klaybae

Great goals  I’ve been in and out of the forums for over six (!) years now, but it’s been a long minute since I committed to a challenge! Welcome to DruidLand

I really need to get back into the ol ACV habit. Spreadsheets are life.

Just now, Terah said:

Yeah, sorry  

And you are STEPPING ON PANCAKES?! How dare you! 

Okay but will your current babienewbies graduate to guru at some point so there can be more masters

I'm actually sad this seems to be ALL FULLT UP

I can't figure out how to follow posts anymore, so I guess I'll throw a "wee us" up here!

Klaybae's New Groove: The Outtening

I AM RETURNED.

Goal the First: Follow the first half of GMB's Elements according to the scheduled do / rest days.
Goal the Second: Row 10 minutes a day. Let's just get that habit rolling again.
Goal the Third: Get back to keto eating M-F with primal carbs on weekends.

Goal the Fourth: Complete the first half of my MBSR course. 

Hello, why am I sticking to these goals? THE BIG OL HWHY.

Hi there, it's ya boi Klaybae fka Klaymates here.

About a month ago, I reached out to my GP about starting the process for FtM (female to male) transitioning. Among other things, testosterone therapy can cause weight gain and impact mental wellness, and I just want this transition to help me be the h e a l t h i e s t me possible. And right now, I don't feel like my healthiest self. Would you believe how completely and utterly shattered/off balance/stressed/exhausted I am processing all these EMOTIONS and shrugging off the uninformed/hateful/not-my-business opinions of others throughout this process? My GP included? It's hard stuff y'all. Aside from all the distress and other nasty feels I've carried around in my little gender dysphoria feelings bag, I've also constantly felt like a fraud or impostor or liar or fake for living without full authenticity. But hopefully, I can be approved for gender affirming treatments. WHOOOWEEE NOW THAT WE'VE GOTTEN THAT OUT OF THE WAY.

Even so. This is the most fulfilling and most terrifying thing I've ever done in my life! My whole, big, great, grand, wacky, wonderful life! 

On the first day of this challenge I'll see my GP again, hopefully for a referral to an appropriate psychiatrist who specialises in gender therapies and can give me a nice little letter to take to an endocrinologist so that I can begin T. And get my titties lopped off. She asked for some weeks to try to figure out how to deal with all of this, after saying some really stupid, unprofessional, and hurtful things. I am secretly terrified she is going to try to block this process here, by refusing to refer me onwards just because she doesn't believe it's a real thing that's impacted my entire life. I guess I'll figure out how to cross that chasm if it happens.

But anyway, in the meantime I've quit smoking, I'm shedding weight, I'm improving my fitness, I'm improving my mindfulness, I'm reconnecting to the things I love about myself, I'm hoping, and I'm going to breathe deeply and maybe have a nice cuppa. Also this will probably accidentally turn into a journal space about transitioning, so if you really don't want to read about that stuff...well there's your heads up. Thanks!

Looks like a pretty good week so far. I tried a Yoga Every Damn Day challenge last year and did a lot of "corpse pose is a kind of yoga" days. I like the idea to just get on the mat every day.

Definitely! And even though yoga makes me feel wonderful, some days it is too easy for me to over exert myself and bring on a whole slew of other yucky symptoms. And with two little turkies under my feet all day, even just ten minutes in corpse pose does great things for my stress and allows me to reconnect with myself.

Day the 1..2..3..4....FIF

Whole30: check! ☺ 

• I ate a lot yesterday. "A lot" is relative, I know. A lot for me. Three meals! 

Yoga: check! ☺

• Finally got in a decent mat-love session last night. Several repeats of sun salutation a, some warrior business, some twists, and a bit of time in a supported headstand.

Stairs: no progress â—‹

• I really need to get on this shit, but whole30 has me whomped right now. <--still true

Gratitude: FAILED.

• Had a rough day yesterday. Acknowledged a few gratitude moments when talking with my favorite people, but never wrote it down.

Thanks for the vids! I will bring on the pain later today!

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Weeeeooooooooo!!!!

DROODOOD. WHERE ARE YOU.

DURID IS 4 FITE.

