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  1. Welcome back, @AlaCrimsonTide2006 ! And thanks for the warm welcome guys. Can't wait to redo my challenge, haha! At least I can make it more challenging this time around
  2. Er, hi guys! Its been a while but, erm, I'm back.. So I feel awful for being such a big part of the community and for being so enthusiastic about this site - only to suddenly disappear from the face of the earth. I promise that I have good reasons, though! Hence why I'm back, ready-and-rearing. So some of you may know that I was dealing with some health issues and hoping to get back up to a healthy weight again, whilst getting stronger following my diagnosis / lack of diagnosis / misdiagnosis. Still with me? It was all going alright; slowly progressing - and I mean, very slowly. At a snail's pace. But progressing nonetheless. But a few months ago (was it one month? Two? Who knows?) - I took a huge, very sudden turn for the worst after a surgery and winded up in hospital; this time, long-term. The plus-side to this is that I underwent a lot of tests in a short span and they think they've come to work out the issues and why they seem so diverse; yet cause the same life-debilitating dizziness, fainting and fatigue. For those who don't know; I suddenly found myself - a girl who loves to surf, to rock-climb, to be outdoors - sleeping up to 19 hours a day or suddenly fainting without warning. These "episodes" occurred so often that I couldn't go to work; and by the end; could barely eat or move. Eighteen years young and suddenly I was back at my mother's house, her having to wash my hair for me whilst I struggled to keep my eyes open. After almost two years of getting worst I suppose I ought to have known it was going to catch up to me eventually. Okay, I'm blabbering now. What I came to say is that I underwent a heart ablation as well as a hormone treatment. I was suspected of having everything from a brain tumour to cancer; it seemed as though they were managing to outrule so many of the less-scary options, leaving more and more terrifying possibilities in their wake. The final results - the ones I've waited years for - are surprising; severe wolff parkinson white, chronic pain syndrome and ME. Who'd have thought? It was tough but the changes have been amazing. I've spent quite a few weeks at home recovering; gradually I've gone back to work. I got back to my pre-surgery self... and then something else happened. I began to do better than before the surgery. I began to feel dizzy less, and could move about more. My appetite came back, and I found myself going for walks with friends and family members - then taking the dogs - then jogging a little too. I'm better. By no means cured; but finally - finally - have found something that works. Each week I'm growing stronger and with all my post-procedure check-ups, it looks as though I really am on an upwards rise. I came back to say that now that I am better - something I've wished to be for so long - I aim to come back with a vengeance! You can expect to see me all over the forums, haha; you guys will probably be sick of the sight of me! XD Thank you for being supportive, everybody; both those who knew and messaged me in my absence, and those who I'm yet to discover! Lots of love, Stella. ♥
  3. Thanks for checking in on me, aw! There were a few complications so I've been back in hospital, but got home today. Overall, I'll be in a lot of pain / on strong painkillers for the next few days but after that I should be back to my self. I also managed to sod up my stitches and got a firm telling off, haha. Despite being in a lot of pain since the procedure (which will fade over the next week) I can already feel a noticeable difference in my heart defect (or, you know, lack thereof now). I guess I'll figure out how much of the fatigue has been alleviated next week since these painkillers are so strong and its hard to tell, but I do feel less tired until its time to take the painkillers again, then off to sleepy-town I go, haha. This is the beginning of something great, I can just feel it! Overall, the op was a huge success and the next few weeks will show whether it will have helped "a lot" or "crazy lodes" - but to be honest, both are fine by me. And after we've worked out where to start from, it'll be "calibrating" my medication and making lifestyle changes. My doctor says that within a few weeks to a few months, he has full faith that I'll be able to rock-climb, surf, run and dance like I always have. It wont be without effort, but god damn this has changed so much. Change, finally! Woo! So I have been superduper inactive and I am so sorry everyone! Within another 3 days I should be back (and yes, that means those LARP photographs, haha! )
  4. @IAmInfinite and @~RedStone~ (you two really are the best XD ) @zeroh13 Me too! Haha. But feeling so much better today than yesterday; at this rate, I should be back to normal within two or three days!
  5. So had my op yesterday and thus spent yesterday being checked over and stitched back up, plus the anaesthesia didn't agree with me, so wasn't allowed to take my tablets, go for walk, etc, like you'd expect. Buuuuut I'm going to mark them as done because it wasn't that I "didn't" do it, its that I "couldn't". (Yay for self-forgiveness) On the plus side; this is one, huge step to recovering from my health condition. This ought to alleviate me of anywhere between 10% and 75% of symptoms over the next few weeks; as well as other lifestyle changes I'll make. WOOOOOO!
  6. Post-op! I've never felt as ill as I did afterwards but now home and very, very giddy on painkillers. But this is the first step to reclaiming my own body again. :D  

