IcePrincess

Holy moly! My life got turned upside-down and I have just now unburied my laptop and got it turned on. After a series of random events, my mom is moving in with me. I've essentially be rearranging my whole house to get her moved in and getting her stuff here. Needless to say, I haven't been thinking about the challenge as much as I wanted to. I'm going to try and finish strong though, and the goals I didn't manage to accomplish, I'll switch over to the next challenge! Whew! I'm glad it's Friday too, this week has been exhausting! I need to sleep in!

Ahoy there. First of all thank you all for the support!

 So this week started out pretty rough. I thought my depression was going to win, well it was totally winning. I had not energy and was starting to feel mentally foggy. Then this morning I started feeling much better, my mental fog cleared. I don't feel depressed now, I don't feel 100%, but I now feel like I can get there. 

I have have been doing better with fruit/vegetable consumption. I have journalled once this week, which I plan on doing tonight again. I haven't done great on walking, but now that my fog has lifted that should be easier. 

I do need to call my doctor and increase my med dosage, I started taking a double dose (which I used to take) and I think that's helped me a lot. 

On 9/25/2016 at 7:38 AM, Koaladle said:

 

Your goals are ambitious! Good for you! What do you have planned for a reward to help you stay motivated?

I haven't thought of a reward. I'll have to think about it. 

11 hours ago, Rinna said:

I hesitated asking for help for a long time.  I've always felt there was a stigma attached to depression/medication. But, once I did, I felt better.  The meds help.  They aren't magic....but they help.  The dark place is scary, I've lived there.  We are here for you, don't foget you are not alone.  Don't let what others may think stop you from getting help if thats what you want to do. They can just shut up.

I have been on medication for years, actually. I think I just need my dose or medication adjusted. Yesterday I was seriously considering admitting myself to the Behavior Health Ward at the hopsital. I'd been feeling suicidal for days and didn't see a way out of it. Then today I woke up and my head was way less foggy. I don't feel as dark today. I don't know why sometimes the darkness leaves, but I'm glad to be at the edge of the woods. 

I also got some advice on how to work on my story and I think it'll really help! My friend suggested using note cards so that I can rearrange and the process isn't as intimidating. 

I hope everyone's week one is going well!

Hello there! I'm restarting my fitness journey. This is probably going to be the most difficult challenge I've ever done. I'm struggling with depression and I'm hoping that this lead back into fitness can help me to beat the depression back. I'm glad that I have this community to support me through this. 

Goals:

Either walk Zoey or do some sort of exercise 4 times a week.

----->Go to the work gym once a week so I can get used to it again before winter hits and I can't walk outside anymore.

Eat a fruit or vegetable with each meal/snack.

Journal 3 times a week.

Ask for and get help with my illness.

On 9/20/2016 at 9:40 AM, PhysicsObeysMe said:

On 9/19/2016 at 8:40 PM, IcePrincess said:

I'm going to work on journaling to try and figure out my headspace. I also want to work on writing a story. I want the story to be a metaphor about the struggles with depression. 

That sounds like a really interesting concept for a story! Do you have any outline, or just the theme so far? 

I just have the theme so far. I haven't written a full length story in many years so it'll be an undertaking. 

On 9/21/2016 at 11:41 AM, MiaulinTheCat said:

 

I love your cat's name! It's adorable <3 Good luck with your story, too! I'm developing something along that line as well. If you'd ever like to brainstorm together, my inbox is open.
 

Thanks! I will take you up on the brainstorming! I only have the barest bones of an idea so far! 

On a different note, this is a terrible week! I've been crying a lot. I'm starting to be afraid that I'll never pull out of this funk. I don't know what to do anymore, I just want to give up. I know I shouldn't give up, but I am so tired of fighting. I'm also afraid of asking for help. I don't want to cause people I love to worry about me, and I don't want to get put in the behavior health unit. I work at the hospital and I would be terribly embarrassed if I had to end up there. I'm not sure that that is a possibility, but I'm a worst case scenario type of person. I'm just in such a dark place. 

Thank the maker for this group! I've been struggling even more than normal with my depression than normal. I've been having more and more trouble just living my everyday life. I feel like I'm drowning. I'm determined to get through this 4 week challenge, and I'm so glad for this group now! 

Ok! About me! I'm Issa, I'm 32 and live in Montana. I work as an account assistant for the food services department at the hospital in town. I'm single, but I have a dog that is my everything named Zoey and an asshole cat named Shabadoo. I've been off the healthy/fitness bandwagon for a while and am working on fixing that now. 

I am getting back into exercise slowly. I walk my dog, I'll have to figure something else out when it gets too cold for that. I have a gym at work I can use, so I plan on starting to go there once a week so I can get used to that again. I'm also going to start doing some bodyweight workouts, so that I can get some strength back and start doing free weights again. 

I'm going to work on journaling to try and figure out my headspace. I also want to work on writing a story. I want the story to be a metaphor about the struggles with depression. 

Well I guess that's all for now! 

I'm walking about 2.5 miles right now, so the extra half mile won't be that difficult to add in. 

I have been here before, but I dropped off for a while. I'm back again, because I am at the end of my rope. I've suffered from depression for as long as I can remember. I've had ups and downs. I am currently suffering from one of the worst downs I've ever known. If I don't make some changes now, I believe I will reach a point of no return. I'll be unable to get back to a place where I feel happy. If that happens I'll be done.

I feel alone most of the time. That is part of my problem and why I've come back to NF. I need to be part of a community that can understand what I'm going through and support me so I can get through the mud.

