Harriet

Noice! It looks like the bundle has options for different scenarios. Can you customise for your own circumstances?

I was planning on complimenting the tattoo but the cake steals the show. That's a beautiful cake. Is it your birthday? Happy birthday!

I feel like a Granny Weatherwax quote is needed here. Your delicate praise of my bluntness makes me feel like I must be developing some haggardness (in the old sense: relating to witches and untamed hawks; wild, intractable). No quote comes to mind. Suffice it to say it had not occurred to me to be anyone else, and I am too tired to be someone else in any case. But I hope my dislike of television does not offend. Apparently Germany's climate is not dissimilar to Japan's, so Mr Harriet has allowed his interest in Japanese architecture and gardens to seep into the house and garden design a bit. Not so you'd think it exotic or a mimicry. Just very general themes. For example, they are making the rooms somewhat clean and minimal with a focus on natural materials (wood, stone, brass). And some of the plants are from Japan. The red leafed maples, for example: Yes, he cannot do that for every plant, but hopefully with the important ones, which to me is the ones with important colours. Thank you! You can come by any time! Nothing much is happening at the moment, though, as I am in another crash. Love and cuddles gratefully received ❤️

Oh no, everyone seems to have a sinus infection or cold at the moment. Are you doing okay? Oooh something about the soft red lighting is very inviting. Oops posted at the wrong moment. Will wait patiently for tattoo picture.

I love it! I also want to see you do more work on black paper, it's compelling!

It's nice that you're just trying stuff out at the gym and focusing on what interests you. And I'm sorry the grandma situation is so hard.

I wouldn't bother trying to burn calories with workouts. For someone with CFS, the ratio of fatigue to calories burned is highly unfavourable, especially for formal workouts. Walking is probably better for that. It's well worth it for health and strength and mood, though. Yay for haircuts that turn out well!

Oh good! The diagnosis, I mean, not the fact of the condition. Hopefully you can now make some adjustments.

The painted flowers are beautiful, as are the photographs of the roses. I'm off to find your latest snail.

I do read and listen to podcasts but it tends to be low effort, "safety" topics like health and diet. I don't know why those are my go-to topics. It's quite boring, really. I guess I just feel like new topics might involve some mental capacity. That is beautifully named. I have followed it on my app so I can listen when I feel up to it. I like pink, but I don't like a garden full of ALL the colours. I wanted to keep it more streamlined so we agreed to focus on reds, yellows, and whites. Do cherry trees actually give edible cherries? We also have some grapes on the fence from the previous owner. And I think a small apple tree? Must check. Do you mean mine, or generally? In my case I have found that repeatedly overspending energy causes a profound deterioration in mood. But being sedentary also causes depression in me and in people generally. I only recovered from my nearly 20 year long "depression" when I quit both work and study AND started walking daily. I only get depressive moods now occasionally--often around the end of crashes after being sick or overdoing it, but before I've gotten back to my routine. Thank you! Mr Harriet will buy grown trees. He is working with a landscape architect and will go to the nursery next week to choose some of the actual, individual trees. Hmmm. We should talk about the trees and colours before he goes. I cannot go--I cannot afford the energy cost of the train trips to another city and the walking around all day. This is disappointing, but it's what's happening with almost every aspect of the house: I am too tired to be very involved so Mr Harriet makes the decisions. I am consulted about as many things as possible, though, and I like how it's turning out.

Yes, Mad Hatter and I talked last time about using exercise to test whether the crash is over and I'm just moving into a phase of inertia and fatigue from inactivity. I have done short walks, and thusly established that I am fucked. Thanks, but no; I'm picky about tv, and don't like most of it. I'm playing mass effect again. 😅 Probably most people are not committed to most things, just to a few things they care about. I worry about not caring about anything at all, though, which is what happens when I'm fatigued. I don't care about anything, I don't do anything. It's below the minimum standard of a life that is worth living, in my opinion. So maybe you can understand why I want to hold on to the one thing I (sometimes) actually want to do, and feel anxious when my desire and interest shuts off. I don't actually remember all the details of our conversations about slug, but I do know it's a useful term that I like. Thanks for being here for such chats in any case 😊 Yes, magnolia is on the list of possible trees to put by the entrance, but Mr Harriet favours a pink blossomed cherry tree. I like the magnolia better, or maybe white cherry blossoms.

Still sick. Will be back later.

We have. We have talked about the difficulty of knowing when the fatigue is caused by infection and when it might be caused by depression from inertia from inaction from fatigue from infection. Opposite strategies are required--do less and do more. The uncertainty upsets me. The fact that I am having another crash SO SOON after the last one upsets me. But I am almost happy that I have some physical symptoms right now, because it means the drop in motivation is not just a sign of a lack of commitment to lifting. I am resting completely. I am not going to rename the slug, though. It's a good name. Unless you think "slug phase" is an insult to the industrious slug.

Oh, I see. Yeah I'd kill for a set of armour that looks just right. And new species. 😁 Thank you my poppets. I feel like I have taken all non-critical functions offline: tidying the house, washing my hair, going out, meditating, taking my supplements, commenting properly on NF. I will hopefully be back in a few days but for now I'm slug.

Hey Sal. Everyone has different priorities, but if it were me I would feel like the biggest emergency is the income, because it just sounds so stressful and awful never having enough. And it doesn't mean you have to stop being an artist. What sort of things can you imagine doing?

Ahhh, no friends no cry. Wait, what do you mean "only"? Was the wickedness dressing your wizard scandalously, or denying said scandalous outfit to your other characters? Anyway I'm not judging. My character wears a shapeless black hoodie and dances badly, which is a relief because I would hate having a sexy main character, but on the other hand I was pleased when my alien sniper buddy came to a casino infiltration quest with a fitted black and white party outfit. There's something about that Turian silhouette and gravelly voice that I'm starting to appreciate. Maybe humans *can* share the galaxy after all.

I'm glad the doc was supportive! It's such a blessing when you get a good one.

Still offline. Taking time off has made me a slug, just as I feared. Will my better self return? I can only hope. I will go back to the gym on Monday to make sure a needed rest doesn't become an extended slug phase.

Good luck with All The Things! Throw them all at the wall, and some shall stick!

Congratulations! Maybe you can just give it a chance? It could take a while to settle in and get everything working smoothly. If you still hate it after a month or two, you can always quit then.

Thank you ❤️ Yeah it's hard to be super ruthless. Besides, you told me there was catastrophic tragedy when you were, presumably, playing as a good guy. What blood bath will follow if you're chaotic evil?

Total rest today. Rest and video games, that is. Hopefully taking a few days off will prevent a full crash and also not cause me to degenerate into the laziest, worst version of myself.

She was also a specialist who took weeks to decide, while the naysayers were GPs who took five seconds. That was kind of what I thought. Antibodies maybe not the best sign that a food loves me back. That's good to know. Oooh I love the death potion. April, such a morbid month.

Did bujo, groceries, laundry, meditation and nothing else. Sick today--felt nauseous and couldn't take a full breath after climbing the stairs (lift being repaired) so I lay face down on the carpet and Orange took the opportunity to climb up onto my bum. Knowing how magnetic I am I had taken the precaution of dragging a blanket over me so I wasn't too damaged by the joyful kneading. Skipped my walk and just rested all day. Hopefully the blinking red light will go back to a blinking orange light.

Thank you! It is! Indeed 😊