Goldfish

One thing that really frustrates me is the knowledge that although I always hated writing papers I never had such a hard time doing it. Not with regular papers, not with my bachelors thesis, but this one seems so hard. I should be able to just sit down and get it done just like before. I wish I knew what my problem actually is. Gesendet von meinem SM-J500FN mit Tapatalk

That list with depression symptoms is quite alarming, I could tick so many boxes. I was actually treated for depression when I was in high school, but then my thyroid disfunction hadn't been diagnosed yet. After that was found and treated I got better really quick. It never went as far as with family members who needed medications, but my parents apparently were really worried I'd try to commit suicide. I haven't thought like that in years. I didn't think it could come back just like that... At the worst possible moment too. I'm really not sure what to do with that knowledge. On a happier note: I ate well today and worked on my thesis. One day is not enough to tell, but maybe stipulating an early starting time is a good idea. And I wrote in the kitchen, not my room. Exercise is probably not going to happen, though. Gesendet von meinem SM-J500FN mit Tapatalk

Thanks for the tip! You'd think I've never before written a paper... My mom might actually do that, I'll ask. I realy think not having friends here I can just meet at the library is really tripping me up. I had a peek at the challenge you linked, is it like a checklist? I'm not sure I understood it correctly. However working out how to properly track myself is definitely a goal. Gesendet von meinem SM-J500FN mit Tapatalk

Yeah, once I start it's not so bad, but for some reason I seem to stop believing this once the day is over. Oh, I have not looked at that yet, thank you, I'll check it out. Procrastination is like losing weight to me, I know what to do, but doing it is harder than it should be. Gesendet von meinem SM-J500FN mit Tapatalk

Thank you. I'll try daily updates this week to see if that does the trick. Gesendet von meinem SM-J500FN mit Tapatalk

Thank you all for your encouragements! I'll do better this month, I promise. Now, onto my actual update for week 0. No exercise. I didn't eat as well as I hoped I would, but better than in the first challenge. I also have taken over dinner duty so that I can control what we'll have and make it low carb. There are usually leftovers for one meal the next day so I only have to worry about one meal a day. The bad mostly was a lot of cake for my mums birthday celebrations. I have been better with writing my thesis, but I've been thinking: can goals be too low? I'm asking because I realized that since my goal is one page a day I tend to start really late because 'it's not that much'. Maybe changing to goal from a page a day to 'start before x am' would be more beneficial. So my mini goal till sunday will be to start working on my thesis before 10am each day. I guess there's still a lot of room for tweaks. Gesendet von meinem SM-J500FN mit Tapatalk

Getting out of bed is difficult, because I sleep so badly. Or rather falling asleep takes hours no matter how tired I am, so I'm really tired in the mornings. It's mostly procrastination, because I hate working on it so much it sometimes makes me actually physically nauseous. Maybe it's also because I don't actually think I can do this ? I don't know, this has never happened before. I'm thinking a pvp or buddy could maybe help, then I'd have somebody to hold me accountable. Gesendet von meinem SM-J500FN mit Tapatalk

I'm really trying to get a morning ritual going. I've gotten better at getting up when my alarm goes off as opposed to hitting snooze over the past week, but I still didn't eat any frogs... What does your ritual look like? Socializing would probably help, but I'm not at Uni anymore and I have no friends here. Working at the university library isn't possible here, because I neet internet access that I don't get there because I'm not a student there. Gesendet von meinem SM-J500FN mit Tapatalk

Thank you! Yeah, maybe updating daily would help? I guess I didn't do it because I didn't meet my goals for the most part so I was a little mad and a lot ashamed. That's also why I'm bad at focusing what I actually did, because I didn't do a lot. Gesendet von meinem SM-J500FN mit Tapatalk

The field is Sinology and the topic is basically how China, Taiwan and Hong Kong deal with immigration bearing in mind that they are traditionally not immigration but rather sending countries. And I'm not as far along as I need to be. Gesendet von meinem SM-J500FN mit Tapatalk

Is there a multiquote function on tapatalk? I'm learning how to navigate that. I don't really know what my problem is, it's just really hard to get up and do something. And when I do I run out of energy really fast... It's mostly not starting and hating myself for not doing what I'm supposed to be doing... I'll think about it. Gesendet von meinem SM-J500FN mit Tapatalk

what do you mean you don't know what to do next?! The answer is obviously PARTAAY, since you're still full of caffeine and all. Have a rave in your room!