    1. RedStone


      Like for reclaiming? Looking for clues, but overall hope that this is an important step towards something even more important <3 

  7. Hey guys! Been a bit MIA the last few days; got one more check-up at the hospital later today and will hopefully be back on here more. I think the stress and anxiety of it all has really pushed me into some old habits, namely destructive eating ones. Suppose I'm just struggling with a desperate need for some control? *sigh* Anywho, will be working on it and trying my best to overcome it in the next few days, I suppose.
  8. I have! I actually cosplayed as Asuna at my last anime convention! Although I had no idea that it was the same voice actor!
  9. Wooooo, such great progress! Congrats on having no chocolate especially; I failed at that one today, haha! Funny how you begin to tune into your body and work out when you're actually hungry, etc, isn't it? Anywho, super well done!
  10. Ooh, nearly missed this post (lol)! I got a few seasons in but stopped about three months back. Going to start again, but all the way from the beginning because man its such a great show! I watched the dub too (I have a strange fascination with Natsu's voice in the dub, although all of the voice acting is great!) so I don't want to switch to sub either, haha!
  11. Damn, good question! I like that; I was about to say that its bound to get people talking, but it already has! Hehe. I put far too much thought into this (yelp) but I would say... Lucy Heartfillia (Fairy Tail) Elsa (Frozen, although I wish I was more alike Anna!) Amy Santiago (Brooklyn Nine-Nine)
  12. Eep, just realized I wrote a bit of an essay! My bad! But no need to thank me! Here to help! *more internet hugs*
  13. I think that so many of us find ourselves slipping up one day and running off-the-tracks, and then feeling crazily discouraged as a result to the point where we think "well now there's a blemish on my perfect record on my journey to a super clean, super great lifestyle, what's even the point?". That might just be the iddy-biddy perfectionist in me talking. Often it isn't even our fault; either our bodies get in the way, or anxiety creeps up and throws your plans into discord. I suffer with anxiety and whilst it is so much better now, I would be lying if I said that there isn't an uphill battle to be had before I've got a grip on it, rather than vice versa. I also have a recently diagnosed chronic condition that causes me so much fatigue and pain. This means that I can do great for a few days; eat three meals a day, go out for adventures and feel like I'm living my best life; and then I might suddenly feel a tad too anxious to exert myself outside of the house, or maybe I find myself too tired-and-in-pain to do anything, and as a result of being stuck inside, I eat less than I need to, or can't make it out. There've been times when I've thought "well I've already sodded up my epic quest" but I've found a few things that helped. Tons of us here love to roleplay as fearsome assassins or magnificent elves or agile rangers; as our own selves but in universes we've grown to love; such as Star Trek or Skyrim. Often this means aspiring to a stronger self, or a more skilled self, or vaguely somewhere that we hope to be in the future; what we would love to be were we in our favourite movies, or our favourite games. But the thing to remember is that if you think of any good nerdy movie, even the bravest of characters have their "whoopsie daisy" moments - its character building! In Lord of the Rings Frodo tries his best but succumbs to the power of the ring despite his efforts. Luke underwent his training and had a few slip-ups of his own, having to be reminded several times by Yoda that he must face his fears, not necessarily fight them, ie. his "failure at the cave". Aang panicked when faced with his true calling, running away from his home and in turn, abandoning an entire world! Slipping up is okay. In fact; see it as making your journey stronger! I know that for some of us (myself included) its happened so many times that we wonder if it is possible to make significant progress at all, but I promise you that it is. Take into consideration all three of those dorky examples above; do you know what all three of those protagonists had in common, which ultimately helped them succeed? They had companions, friends and masters to show them the way and to support them on their journey; and whether you let yourself rely wholeheartedly on those that love you or whether you come here, that's such an important weapon in your arsenal.That boss monster might seem impossible to beat; but with a few fellow rebels at your side, it'll get easier as time goes on. Consider Nerd Fitness your own little clan, ready to help you kick some serious boss monster butt! And I just know that a bunch of people here are going to be with me on this one; you'll find so many people keen to follow your challenges, to cheerlead you on your progress - and to help pick you up when you're feeling down. And honestly, that can make all the difference between staying consistent with your progress, and staying on the right path. Remember to be kind to yourself. In every great nerdy story you have your ups and your downs along the way; it makes for good reading. These are yours; but you can overcome them! You just have to forgive yourself when you do slip up - not see it as something you did "bad"; just say "oh well!" and try to look on the bright side; then begin the next day as another day. Just remember...
