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Hey all 6.15pm I am sat in almost quiet for the first time all day. I have a cup of tea and wish more than anything it was a pint of beer. I defo feel on the verge of sobbing. All day has been hammering, drilling, banging banging banging. Now there is scaffolding up all over next door. Vans strewn acrross the road so i can not get out of my own drive. Its awful. I cant manage it. I left at 2.30pm to drive to a meeting. Went ok. Drive home horrible due to an accident - so much traffic. Thank god they were all gone next door when i got home at 6. I think i may have murdered them if not. im trying to deep breathe but cant quite catch my breath ive taken a valium. i will just try hard to relax this evening. Lie down and try not to constantly cry all night. Existential crisis due to finances and wondering what the point is....???????? Scared of dying but think it would be better if i was dead. Ugh. Anyway. x

Still waiting for confirmation after all the checks. Prob hear tmoro. xx

Hey all. 10pm. Pouring down!!!!! Today has been quite crazy. House viewing at 9.15am went well. The house is much smaller. But its nice! I asked ALOT of questions. And felt positive. Anyway. I think it is a go-er. I think this time next month we will be moved..... We wrote a lot down and plans, finances for moving, when Roxys dad can borrow the work van to move the furniture etc. I am enjoying just relaxing a bit this evening, i feel much more content that we can escape this horrid place soon. Loads to do of course but i am TRYING to keep calm and think of the end result. x

More below! Yeah its important. I do miss them. But im 40 mins away, less at times. Depending on traffic. It isnt far, and when i say that im being dramatic. I just dont see them ... they dont reach out much anymore. Its sad but I also need to make more effort too..... x

Guys, i have a house viewing in 15 mins. Im so nervous. x

No, its not better in other places. Its very rare to get a good/or an ok landlord. Ive rented over 11 places in my lifetime and one landlord was decent. The rest - shit, awful, and like this one, horrendous. But like i said earlier, this particular house is making me ill. I can not fathom how the landlord can allow us to live here when we cant lock our door. We live in a rough area, there are messages posted every week on the community hub, about break ins and attacks....yet he just never ever replies to me. Its infuriating. I need to get out of this house, and this neighbourhood. I hate everyone on this street. We wouldnt move very far. Prob stay around here... its better for Roxys work. I dont have any family around here and not many friends. x

Its an absolute disgrace in the UK Im basically paying this idiots mortgage, plus £300 extra per month. The house is disgusting and freezing. And nothing is done. But as a renter, I have no rights. Its so so so frustrating and upsetting xx

Hey there - midday… Trying to figure out if there are any way to raise a deposit to move house (rented so around £800) and if there are there any help schemes for this? I obviously need to move but I don’t have deposit money available….crazy!! I’ll keep researching x

Morning all. 8am here - been up since 6, just working on a website for a client. Yesterday - i did no work! I cried because of the buildng work. It started to get sunny so i thought FUCK THIS. put Bronze in the car and we drove 35 mins, to the beach!! It was glorious. It was cold. It was sunny. And i decided to try something. I let Bronze off the lead She was SO GOOD ❤️ Baby steps but this is a good thing we can do each week. One walk off lead and lets see how it goes. I am proud of her. Got home in the eve and building had stopped! Rox got home and we made homemade pizza, watched the footy, i read a bit, then went to bed. Bronze slept allllllll evening. Tired from the excitement and sea air xx

I did go over last week and he was quite rude. I dont know if he was or i was just pissed off anyway....but he is a bit of a rough chav. i dont really want to speak to him at all. We defo will move. I absolutely hate living here. Its loud and annoying neighbours all round the cul de sac. But the MAIN issue is the back door. And the cold. And the roof. Our landlord is a disgrace and I am sure he is breaking the law by not fixing the door. xx

Morning all. 9.30am here. Slept pretty well. Last night we watched the film, What Ever Happened to Baby Jane? WOWWWWWWWWW I cant believe ive never seen it before. INCREDIBLE. Anyway today is quite busy in terms of work bits and job applications to write. Will also try to relax as much as i can, rest if needed etc. The building hasnt begun yet but i feel on edge waiting for them to arrive. x

