Zeric

Lol, I just found the photo on Google images by typing in "inspirational quote meme" and it showed up. You're welcome to it. That's exactly what happens. I do love the approach of Nerd Fitness, I feel like I'll be blathering about how much I like it forever. It's like someone finally woke up and realized "eh, maybe fitness ain't just bout' making weight loss the most torturous process ever!* and then they thought about how to make it better and stuff....(that's it, that's definitely how it happened). I encourage you to stick with it and start with the weekly challenges you get in your email (you're getting those right?). After that I've started with the 10 level nutrition process thing. It feels like I'm doing something right for once and that feels nice.

Man I feel for you, damn. Thanks for being so honest about all this shit in your life. That's kind of been my year as well. I'm learning that a lot of people hang out with you just because you are beneficial to them in some way or to help them feel better about themselves while they wait for an opportunity to ditch you. Especially true if you're a real person that wants to be respected and doesn't want to be manipulated by them. You deserve legit friends man, don't contend with less. But the only way I finally broke free from negative relationships was by taking a BIG step back and viewing them from outside. Only then can you see what you couldn't see while you were hopelessly trying to please or impress another (or use them yourself, as its often both ways and becomes a cycle of abuse). I took this step and yeah it was pretty painful and I was lonely as heck for a while but man was it worth it. You learn to just be you and be fricking in love with yourself for no frickin reason. You can't find that while you're beating yourself up every day and letting other people encourage you to, all the while distracting yourself from what you really need to do for yourself and coping with other unhealthy means. I really really don't like admitting this but I struggle with porn addiction too. Because you were honest I decided to be, hopefully that means something. It's been a problem for years, and its really refreshing to hear somebody else say that they're tired of it. I can't tell how many times I've gone on a website and just thought "damn I don't even want to do this" or "why do I even need to do this?" and the answer is that you don't want to do it and you don't need to, but its become an addiction and a way to cope and you need to accept that about yourself. Obviously you know this, but for me it is the process of allowing myself to be flawed that ultimately ends up helping me be the least flawed...*desperately tries to think of a way to not use the word self-compassion*....so yeah. Nice metaphor. Every good metaphor deserves to be recognized. Yeah it definitely sounds like you do, so freaking allow yourself to have this man. Remember that your happiness, your confidence, and your future needs to be a priority. