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Essay Submitted after modifying the question and procastinating on it until the literal last minute, but it is off into the obscurities of the marking system, and I didn't even have to pull a single all-nighter! Insane to think that I'm now finished with uni tho. Still gonna stay in town with my flatmates to encourage them (one doesn't finish till the 27th May eeek), and work on my own proejcts and do some gaming and basically the same thing that I've been for the past year 😅 There are some thoughts to be had but I will probably process them in a year, for now I'm breathing out a sign of relief for my final long essay, and going to bed

Thanks! It's been interesting to read and prep for, it's just the getting it all written part now that's the slog :/ I'd share an excerpt if that wasn't against plagarism rules :P But, 24 hours and it'll be gone out my mind! I think I'm going to celebrate with a full day of gaming? 👀

Oh it looks comfy! And I adore the number of Terry Prachett books!! I think I'm missing the two most recent books, but me and my dad always pick up what we're missing from second-hand stores, which has been slow for the last year 😅

It's good to see you too friend! ❤️ All the flowers this time of the year are so beautiful, I'm defs gonna have to follow your lead and go on a walk to take some more photos soon. And 100% celebrate! Working through it, especially when accepting help, is really good! Also your singing is beautiful ❤️ (hey, Elsa must just work out well) 🎶

Keep it simple, keep it safe When would you ideally like to be able to do yoga during the day?

Caffine headaches are the absolute worst, but how much do you normally drink? Would it make more sense to just try and cut out a single cup a day?

All three sound like fun ideas! I never got past Stranger Things season 2, but hey, sometimes you need a reason to do even fun things.

Sounds like a good birthday! Only three books is an impressive amount of restraint, though I've started looking into books that you sort of have to have? As they come with inserts and things (ergodic books). Which book did you buy for yourself?!

Did you manage to get the bed assembled by the time to sleep?

Climbing fun! I can't wait to get vaccinated so I can feel comfortable going to the climibing gym again - though I mostly stick to easier routes and train my fear of heights, and take the exercise benefits with it At least you didn't drink the togurt Greek yogurt has the most tempestuous fridge life I get scared even when I'm 80% certain it's not off. And Horizon Zero Dawn!! I got the pc version but I think my laptop is a bit too poor for it, it ran but I ended up shifting to AC:Valhalla and watching the entire series on youtube instead 😅

Hey, at least you're riding the waves of the changing stress!

Those flowers look bloomin' beautiful!

Hopefully that means the vaccine's working as intended and well! Sorry to hear you got such a rough time of it :/ But lilac bushes! I love the purple-blue hued ones :D

Let me know if I've flubbed this opening, the forum has changed a touch in the hot second since I posted outside of anything but my Battle Log ( and even that was intermittent at best ). But yes! I'm here, crash landing, thumbs up outside the crater hole I've left in the front yard. Half-way through a challenge, in the midst of changing things, but when aren't things changing and challenging? My final essay is due on Friday (3k, 99% unwritten), which is mad to think about. I joined the forums when I was starting this uni business (in philosophy), and I'm less than a week off from finishing it (unless I go down the Master's route, probably in Journalism, which is looking more and more plausible). I've realised I'm non-binary (they/them pronouns y'all please), I've had an internship, I got fired from a different internship, I've been diagnosed with ADHD (real recent - only a couple weeks back, have yet to start titration for meds), I've had my first experience with counselling, I lost some weight, I put weight back on, I truly only leave the house once a month, I'm learning to code and pentest, I built myself a dice box for my dnd games, I'm halfway through a playthrough of every Assassin's Creed game, I - Okay, summarising major things from the past three years but also just since I last posted (I have no idea when that was) is exceptionally hard. The dice box is the most recent and the one that I'm most proud of, but I can't wait until lockdown eases and I can go to a makerspace and laser cut some wood to make a more permenant version (I've found out about this thing called a living hinge that I really want to experiment with). The essay, for anyone interested, is on exploring the critcisms of modernisation projects which sparked revolution in Iran and South Korea in the 1980s by comparing the books Shah of Shahs and The Old Garden. Fascinating stuff. I just do not have enough time to finish it and I am getting stressed, despite how interesting it is. Whether or not I get a first in this essay sort of determines whether or not I get a first in my degree because of how close to the border I've managed to do it. Oops. Which all goes to say that I cannot make challenge goals for myself just yet, as I'm still climbing out the crater hole. Once my essay is done, we shall see how it goes!

https://app.thestorygraph.com/profile/ebdcce08-e917-4388-8bef-5ebdab400643 Books read in 2021 : 3 Monthly Breakdown January -- 2 February -- 1 March -- 0 April -- 0 May -- 0 June -- 0 July -- 0 August -- 0 September -- 0 October -- 0 November -- 0 December -- 0 Goals for 2021 : 91 books * 150 books

https://howlongtobeat.com/user?n=paritegic Games beaten in 2021 : Games beaten: 6 Time spent playing: 42 hours Monthly breakdown January -- 1 completions February -- 4 completions March -- 1 completions April -- 0 completions May -- 0 completions June -- 0 completions July -- 0 completions August -- 0 completions September -- 0 completions October -- 0 completions November -- 0 completions December -- 0 completions Goals for 2021: 20 total completions * 50 total completions

