It's day three and I'm still doing daily updates?
Streak obsession is strong.
Goal 1: ☻☻☻∟∟∟∟
complete the first half of GMB's Elements program
Goal 2: ☻☻☻∟∟∟∟ row 10 minutes a day
Goal 3: ☻☻☻∟∟∟∟
eat keto M-F with primal carbs on weekends
Goal 4: ☻☻∟∟∟∟∟
complete half of my MBSR course GMB
Frogger. That is all.
Okay, I'm actually not as TERRIBLE at it as I let on, but the whole "heels aren't flat" thing really bums me. I've been trying for years to fix my squat. It's come so far! But it still sucks. And so does my frogger. I hit another wheel pose today though! A nervous, doubtful, hesitant, tired and shaky one, BUT I HIT IT. It might seem silly to be so happy about this, but I couldn't even backbend like this as a kid. It feels good. Doubly good because after a spine injury that left me in a long-term care facility while I learned how to shit in a toilet and walk unassisted again, I never thought I'd do it. I did it.
I'm also adding in a daily 15 push ups, because reasons. That is going surprisingly well.
I felt really tired today. Possibly because day 3 of keto after a two week carb bender (that kicked off with an entire weekend of booze-as-sustenance). But I also did it.
The chorizo deviled eggs I whipped up for lunch were so. good. And I have the other half for lunch tomorrow. Scooooooore. I really wanted to cheat today. It's been an emotional day. Maybe one of my most emotional since I quit smoking. And no cigs and no carbs to bandaid me through it meant I had to feel the ENTIRE DAY OF FEELINGS. Which I did, until I didn't. On to mindfulness...
I got seriously overwhelmed and overdid and tired and parenting-exhausted at supper and blew up at my kids. They were being proper jerks (as kids do, it's fine). I really should have completely removed myself from what was going on, but I felt like I couldn't I tried expressing an SOS to the other grown up but my morse code must be pretty shitty because he did not pick up on it. He also didn't pick up on it when I flat out said "Hello my Limit Break is full, it's about to be unleashed, can you stop what's happening or something."
It wasn't stopped and I really ripped into my oldest two and I felt super shitty and DOUBLE EMBARRASSED because it's getting warm and we (and everyone else) has the windows open. Oh. Well.
Oh yeah. I did not do my coursework today. But I am a little ahead and my next in person class isn't until Friday. It's fine.
My average daily steps were around 13k last time I wore my fitbit. I've averaging 7k now. It feels. Like I need to focus on this next challenge because I already have a lot on my plate. K.
This week I've started going out of the house "as myself." I didn't realise that was like, a big deal for some people. And an incredibly terrifying ordeal for some. I am really lucky that I either don't fucking care enough about the looks people give or things they whisper, or else feel safe enough in my immediate surroundings to do it, or both.
I sent my brother a pic of me and he was actually really jealous that I am several inches shorter than him, around the same weight, and we look about the same size / wear the same pant size. "You look stronger than me and probably have more muscle mass than I do." Hopefully someday, I can grow a better beard than he does too (impossible, his beard is glorious).
I took some pictures of some areas I'd like to keep an eye on (legs, calves, back). Like, my belly has really taken the hit in my most recent weight gain, but I look pretty dang great imo. I really want to get my waist measurement down though, because T can cause weight gain, and it will likely all go to the belly (male fat distribution pattern).