RhiaWolfe

When we actually had it up and working, it was a joy. However, getting it ready and taking it down is a headache and I can't afford to pay someone to come do it for me.

I have arrived!!!! My goal is 10 lbs in 10 weeks. I'm doing awesome so far!

Your post was very well put.

Aye!!!!

I have an in-ground pool at my house and I hate it. We never open it up because of how much work it is. My back yard has also been seriously neglected and I really don't know how to fix it. It's a bit overwhelming for me. ugh. A standing desk would be awesome.

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Man, I've been so tired and I'm not sure why. I've been stressed too, but I can't figure out what the source of the stress is. I've got stress bumps on my fingers too that itch and it's annoying. Last night I went home and crashed on the couch. Slept a good part of the evening, got up, went to bed and slept until this morning and STILL had trouble waking up. Ugh. Yesterday I finished everything I can on one project at work (waiting for my coworker to record some more videos for me to edit) so now I'm back to doing training videos. Not looking forward to that, but after the training videos I can actually do something with what I learned. So here we go! Challenge Updates: Journaling - How I Feel About Food Last night I said "screw it" and got McDonald's for dinner. Man, I regretted my decisions. My stomach was not happy afterward. I was just really craving their french fries for some reason, but my cravings were wrong. Today I'm going to eat healthier to avoid stomach aches. This morning I had some eggs and mango for breakfast. For lunch I have my tuna salad sandwich and strawberries. Not sure about dinner. Research - Movement A friend of mine suggested Sheik and Destroy as a name, and I really like that... except I'm afraid someone that doesn't know Zelda will confuse it with Sheikh and think I'm being culturally insensitive. So scratch that. Haven't thought of anything else new. I'm leaning towards Hookshot or Star Wolf. Star Wolf Hookshot Bomb Flower Jammin-dorf

Slow and steady wins the race!

I can't speak to the Druid=mindset thing, but nutrition seems to be an important part of health no matter what guild you're in. I think most people in the different guilds have some sort of nutritional aspect to their challenges (not all, but most). Are you looking for a group for a specific type of diet? That's a little different and more specific than just "nutrition" as a whole I think, and would also be difficult to create guilds for.

I wanna be a pirate!!!!

Hmm... I may actually look into this. I USED to be a huge clean freak. Then life happened. Now I'm overwhelmed.

Yesterday was an ok day. I was tired most of the day and when I got home from work I think I got a little hangry. I was supposed to pick up thai food for my husband and me, but they are apparently temporarily closed. So I had to figure out something else to eat and I hadn't been to the grocery store. I managed to make tuna salad sandwiches (which I'm having leftovers for lunch today) and some fruit. After I ate I felt quite a bit better. I do think I'm just really tired and need some rest. Challenge Updates: Journaling - How I Feel About Food Last night I was sooooooooo tempted to just grab something to eat on the way home that wasn't healthy. I managed to stop and pick up a few things I needed for the sandwiches I made, but I was irritated about it. At the time, I was frustrated and kept saying "I should have just grabbed something to eat on the way home" but AFTER the fact, I'm glad I didn't. I'm going to try and remember this feeling. Research - Movement Excited to try Roller Derby on Sunday. Here are the names I've thought up so far: Star Wolf Hookshot Bomb Flower Jammin-dorf Sheikah Slammer

Well, for now I'm playing Zelda Tears of the Kingdom and that's going to take me a goooooooooood long while. I might look into it sometime though!

I think a combination of habit and looking for an energy pick-me-up. It's not so much as I'm going to bed... but rather if I didn't sleep well the night before and I'm having to face the day with low energy when all I want to do is lay around or sleep, I feel a desire to reach for that junk food. I may take a couple of your suggestions, such as journaling why I'm craving the food or what I'm feeling... I do already drink water. Maybe the squats. Why, yes. That's a real card. lol! It's probably part of their DnD Universes Beyond collections. I played the Baldur's Gate: Deadly Alliance video game back in the day, but that's about all the experience I have with Baldur's Gate.

