taymonsta

Day 7 FUELING UP Breakfast: Greek yogurt Lunch: Burger Snack: Dinner: BUILDING MOMENTUM BBWW GETTING SHIT DONE Put time in the studio

Day 6 FUELING UP Breakfast: Greek yogurt, cheerios Lunch: Spinach & artichoke dip, chips Snack: Coffee & creamer, apple with caramel dip Dinner: Half cheeseburger (applebees) BUILDING MOMENTUM Cleaning, walking dog GETTING SHIT DONE Put time in the studio

Day 5 FUELING UP Breakfast: Oatmeal, apple, peanut butter Lunch: Chicken, couscous, green beans Snack: Coffee & creamer Dinner: Greek yogurt, cheerios, orange BUILDING MOMENTUM BBWW GETTING SHIT DONE Put time in the studio

Thanks Coco I really want to look into mindful eating, as I see a lot of people talking about it. I think it could work for me rather than cutting things out.

Thanks Scottie <3 and thank you for reminding me of my own words! Why is it always so much easier to be kind and supportive to others and not to yourself? I need to be a little more gentle with myself. And the "scarce resource" thing makes sense. Like my brain and body are trying to stock up before I deprive them of things again. I've pretty much spent this morning stress cleaning, so although its not relaxing it does calm the nerves and make me feel productive! Thanks for the support, you're awesome and I'll look forward to catching up on your feed later today ! xo

It's nice to know there are others who aren't eating paleo/ swear by it. I've been trying to reduce my carb intake, mostly just in terms of snacking and have been successful. Thanks for reaching out and helping me feel less alone!

Thank you so much <3 Good enough for now. Thank you for reminding me of this. Yes, I have made small little changes and they have been leading me in a great direction. Little changes are enough for now. Progress is progress. I needed to hear all of that! <3

Day 4 FUELING UP Breakfast: Oatmeal, apple, peanut butter Lunch: Ham, mayo on ciabatta Snack: Coffee & creamer, cocoa rice krispies Dinner: Two cheeseburgers, salad BUILDING MOMENTUM The daily grind GETTING SHIT DONE Put time in the studio Okay, so this day was weird for me. I started having binge cravings and it made me pretty anxious. Sandwiches are scary to me? Like bread is "bad" or something? BREAD IS NOT BAD. I need to stop reading so many paleo blogs. The thing is, I don't think there is anything wrong with Paleo or whatever, but I don't think its the only way to lose weight. I don't want to give up my breads/ pastas/ cereals/ oats. And I think the past few days I've been telling myself that I have to, need to, should, etc. So it has been making me panicked and guilty/ shame every time I eat them. I also then feel like I need to sneak them as if they are bad. So I feel guilty and like a failure when I eat breads/ pastas. This is really not a good mindset for me to be having. I have also noticed my eating disorder thoughts have been getting a bit more intense... Especially with all the stress around thesis... F***kkkkkk. Deep breaths.

Day 3 FUELING UP Breakfast: Oatmeal, apple, peanut butter Lunch: Almonds, banana Snack: Coffee & creamer Dinner: Chicken meatballs, quinoa, kale BUILDING MOMENTUM I took my pup on a walk GETTING SHIT DONE So many meetings today! I talked with both of my Thesis advisors as well as another trusted professor. I also went to therapy! Huge day!

Day 2 FUELING UP Breakfast: Greek yogurt, cheerios, banana Lunch: Chicken, green beans, orange Snack: Coffee & creamer Dinner: Penne noodles, cheese and tomatoes BUILDING MOMENTUM Just moved about on my daily grind, nothing special today, but I just felt tired. GETTING SHIT DONE Showed some of my progress work to people, and got some great feedback

Beginner Body Weight Workout

THIS. Yes yes yes yes yes!!! Exactly how I feel too. "Forbidden" / restrictive diets (like Paleo etc.) will never work for me. They always just lead to guilt/shame and then binges/ disordered behaviors. I think its super cool to see lots of people embracing something similar to this for their goals this challenge! Y'all are awesome and make me feel less alone. <3 I'm super excited to follow along your challenge! And a five minute plank?! Daammnnnn Killin' it! Wishing you lots of luck!!

I love your goals! And I think its awesome you realize how great you have been doing and can recognize and appreciate that!! You are doing such a wonderful job! Keep up the good work! I'm really looking forward to seeing your sketches !

Oh man, I feel this so much.. I have really neglected a lot of people by way of my own isolation/ depression. Trying to reconnect and make amends to those that got hurt/left in the wayside of my tidal wave has been rough, and definitely a mixed bag. It's also hard to tell who should remain by the wayside (toxic ppl). Wishing you lots of luck with this. When it goes well it feels great, that's for sure. Really looking forward to seeing how it goes for you! Also, I've been wanting to sign up for a race/ event thing to look forward to. I think I just might! thanks for inspiring me!