Ohhhhh the baby pic. Look how small ❤️ I hope today goes well TG - i will send good loving thoughts over to you xx

Morning Sov, thanks for sharing that. The video was absolutely brill!!!! The song also good! Ariana is a honorary Manc.... (person from Manchester) after what happened at her concert in 2017. She managed the devastation with such gentle love. What a tragedy that night was. Hope you have a gorgeous day Sov, cos you deserve it xx

Morning Harriet, hope your Monday is lovely and the sun is out x

I love that !!!! I wish we could make the dream come true xx

I’m struggling a bit this eve. I am trying to figure out how to move house and I can’t work anything out I feel like I’m going to self destruct x

Hey @Harriet 🧡 I guess baths - reading - napping… I’m not sure all those things need quiet 😂 in terms of tracking, I found one called My Net Diary. I like the interface. xx

Hey all. Think last night i was just mentally and physically exhausted. Overwhelmed with noise. Having a bit of mess just pushed me over the edge i guess. It wasnt even that bad! Today has been fine. Got some food bits coming tmoro as my friend lent me £55 to get a shop delivered. Should come around lunch time tmoro. From tomorrow, i will be tracking food. So wish me luck. Its 4pm now, and i am watching the football and very sleepy. Rox is in the bath. Ill have one this evening too. Cant wait. Going to settle in, read, knit a bit more, drink tea and REST. Busy week ahead. My anxiety is becoming a huge problem for me. So i need to figure out how i can help myself with this. I know in the morning that the building next door will begin again and i am just ON EDGE. Will make a plan for the upcoming week to try and keep controlled. xx

About 6 hour drive. There are loads of trains yes but its very expensive and very unreliable. Who knows if they turn up! So i drove. Plus i had a car full of stuff to take down with me...!! Yeahhh I am home now. Thank god. Although.... im already crying HAHAHA Rox is not here tonight, as she is dog sitting for her friend over night. I came home, and the house is a bit of a mess. Nothing major but dishes not all done, some bits over the side. Dry clothes in piles downstairs...Recycling not done etc. Im not saying the house is always tidy (IT IS NOT) but if Rox has been away for a few days then i always make it clean and tidy, replace old flowers with new in vase etc Just feels a bit sad that nothing was done. Feel like ive worked my ass off for days, huge long drive, and now i need to sort the house out too. Also, its 8pm and next door are still at it, sawing, drilling, hammering. I just basically burst into tears. I am hyper sensitive to noise lately and im exhausted and cold and hungry and i am trapped in this house. It feels awful xx

OHHHHHHHHHHHH HARRIET!!!! Look how beautiful you are ❤️ Your hair is stunning. And your face is so gorgeous How have you found styling yourself? Sending love xx

Hey ! So glad your dog is ok!!! ❤️ What are your prepped lunches? Enjoy games and chili night xx

Hey Sov, hope you are feeling a little better today ❤️ love you xx

Hey all. Saturday morning, 6.30am. Not slept loads, got back to the hotel at around 11.45pm last night, shower, bed. A 12 hour day yesterday doing ALOT. We are almost there, I recon another 4 hours today and it will be done. I am ready to go home tbh. Feel like ive been away for weeks although its only been 4 days! It is looking great tho, so thats a real positive. Hopefully i can set off home at around 2....and be home for 7pm - my ideal would be back by 7pm, hot bath, settle in to watch the football at 8pm!! Maybe treat myself to a take out!! For now, cup of tea in bed, before packing up, checking out of hotel, getting to the studio and carrying on. x

Wow Rookie, on your sketches, the bottom ones of the dogs are absolutely brilliant!!!!!!!! Gorgeous sketches! xx

I slept well thanks! xx No, no time really. Also, i hate London haha so i wouldnt really want to sightsee anyway xx