So, the main thing I want to talk about: Roller Derby. I went to the intro thing last night and it looks like so much fun! I remember really loving roller skating as a teenager and the group seems very chill and welcoming. I'm definitely going to give it a shot. Only bad thing is that I have to get up early on Sundays. Boo... no sleeping in for me. However, it looks like a lot of fun. I watched their scrimmage game, and it looks like something I can get into. Everyone was super nice and very LGBT+ friendly! Some of them had their pronouns on their helmets. I thought that was really cool. I am concerned about injury, but it seems like they take every precaution and try to play to everyone else's level. Like try not to hit someone too hard if they can't take the hit. That sort of thing. I'm excited to start! I need you guys to help me come up with a good, badass, nerdy derby name. So far I'm kind of leaning towards Star Wolf. Like from Starfox. That way when a jammer tries to pass me I can be all like "I can't let you do that..." I would like a Zelda name too, but none that I come up with are really sticking with me for a Derby name. Challenge Updates: Journaling - How I Feel About Food So, I ended up eating some junk food, but I didn't like how it made me feel, so I didn't eat as much as I used to. I tried a soda and could barely take a couple of sips. I'm noticing that I tend to turn to junk food (even though I know I won't like how it makes me feel) when I'm bored or really tired. Yesterday I was exhausted. I wonder what I can do instead for the tired part... Any suggestions are welcome. Research - Movement I'm going to start going to Roller Derby and see if it's for me. I'm kinda sad that the next practice I can go to isn't until Sunday. Feels like a long time to wait. I'm so excited! It looks so fun!

Ok, so the weekend was really busy, but fun. Overall I think I did pretty good food-wise. Friday night I didn't really do anything. I just went home and hung out. I ate leftover chicken tacos. Saturday I had my TTRPG game... and, I'm a little frustrated with it. I'm not sure if it's just this particular game, or just gaming in general, but I'm not really enjoying it. I can't keep up with the DM's story (but everyone else seems to be able to), I really don't care that much about the characters, there doesn't seem to be a whole lot for my character to do, and honestly, I'm just not invested. If I hadn't already volunteered to DM the next game I would probably take a break from TTRPGs. I'm going to put something together though because I've been wanting to run this game for a while. Luckily, we're almost done with this campaign. Saturday night I went and played Magic with my friend, and it was a lot of fun. I won with my squirrel deck. I borrowed someone else's deck for the second game, but I didn't win that one. However, I loved the theme of that deck and kinda want to make one similar. The deck revolves around a guy throwing hamsters at his enemies and that just cracks me up. Sunday, I went to Pride. It was so much fun but it was HOT!!!! We were outside in the heat, humidity, and the sun for a long time. Afterwards, my sister and I were just exhausted. We went and got lunch, and I splurged a little with some fried plantains (YUM). Then when I got home, I crashed. I felt like I couldn't drink enough water and I had no energy. I ended up going out to eat because I didn't want to go to the grocery store or cook... but I got a salad, grilled shrimp, and sweet potato fries. So, it probably still went way over calories, but I stayed away from trigger foods. However, while at Pride, the local Roller Derby team was there advertising. I'm not sure if it would be something I would want to do or not, but I used to love roller skating as a kid. They have an info session tonight that I'm going to go to and see if it piques my interest. Challenge Updates: Journaling - How I Feel About Food I splurged a bit over the weekend, but my splurging now is no where near what it used to be. I'm calling that an overwhelming win! Especially if I get back on track this week with healthy eating. Research - Movement Checking out Roller Derby tonight.

There are a few, actually. I'll talk more about one of them when I update my challenge, but here are some ideas so far: Kendo (I used to practice Kendo a while back), Dancing (jazz, hip hop, something like that), Roller Derby (more about this in my update), and LARP.

Well, I also have osteoarthritis in my knees... so maybe jumping wouldn't be best for me, now that I think about it.

Most of the stuff I make I give away as gifts, but I never sell my work. The most I might do, is if a friend really wants me to make them something in a certain color I don't have, I might ask for some help in purchasing the yarn (unless it's a color I want for another project). I do this for fun, and I don't want to turn it into a job. However, if I kept everything I made, my house would be overrun with knit and crocheted items. Man, are we the same person? I have always struggled with the all-or-nothing thinking. It's still a struggle. I have trouble finding moderation. I'm so glad you're working on it and learning more about yourself. It's a life-long journey. There's no hurry. (I need to turn that into a mantra) I also went to Pride yesterday, and it was HOT. I fared better than my sister because she doesn't hydrate as much as I do, but by the end we were wiped. I indulged a bit in food afterward and I didn't have energy to go to the grocery store or meal prep, but I'm trying to give myself some grace.

s'mores for the win!

