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So far this week - 14xp, total of 135xp altogether I've been super depressed the past few days and haven't been doing the things I really want to do. I'm working on getting past this "hump." In the meantime, I decided I'm not really in the right headspace to take up doing CTL again right now - I was physically and emotionally dreading my shifts and worried that it would worsen my depression at the moment. So I decided to drop that for now and use the time to focus more on coding. This weekend (Thurs-Sun), I really want to work on: 4xp - journal _ _ _ _ 5xp - CS50x week 1 problem set 3xp - attend church, class, and circle, talk to 1 new person 2xp - therapy, talk about emotional eating and depression 2xp - CS50x week 1 lecture and section videos 2xp - Elevate mission statement 1xp - Elevate lives for module 16 1xp - pick up mail 1xp - laundry

Still pretty shaky with everything - the depression has been hitting hard this week. I'm not sure if it's the change in schedule with the school year ending (I'm working fewer hours in the summer) or what. It doesn't "feel" like Ramadan but I might go to the mosque tomorrow and Saturday and see if that helps. Now that I have time to actually do things I want to do (study, work on my game, etc.) my mood is too craptastic, so maybe I'm just self-sabotaging. Meh. I'm determined not to give up, though. Things will get better.

Ahh, I'm mainly studying JS and want to get into Angular, React, and Node over time. I haven't studied much Ruby but I've heard The Odin Project is a great program to learn Ruby and Rails.

Thanks! I am using FCC mainly (http://freecodecamp.com), supplemented with books and other courses (right now, Shay Howe's HTML and CSS course and Flexbox Zombies because I'm super shaky with CSS, + CS50x on edX).

Thank you all for the support! Off to a rocky start - I've been pretty depressed this weekend and struggling to really get going with some things. Maybe it's my cycle - I'm exempt from praying at the moment because of my period (sorry if that's TMI) and I tend to get down emotionally around this time of the month. Either way, I got some studying done FOR coding but no practice today, and didn't work out, and I decided to drink a coke for the first time in a long time - it totally tasted like crap, so hey, realizations are good I guess. I'm starting to notice all the ways I abuse my body with food. I DID track on MFP, so there's something. Tomorrow will be a super long day so I'm kind of nervous about it but I'm hoping I can make tai chi in the evening (I have a job interview beforehand so I won't get much of a breather after work). We'll see how it goes.

Welcome! I'm really glad you're here. Those are some seriously amazing goals.

Thanks for the encouragement, Axiel - it really made my weekend! This weekend ended up going in all different directions, but I did get some things done. More importantly, I got some relaxation and unscheduled fun (read: a Sons of Anarchy marathon and a trip to the library) in, which was sorely needed after last week. Also got a head start on some of the HTML & CSS studying I wanted to do this week. XP earned: 11 Total XP this level: 121 This week starts my first challenge! So I'm tracking challenge stuff separately in my challenge thread (it's in my signature) and will add XP at the end of the challenge, but here is what I am working on: going to Tai Chi once this week, praying fajr every day, tracking food on MFP, avoiding liquid calories, and doing deliberate coding practice every day. Other stuff I want to work on this week: 5xp - 100xp on Duolingo _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ 5xp - CS50x week 1 lectures + problem set 2xp - finish Shay Howe HTML & CSS basics course 2xp - finish FCC responsive web design challenges 2xp - Learning How to Learn course week 3 2xp - TESOL course week 2 2xp - Elevate module 16 2xp - Elevate mission statement assignment 2xp - 5 hours volunteering for my game 1xp - finish at least one book I'm reading (more books = more xp) 1xp - laundry

So this week was the week from hell at work, and I didn't expect to get everything done. I did less well than I wanted on the habits (good with Duolingo and not drinking calories, not so good with walking and tracking food) but better on other stuff (except laundry!). I still have to finish Deep Work and my IC performance piece today for my game, but I'm confident I'll get those done by the end of the day. I am super proud of myself for finishing the editing project and getting it sent off yesterday early afternoon, though. Xp this week (assuming I finish the performance piece and the book): 40 Total earned this level so far: 110 xp Going to go ahead and post tasks for this weekend here...I may have to come back and edit them. I'm going to start the challenge on Monday because I tend to order my weeks that way and I'm tracking challenge stuff over in that thread. (Plus it's a holiday and I'm off so yay for having more time!) 2xp - No drinking calories X _ 2xp - Tracking on MFP _ _ 2xp - Journal _ X 2xp - 50xp on Duolingo X X _ _ _ 2xp - Elevate module 15 2xp - LHTL week 3 2xp - TESOL class week 2 2xp - Class, church, have an in-depth convo with at least one new person 2xp - 5 hours volunteering for game 1xp - laundry 1xp - Finish Our Chosen Faith 1xp - Finish leadership book

Thinking of you and hoping things are calming down a bit! Sounds really intense. I have been struggling with keeping up with good habits myself lately, life stress is the worst. So excited to hear what you're planning for your challenge, though!

Welcome! I am really glad you are here.

Welcome to NF! I can relate to the moolah quest - I'm on my own quest to be able to afford martial arts classes, hehehe. I am so glad you are here and wish you the best of luck!

Welcome! It sounds like you are making LOTS of progress, awesome job! I am so glad you are here

Welcome, Isa! I'm so glad you are here

Welcome! It sounds like you're settling in really well. I can relate a lot to your story and goals! I'm so glad you are here and I hope it helps you

Sounds like you're doing an awesome job already! Welcome, I'm glad you are here