Yes, yes, and YES! Soo important to recognize!!! Ugh I wish I could copy and paste what you said above about food rules into my brain/ on my skin. Perfectly sums up what I am trying to do too. Such a great reminder/ goal. And I adore your photography goal - being creative is so important and necessary. Gotta keep that mind spongey and playful! You have awesome goals and I'm super excited to keep up with your challenge! Go you!!

I LOVE your goals!! <3 Especially the "Be strong like a cat" and "Be clean like a cat" ! And huge embarrassing confession: For the longest time I thought inclined push ups were done with your feet on the stair/ counter and hands on the floor (Like a wheelbarrow) ! And so when I saw all these threads talking about doing incline push ups using a table/ stairs I tried it and I was like "WHY IS THIS SO HARD FOR MEEEE" *face plants*... And when I described my annoyance to someone they were like "Oh... you know your feet go on the floor right?" lol Anyway, I wish you lots of luck!!

FUELING UP Breakfast: Oatmeal, peanut butter, apple Lunch: Chicken with ranch on a roll Snack: KIND bar, orange juice Dinner: Pork Tacos BUILDING MOMENTUM I did two rounds of the BBWW this morning ! I also walked a bunch around town. GETTING SHIT DONE Nothing too much today, but I did get started on two videos this weekend! I'm feeling pretty ready for this challenge! I've definitely developed a groove, and I'm using this challenge to keep with it. Thanks everyone for your support <3 @Mr.Six @RevQu @scottie @Skomenk <3 and I'm looking forward to keeping up with your challenges too!

FUELING UP 3 meals a day Limiting takeout/ restaurants to 1-2x week BUILDING MOMENTUM Being active 5x a week Taking ONE class at the gym during this challenge GETTING SHIT DONE Write my Thesis paper Make my performance work

Day 28 BREAKFAST: cheerios, milk, greek yogurt ACTIVITY: walking LUNCH: Ham on white with mayo (subway 6"), bag of chips SNACK: DINNER: arugula gorgonzola and apple salad, 2 slices of garlic bread, a few bites of lasagna Man I have really missed working out the last two days. My knee has been feeling MUCH better though, so I think it is for the best. Hoping to put in a solid workout tomorrow! It's important to me to acknowledge all the progress I have made these last four weeks. It has been Major and sustainable. I am so tired right now though, I think I'm getting my period in the next few days or something. Hormones feel kind of off, and i'm just exhausted and a little moody... I was hoping to write a super long and motivational inspiring thing for my last post but tbh, I'm tired as hell. I know what I've done and didn't do, and I think tomorrow I'll be able t process everything a little more. Anyways, just wanted to make sure I at least posted something

Sooo beautiful!!! <3

I'm finally caught back up with your thread!! Yay!! SO first off, I want to like quote everything you have written in the past week because I can relate to all of it so much. Yes, I feel this. I was around 9 when my eating disorder developed and I started compulsively tracking everything I ate in a notebook, until I got older and found the internet and all the joyless calorie counters. Food is scary and it's especially scary when we have been conditioned to think of it that way. It has taken me 10+ years to finally wrap my head around the idea that foods are not "good" or "bad". Over TEN Years!!! One of my favorite mantras is "There are no forbidden foods - forever". I think the more I told myself I couldn't have something, the more I wanted it. And the longer i deprived myself of something, the greater the failure I felt and therefore the more I ate. What has been working for me so far this challenge is letting myself have the things my mind instantly says " no" to or labels as "bad". It rewires my brain and each time i survive eating a cookie or piece of cake, I enjoy it. I notice next time I see something I don't have craving for, or I'm too full to eat, I can easily pass it up because I know if I really want it and have a hunger for it tomorrow, I can always eat it. It makes things feel less finite. And as a person who is at her highest weight ever. I was horrified that I got to this point. And even though I have lost 5lbs (woop woop) , and I have done it slowly and healthily, panic still sets in just as you described. The "what if I get worse again" !! voice. Changing the way we think about food and our bodies is one of the hardest things in the world. Because the emotional struggles around food manifest themselves physically on our bodies. Which can increase feelings of shame because it makes the struggle/ problem visible. I just want to tell you that you are not alone <3 You are lovely, and sharing all of your feelings is so powerful. This is such an important revelation to make - realizing you are being cruel to yourself and that you do not deserve this cruelty. And I would even challenge you further by removing the labels "bad" and "good" when talking about food and your choices around them. You are never bad for eating. Eating should not be something that makes us either "good" or "bad" people. You are an incredible, intuitive, caring, and inspiring person, and that doesn't change depending on what food goes into your body. The choices you make about food don't change your capacity for love, or determine the amount of love you deserve. you deserve all the love! Especially your own! I'm just really super proud of you, and I think you are amazing. I believe in you, and your ability to conquer all the challenges you are facing. xx

Damn that's awesome!! You are very talented my friend! And I love that song! Congrats on keeping up with the goals you set for yourself! It's been super cool watching your journey this challenge

That's awesome!!! Keep it up, you've got this!

Hey, kudos for going regardless!