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    Aquarii - Control

    I am back for another round with the Rangers. A little late to the party...but at least here, nonetheless. My last challenge kind of fell apart and went in a lot of different directions, but eventually evolved into a journey of self-reflection and discovery. I became a lot more aware of what I really wanted to prioritize and, perhaps more importantly, how that differed from how I actually spend my time every day. So my goal for this challenge is to start implementing that in a realistic manner. As much as I want to have a fiery intro to this challenge, as much as I want that inspirational "I am changing my entire life, right here, right now," as much as I want to just crash head first into this challenge with crazy goals...we are keeping it simple. This challenge is not going to focus on moving forward. This challenge is going to focus on rebuilding a foundation that will allow me to move forward in the future. Mental health has never been my strong suit. I am fairly good at a lot of things, but maintaining a healthy mental state is not one of those things. There are times where I do better with managing my issues, and times where I don't. This year has been a gradual decent into not really managing it well at all. And there are plenty of reasons for that, but regardless of those reasons, it is my responsibility to take care of myself and work to get back on track. No one else can do that for me. Lately, my mental health, and the escapism that accompanies it, has probably been the biggest obstacle for achieving my goals. Not only has it hampered my goals moving forward, but I have let it lapse to the point of affecting my physical health. So, getting back on top of habits that support managing my mental health is going to be a primary goal for this challenge. And that brings me to control. I am a person who feels a desperate need for control, and my worst choices are usually during times when I feel like I don't have control of my life (like right now, yay). Now, some of that is healthy (I think it is good for people to want to live intentionally and take the initiative to do what they want and what matters), and some of that is unhealthy (feeling anxious or depressed when you can't control everything). My goal for this challenge is to focus on building habits that give me a better sense of control in areas that I have control over, and learning to cope better with situations that I cannot control (instead of reverting to bad coping mechanisms and escapism). Control Goals: Control My Environment: Spend 5-10 minutes tidying each day Set Boundaries for My Health: Get to bed by midnight Control My Movement: 5-10 minutes of yoga or stretching each day Schedule for Food: ~ 16/8 Intermittent Fasting (11a-7p or 12p-8p depending on the day) Coping Goals: Learn/Self-Discover: Start working through CBT workbook for 15 min at least 3x a week Dance it Off: Continue attending new Hip Hop and Music Theater Dance classes Push Myself to do Uncomfortable Things: Run at least 2x per week in prep for first 5k in November (I have always been very bad at running and feel way out of my depth) EDIT: Oh! For those of you who don't know me, Hi! I am Aquarii. Ummmm, not really relevant facts include: I am 25, 5'10", left-handed, INTJ, questionably human. SECOND EDIT: Added IF to goals