So food was on point yesterday. I am learning a bit about myself and I'll update that in the challenge below. Yesterday was a good day, despite having trouble focusing on work. We got to play Magic The Gathering during lunch and I got to use my new deck for the first time. I decided to go with Chatterfang (All hail the squirrel army!!!!). Sadly, we don't have enough time at lunch to get through a full game of commander, so no one won, but it was fun playing and learning about my deck. Last night after work I went to visit my grandmother. I stopped by McAllister's Deli and got me a soup and sandwich and then got a bowl of chili for my grandmother. It was tasty. First time I've eaten out this week (score!). After our visit I went to hang out with my best friend. While he was taking care of his son and putting him to bed, I played Zelda TOTK on my switch. Afterwards we talked Magic stuff. I'm really getting into it. Challenge Updates: Journaling - How I Feel About Food So, yesterday food was on point. I didn't really indulge. I think I had some crackers, but that's about it until dinner. The soup and sandwich I had felt like an indulgence for me. It was kinda odd. It was still good and fairly low in calories, but it was different and a little richer than what I normally have. I had a chicken club sandwich and potato soup. I also noticed that I'm eating smaller portions. Used to I would still be hungry after eating that meal. Last night though, it filled me up, and I was wondering if it was going to be too much. Maybe that's why it felt indulgent. I actually felt full instead of just not hungry. Research - Movement Haven't done any research yet.

I never jumped rope as a kid. I didn't really have the coordination for it. I've also never really been that active. It stems from being made fun of so much as a kid for not being fast enough or strong enough... I just quit trying. I've thought about trying a jump rope thing. Maybe if I see one in a gym sometime.

Last night I actually got some time to play Zelda Tears of the Kingdom! I haven't had much time to play lately, and it's not one of those games that you can just play for 30 minutes to an hour. You have to have a large chunk of time. When my switch battery got low, I put it in the charger and watched some more Trigun. I'm rewatching it because I just finished watching Trigun Stampede. Man, it's been a while since I've watched an old school anime! I forgot how good it was! Then my husband came in and we spent some time together. We're currently watching The Magicians together. Man, what a weird show... but I'm enjoying it. Challenge Updates: Journaling - How I Feel About Food So, yesterday was a good day for the most part. I ate very well. Breakfast: egg, bell pepper, and bacon bits scramble Snack: Banana Lunch: Greek food catered by work: chicken kabob, a few tomatoes an peppers, pita and hummus, rice dish, half a baklava (too sweet for me) Snack: orange and kiwi fruit Dinner: homemade chicken tacos Snack: a handful of cheesy pretzel pieces and 2 rollos I don't know what the calories were and right now I don't really care. I did notice that throughout the day I felt like something was missing. I was craving something, but I wasn't sure what. I tried a handful of pretzels to see if that would help. It didn't really. I decided to try the rollos to see if that helped. It did, actually. I'm not exactly sure why, but those two small pieces of candy actually helped and I was able to ignore the cravings after that. Research - Movement I'm going to talk to my friend who does LARP and see if I can join them for a session and see if it's something I'm interested in.

I have a friend that's part of a local larp group. I thought about asking him to introduce me to it.

Man, that sounds like a lot on your plate. I would be overwhelmed by that too. Give yourself some grace for not doing all the things. I know it can be hard, but try to focus on the small wins. The fact that you're posting here regularly, getting support, and working through your thoughts is something positive that you weren't doing before. That's awesome! That's a win right there! What helps me is to make a list of all the things I want to work on and get done, then I put a priority on each of them. Then I choose one of the highest priority items and work on just that thing for a bit until I feel like I'm able to add something else. I know that this is easier said than done, as I tend to be an all-or-nothing person where I'm doing all the things or I just quit and do none of them. Sometimes I have to stop and reassess.