I feel like this is an accurate representation of every student who just graduated. Party!

Thank you! I don't even know, why I have such a hard time, because I don't even like it that much, but I still find myself reaching for it all the time... Thanks! I think my biggest problem is simply that I absolutely hate working on it. So I usually have breakfast and then think 'I'll just check Instagram real quick' or 'It's just one video' and then it's five hours later.. I just hope that, if I can force myself to just eat the frog, I'll finish my page quickly and can ride the momentum to write a couple more. We'll see. I did my page for today, though.

The topic for the next challenge is here: Goldfish tries again

Yeah well. Okay, so the last challenge was a complete bust, I basically failed at everything. SO the only thing I can do is to try again. My main focus will be my thesis, everything is a nice-to-have, if I complete no goals apart from my thesis goal, I'll consider this challenge a complete win. If I manage more, excellent. Thesis Goals -write at least one page a day. (This is totally doable, but I still failed last month.) -eat the frog (I really need to start on my thesis right after breakfast, instead of dithering most of the morning. Nutrition Goals -eat Low Carb at least 22 days during the challenge run -limit Coke Zero intake to two bottles a week. (i drink way too much of this stuff. If this is a success I will try to wean myself off it next challenge.) Fitness Goals -T-Tapp BWO at least 20 days So, this is it. Thesis goal has to be reached, the rest would be cool, but I won't be too broken up about not reaching those goals.

Well... okay, this first challenge was a bit of a bust for me. I guess part of it was that I spontaneously wanted to participate, but the bigger reason for failing is definitely that I'm really, really lazy. I think that one adjective would be the one that describes me best unfortunately. Eating-wise I found it really hard to live with people that can eat what I really wanna eat but shouldn't. Like sweets and baked goods; I have a really hard time saying no. I really have to do better. However, my real focus has to be my thesis, even if I manage nothing but writing this thesis in the next four weeks it'll be a huge win.

So far my eating has been kinda meh. Better than the week before, but definitely not low carb. There's days when I manage, but then it seems to slip my mind and find myself eating things I'm not supposed to without even thinking about it... Also, this thread is probably going to turn into me constantly whining about my thesis. I cannot fathom writing 80 pages about something. Even though, after doing the math I'm sure that the thesis will barely affect my grades and it's mostly about just passing. So I don't even have to worry about it being good, but I still feel sick every time I open the document. A while ago my professor asked me if I was interested in doing my doctorate there, but I declined. In the beginning I felt kinda bad about that and wondered if I made a mistake, but having to write my masters' thesis definitely shows me that I wasn't made for that. Now I just want to get through this. I'm going to leave a page counter here hoping to see it go up daily/ weekly. I'm still not sure if I'm actually going to graduate or not, I'm waiting for the letter telling me I was expelled from the program. I even dream about it. Thesis: 5/80 pages

I have nothing constructive to say, but take care of yourself and power on!

*funny cheerleader dance to show support* Take care of yourself! Maybe jumping on the meal prep band wagon would be an option? That would mean less cooking during the week? [edit] Also, thank you for taking the time to look after us newbies despite having so much on your plate right now. I really appreciate that.

Will do! Thank you, I was thinking, with my thesis stressing me out as much as it is, it might be best to just focus on nutrition and not exercise as well. For someone like me, who is both new at healthy eating and exercise both might be simply too much at once. What stresses me out most isn't even the thesis itself, but rather my procrastination. That should light a fire under my butt and make me work on it, but it actually does the opposite. I'm weird. Yeah, prepping for the whole week might be the best, I'll try that for next week. Even though, I thought I was aiming low for my challenge, I might have to amend that and aim even lower. So maybe focusing on just working on my thesis daily, no matter how much or how little and eating well might be all I am capable at the moment..

Woah, that's sounds tough. I don't really have anything valuable to offer, so just imagine me cheering you o! You can do it!

The grass is always greener.. right? Oh, thank you, I didn't think about just walking, that might be a great idea, running is definitely not something my knees would enjoy at the moment.

But you'd probably have to open the dishwasher! And bend down to put the dishes in! You might even realize, upon opening, that the dishwasher is full of clean dishes and then somebody might expect you to take them out! Think of all that energy that's required to do all those things!