  14. Thank you, @six1! So the last two days have been spent feeling a bit, er, I've been suffering pretty badly with my anxiety, and fighting on through. On the plus side, I'm finding a few patterns so hopefully I'll be able to talk to my doctor or figure something out? Maybe I just need my medication twitching a tad, although its probably down to a lot of the recent medical findings weighing too heavily on my mind. On the not-so-good side... it has impacted my challenge a little, and since I've only just begun it can so easily feel discouraging to see myself slipping up so early on. Buuut I'm just going to plow on through, hope for a better day tomorrow, and try to stay smiling. So in the wise words of Joey Tribbiani;
  15. Theeeen lets swiftly change the subject to something else! Hooow about... what episode of fairy tail are you on? ^^
  16. You're doing so great so far, I just know that you can keep it up! Also- i like the way you think. Hahaha
  17. Sending hugs your way! You're not a failure or a quitter. You're human; I know that many of us on here love to roleplay as fantastic elves or fearsome rangers, but every character has their tough times and their difficulties; its character building. Just know that your failures don't define you; think of all the good you've done lately, from your workouts to having made this thread to support people; as far as I, and many others here, are concerned: you're a pretty awesome person. And you're going to get past this little "bump in the road" and get back on track in your own time, like the badass you are! Just remember to be kind to yourself; if you were stood before any of us and we were the ones telling you about this, would you think of us as a failure? I'm sure you wouldn't; you deserve the same amount of kindness that you'd exert onto others! It isn't you (or your body's) fault that you burned out. This happens; even to the fictional heroes some of us strive to become; there will always be times when things go wrong. A lot of us here are levelling up our fitness as well as our mental health; never feel bad about letting the rest take the slide for a few days; just concentrate on getting into the right, positive mindspace again and then you can begin plowing into the rest. A walk in the woods sounds lovely; i did that yesterday and it cleared up so much of the mumbo-jumbo in my mind. If you need more hugs you know where I am! Stella ♥
  18. *cough* I mean, err, who said that...
  19. Love the way in which you've planned your goals (and all of the references too!) Looks like you've had a pretty good start to the challenge so far! Following for more epic progress and awesome fairy-tail gifs!
  20. Trust me; in my experience, the cravings hit hardest in the first week, and by the second other things begin to taste sweeter, you know? It'll get easier as time goes on, not harder, I promise! I do indeed! Squeee, a fellow Fairytail Mage! I am absolutely addicted; it's my all-time favourite show! Erza is very inspiring. My favourite is either Natsu or Lucy, partly because I identify quite a lot with Lucy. As for Natsu... well, he's such a cutie
  21. @six1 First of all, chocolate is my kryptonite of cravings, perhaps only second to coffee. Cold turkey is the only way that's ever worked for me although that first week can be tough; best of luck! Also... is that Erza I spot in your avatar?!
  22. Following because I'm intrigued, only wish that I could help more!
  23. Toooodaaay a few friends and I drank lots of iced coffee, packed our bags full of a day's worth of supplies, and went adventuring in the woods - all day. And I'm not being metaphorical when I say 'adventuring'; despite all three of us being adults, we tried to really channel our gamer-nerd personas and see the wilderness the way you might in an RPG; a lightly trodden path disappearing into the forest canopy? CLEARLY ADVENTURE AWAITS! A hidden waterfall we'd never stumbled upon before? Probably a chest to loot somewhere! It was such escapism especially given the medical issues lately, but man I had a great time. And managed to tick off one of my current 4wc goals in the meantime. 10/10 would do this again. This makes me think, perhaps I should give LARPing a go... Haha. To sum up:
  24. Wave of anxiety. Just got to *breathe in* *breathe out* and wait for it to pass :unsure:

    1. Master Blackhawke

      Master Blackhawke

      Deep breath, you can do this!

  25. This, This and This ^^^^ Now following for more awesome photos and updates!
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