WHERE IZ FITE?

I don't know dude, have you tried foam rollers? I used to have really tight hip flexors; after any sort of training involving my legs I'd come down with back pain. Foam rolling helped immensely with the tightness. It might be something that a serious athlete like yourself would be interested in.

 

And wait.

What?

Blade and Soul is.. out? I got super hyped over it years ago but they took ages in releasing for EU.

...

OMG THEY OFFICIALLY LAUNCHED THE SERVERS ON THE 19TH OF JANUARY

I don't think I'll be leaving my room for the next few days weeks months.

I foam rolled and lacrosse balled the shit out of them, which helped some but they were still very cranky. Feels pretty fine today.

Can you guys recommend some specifics? Because my shit is FUBAR. I have a roller and the balls, I just don't know what to do for my hip flexors.

Day the Fourth

Whole30: check! ☺ 

• I was totally barfing in the morning, and couldn't keep water down for most of the day. I felt better by supper though, and demolished the tastiest freaking salad ever. Omg homemade caesar dressing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 
  

Yoga: check! ☺

• Only squeezed in 15 minutes. More gentle stuff. Worked on some releases for my shoulder blades and twists in the spine.
  

Stairs: no progress â—‹

• I really need to get on this shit, but whole30 has me whomped right now.
  

Gratitude: check! ☺ 

• ​Got my gratitude in. It's short, but it's the action that counts, right!?!
  

I love Ori!

Days Two and Three

Whole30: check! ☺ 

• Both days a++ BUT
• I am hitting the wall. Today I cycled between exhausted, blah feeling, and eat all the things mode. 

Yoga: check! ☺

• yesterday I did some gentle hatha yoga for about 40 minutes
• today I literally promised myself 10 minutes of corpse pose, and that was all I could manage

Stairs: no progress â—‹ <-- blank.
Gratitude: check! ☺ 

• ​Wrote my yesterday's gratefulness down on a scrape of paper
• Typed up both days today. 

Eeeek how did it go!?

Gross. Stop it. Why.

 

Do you want me to read your challenge?

Bwuahahahaha

Day One Report

Whole30: check! ☺ (man I love how obnoxious this feels)

• Breakfast: a baked mess of sauerkraut, lardon, weinerli, and apple...topped with steamed carrots and fried eggs; side of macadamia nuts
• Supper: "fake away" kebap salad--shredded cabbage, tomatoes, cucumbers, scallions, parsley, and kebap seasoned ground beef smothered in a dilly, lemony mayonnaise sauce

Yoga: check! ☺

• some time in lotus and reverse prayer
• two rounds of Sun Salutation A
• worked on seated staff pose, some forward bends, and cow face pose on each side
• at least ten minutes of Shavasana

Stairs: no progress â—‹ <-- blank.
Gratitude: check! ☺ 
 

I love you guys so much!!!!!!! ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

I fruckin love you so much and I cannot believe we did this without even talking to each other about it!!

HAIL SISTER OF SWOLEHALLA

Bets that she lasts the week here before vanishing again?

SHOTS FIRED. THE FLAG IS THROWN. THE SWORD IS DRAWN. WHAT WILL HAPPEN NEXT!?

OH YAAAASSSSSSSSSSSSSS.

I don't even say "yass" but I just had to for this.

HIII I haven't been active on the forums in a million years, and consider this my placeholder while I work up my goals! intro!

☺☺ Diet and Fitness ☺☺

1. Promise myself at least ten minutes on the mat every day.
   • ​​Even if it's just 10 minutes of Shavasana.
2. Complete my Whole30 (currently on day three).
   • ​​Not much extra to say about this, except make sure I continue to eat enough fat every day so I don't smell like a bottle of ammonia.
3. Work up to climbing the fourteen flights of stairs in my building five times in a row.
   • ​​Currently able to do two rounds.

☺☺ EPIC LIFE OF EPICOCITY ☺☺

1. Start a gratitude journal, and complete four weeks of daily "be a grateful fuck."
   • ​​Journal found here.

My body feels like it's died a thousand deaths in the last three days. But woo stretching today. T_T

I want your meat and berries.

Whoa. #noporno