ago I wanted to go to a Magic evening at university. But on this day the motorway was crowded, probably due to a car accident, and the two parallel routes too. After 30 min and 10 km I had enought and turned around. Took me just 5 min to be back home, but it would have taken another 1 hour to arrive to the meeting. The next week I went to university and noticed that I had no clue where the players would actually meet. I knew "university" and "white tower". And I was to scared to ask anybody what the white tower is. You might call me stupid to go back home. But I just couldn't get over my fear. But I took my courage, dearched for a facebook group and asked there where people usually meet. I found out that the white tower was the entrance building of the library of the university. On my third try I found the right building just to realize that there was not a single person. I was a bit irritated but since I had nothing else to do I waited one hour while learning Japanese with memrise and then some people came. I'm glad that I took my courage to go there. It was a really nice evening. The other players where all boys but they didn't care having a girl among them. And they didn't mind explaining me new rules and those I had forgotten. Magic player are mostly friendly, candid people which are happy to talk for hours about possible game strategies. They also love to look to other peoples cards since there might be some which they want for there own card decks. I got some new cards too and sold some I don't use anymore. When I started my apprenticeship I went to a Magic evening too. And one year later again. But at these gaming evenings they played a game mode I don't like. And nobody told me about that other game evening at the university. I might have found out if I went more often. But my social anxiety let me quit. To not regret the mistakes of the past is really hard. I just look forward Even though this makes me afraid too. 5 months till I finish my apprenticeship. I always thought I want to go back home. Life near my parents, have my dog around me again (he stays with my parents at the moment and i totally miss him). If I go back home driving to that Magic evening would be a long way and I wouldn't drive also on a second day of the week too. I would love to combine everything: Get a job in a good company where people arn't assholes, get an apartment where I can have my dog and come home during lunch break to go with him for a walk and live near this city where I can go to the Magic evenings, go to a gym, go dancing. And I would love to have forest near me. I love to walk or go by bike through the forest. I think in the past 3 years I was just a few times. At the moment I am back into old patterns: Coming home, watching tv, playing games, sitting whole day in front of a pc, eating too much, not really enjoying anything, feeling alone. When my dog was with me there was always a living beeing which was waiting for me to come home and I knew I wasn't alone. My landlord would probably alow to have a dog in my apartment as long as he stays quiet but then my dog would be alone for 10 hours of the day. With my parents there is always someone to go out with him at noon.

Today I did one hour something productive at work: I learned Croatian with Memrise and wrote my weekly reports for the apprenticeship. I feel like I'm not in the third but in the first year.

Last week wasn't that great. When I came hom I was usually tired. At work I just dort papers or count stuff in our warehouse. I am just waiting each day that I can do lunch break and then I wait till I can go home. I gave up going to run in the morning. I can't get myself to do it. But I will go run or go by bike in the afternoon. Since my dog stays with my parents I have no reason to go out anymore. And I really need to practise more for my exam. I didn't do as much as I planned. I rather watched anime.

"wipe out" means fail? I failed too.

It's never too late to join. Welcome @Jett

Monday New challange, yay! Yesterday I came home from work and for 4 hour I just sit in front of the pc surfing, watching movies, playing... At 9 I thought about my challenge. I didn't feel like doing anything. But then I thought: You wanted to practise Japanese for just 15 minutes, so get up and do it. Once started doing more was easier. I also did my bodyweight workout and practised clarinet. That are already 3 points. And there is another point for nutrition. I noticed I eat less than a few weeks ago. I even feel less hungry over the day. I take that as a good sign. 4 points Today was totally boring at work (yesterday too). Work is so boring that I couldn't figure out wich weekday we have. In the morning I thought it's Wednesday. Later I asked myself: Do we have Monday or Tuesday. Boredom is terrible. I'm not allowed to do much. Last week I kept myself busy with sorting papers. But now there is nothing more to sort. I don't know if my boss really thinks this will prepare me for the future. Complaining doesn't help. Speaking to my boss would change nothing. So I just count the months left: 5 months and two weeks. I got up at 5:30 today and I actually went for a walk. It's a progress. I also practises Japnese and clarinet. And now I'll do my workout before going to bed. Nutrition +1. 4 points

@Wobbegong What I would change is to put the tab for the challenges right under the welcome tab. Since everything is around the challenges you see this easier. I know there is the tab above to find the 4 week challenges but with this you can only acces the current challenge not the previous one.