Physically I'm not at my heaviest but I'm close. I'm at 318lbs. I have a loose outline of a plan currently. I'm going to use the community to help flesh it out. I'm going to be walking my dog, Zoey, regularly. In the next week I plan to be up to 3 miles at a time. I know I want to start lifting weights, but I'm not mentally at a place where I can go into the gym yet. I'm going to start doing some of the body weight exercises after I can get past the 3 mile walk. 

As for eating....I've started with limiting my sugar intake. I use food for comfort so it'll take a while before I can really get a handle on my eating habits. 

I guess that's all I have for now...

Week one has gone very well for me! I went to the gym 3 days this week, and did 2 days of yard work. I did 30, 60 and 40 minutes at the gym respectively. I had some watermelon and grapes but no new veggies, just what I normally eat. As for the job search I have a new lead, it would involve moving to Spokane if I get it, but it might be my best shot. 

Next week I'm going to start on the treadmill and work my way up to running again. 

See you then!

Thanks! I actually already have that app on my phone! I think I'm going to start by biking though, cause my knees don't feel very good lately. 

 Ice looked ahead of her with trepidation, she had been off the battle field for so long she forgot how challenging it could be. Having finished her training at the college (at least for now) she knew it was time to get her body back into fighting shape. She wasn't sure when it happened, but it was very clear now that she was in no condition to help in the battle without first training her body to match her mind. She set off in the night to begin she wouldn't return to camp until she was satisfied that she could help win the war. 

Hello!! So I've been out of touch for awhile, I haven't attempted a challenge since last year some time, but now that I'm done with college I'm ready to get back into shape and kick myself into gear. Oh and kick butt at this challenge! 

Goals:

Health:

1. Work out 4 days a week for (a minimum of) 30 minutes, increasing that time by 5 minutes each week to end at 60 minutes.

2. Be able to run 1 mile without stopping. I can't run at all right now so this one will be the hardest I think. 

3. Increase amount of fruits and vegetables eaten each day by adding one new item a week.

Life:

1. Find a job!!!!! I just graduated and am still trying to find a job, I'm only working part-time right now and that has got to stop!

So there we have it. I'll be updating as much as I can. Since I only work part time I suppose I should have time to do that  . 

I'm looking forward to this challenge! Good luck to everyone!

Very interesting. They did do a study once where they did a similar thing with a group of rats from birth. They had two groups, one group was fed completely a supplement like this and that whole group died, but the other group was supplemented with milk and lived. So its possible. 

I've battled depression for many years. At my worse I was laying on the floor sobbing next to my suicide note. I spent a lot of time being anti-medication, not really for others but for myself. I got so very low that I had to get myself help and be serious about it. I got on a meds and had them adjusted until I could function. I had to get them adjusted a few times before we got it in the right place. On top of that I started to see a therapist in order to get out of my self-loathing. I am so unbelievably happy to be able to function from day to day and not want to go throw myself in the missouri river. If I believed in a deity, I would thank them. I still get sad and have days where I want to lounge in bed, but its normal now, not heartbreaking. 

I don't know if that helps you, but I believe that you can beat your depression. You just have to take it a day at a time, and don't let moments of severe depression win. Reach out for help. You can even ask me for anything, and if I can help then I will. 

 Perhaps your scale needs to be zeroed or shot.

If I can't figure out how to zero out my scale it will be shot. 

Scale also hasn't moved or anything like that. 

I weigh in the same time of day (right after I get out of bed) Its not my TOM. My clothes fit the same. I don't eat a lot of salty foods, and even when I do it doesn't effect me with water retention. 

I have only been eating around 2k calories a day. 

I'm actually a little worried about it. 

Ok so over the last 2 weeks I've gained 15 pounds! I've been working out regularly, counting my calories and trying to keep to my daily allotment. I am very frustrated. I'm hoping that because of that frustration I'm not seeing something right in front of me. I haven't taken any measurements because my measuring tape is missing at the moment. I've been doing a combo of weight training and cardio. Please help!

That is a good idea. I'm not a morning person either so I might just borrow(steal) your idea

Conan, because red sonja is my hero!

This is a great post!!! I have very similar issues. I might just have to try this myself. Thanks!

I don't live in Vegas, but will be in vegas in May to celebrate graduating! I'd be down to meet up with people while I'm there!!

Oh yeah......I'm doing a challenge.

So I have been keeping on track with no soda, working on losing weight I'm down 7 lbs, which means I won't meet my goal, but thats ok.

I've been having a really hard time getting to the gym because I feel like I'm working 2 part-time jobs and in school full time. Its very strange and crazy busy.

I will be going to the gym after class though, and I went last night!

My room has definitely been an improvement, still not completely organized but so much better. I'm just gonna try and finish this challenge strong!

I'm watching Deadliest Warrior, Genghis Khan Vs Hannibal

They keep pronouncing Genghis Chenghis.......I'm always heard it with a hard g. That is just annoying me

Also, I heard a woman on the radio last night that didn't know Cleopatra killed herself and was going to have to google how....I was surprised by that as well.

Ok that is all, for now

I did enjoy my treat! And I'm not beating myself up, I haven't let that be an excuse to just give up and have more! I'm feeling so very in control of my life, finally!!!

So I went and had dinner with my aunt last night and had a captain and coke.......I just ordered it....It the first soda I've had since this challenge started! What the heck!

In other news I can't walk because I worked out like a beast this morning.

Beer club? Yes Please!!!!

And I know how it feels to be nauseous I get really ill if I don't eat soon enough. I'm sure it will clear up soon!