Just realised I started this in 2016, though I'm fairly certain I had a throwaway account here before then. I keep coming back and back because this forum provides a space and something that I just can't find anywhere else, which is to say that I'm gonna make a post and maybe lurk and maybe even stick around for a while this time. Who knows. I've been thinking about long term goals and my utter failure to achieve any of them. If I'd started back in 2016, I would be more than my ideal self at this point. What's the quote? The best time to start is five years ago. The next best is now. The issue is habit forming, of any sort. Whether bad habits or good, I've never been able to make anything long-term? Sometimes I stick with it for two/three months before it goes, I've once stuck with journalling for a year before I then didn't pick it up for another year, and since then it's been on and off. Sure, anti-fragility vs the pandemic and the chaos of the lack of societal structure right now will make near anyone bite the dust, but this is a long term problem. Even breaking then down to their smallest parts, one push-up a day or 'just work for a five minutes and then you won't want to stop' don't hold true. I will stop, I won't ever want to progress, even doing one of anything sometimes feels like too large a mental barrier. Never mind establishing them as habits. Even the simplest example of brushing your teeth every evening or bad habits such as hot chocolate powder in my coffee have and always are conscious decisions - I'm just more likely to go with the bad things because they're more immediately gratifying. Nothing I do is automatic, and even things I normally enjoy I will sometimes avoid just because it's too much work to get to starting and then doing it? The mental attritition grows so high over the course of the day. Which is to say idealising daily routines and year-long goals or even long-term goals broken down don't ... work for me? Which then begs the question, what will? ... This is a thought dump of a post when I was originally going to write a list of my video game, to read, and to watch backlogs and then make a goal for the number I want to hit this year, .... oops.

Focused Flexibility current BAP Deep Squat : 4 / 10 Crosslegged Sitting : 8 / 10 Longsitting : 3 / 10 Supine Hip/Knee Flexion : 3 / 10 Crossleg Hip Rotation : 9 / 10 Shoulder Combined Motions : 5 / 10 Prone Backbending : 7 / 10 Neck Motions : 9 / 10 Areas to work on : Longsitting & Supine Hip/Knee Flexion Stretches to incorporate into yoga : Hamstring Variations / Longsitting Stretch / Kneeling Lunge / Modified Pigeon

Daily Routine : 9 : Wake-up 10 : Exercise ( Cycle M/W/F / HomeFront Sun / Yoga T/T/Sat ) 11:30 : Bible ( CJB / Torahstudies / Life Study / Creative Liturgy ) 12:30 : Lunch ( Wrap / Burger / Noodles ) 1:30 : Korean ( Textbook/Workbook / Diary ) & Coursera ( UKP / Website Building ) 3:00 : Art ( Iterative / MDJ / Other ) 6:00 : Dinner ( Cook on ? ) 7 : Relax ( Games / Signal / Elementary )

I don't feel like committing to anything or even really interacting with anyone, so this is going in the Battle Log. My last post was from before uni started, getting ready to leave and start on a whole new adventure. I'm now over a month in, taken up a position role in the student TV, not joined any of the sports clubs or gym, become more organised but also have worse executive dsyfunction. I've gone from saying ' I definitely don't have ADHD ' to 'I probably do ' to 'I definitely don't ' to 'I probably do' during this over the course of watching multiple documentaries and engaging in NeuroDiverse Twitter. There was another attempt to have a therapist, and it fell through again. My body and self issues have gnawed through the roof and it's sometimes quite hard to navigate them. My major one right now is this 'people don't want to talk to me' belief. A couple bad conversations and crash goes the esteem. I'm lonely. Sort of. I have plenty of really good friends and some good support systems, but there is no one that I really vulnerable with, and its something I crave after the amazing time at DTS with total vulnerability. It's led to this increased craving to be dating someone, which is also coupled with the desire to not be left behind, especially now I'm 21 and still have never kissed / dated anyone. Creating is hard. Finishing creations is near impossible.

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So far, it's been interesting. Work is finally over, and its kind of bittersweet. It wasn't an amazing time, but I got settled, and it decent. Marketing is not something I see myself doing in the future, but it was useful to learn. I'm packing all my stuff this morning and moving back to uni this afternoon, and I'll be set on a whole new adventure by tonight. Change and moving is always odd. The journalling hasn't happened, and I've definitely been using my hand as a notes pad, but I've got the pages set up and I've written some basic stuff. Creative stuff has been happening every day, but for the newspaper, which I will count as it still requires creative thought, an artistic process, and creating something by the end. I'm hoping to write something tomorrow. The walking has happened, just by virtue of walking to and from work, but we'll see how that changes in the rest of the week by being at uni. I have a feeling it will just be needing that excuse to get out of the house. And the Daily Dares have happened, just in the seconds before I go to bed. Tomorrow i will have my yoga mat and space to lie it out again, so I should be able to resume my morning stretches, and incorporate the dare into that.

Whiskey is just smooth and warm while wine is so vinegary (there is the occasional rose that I like) and beer is so flat. And thank you!

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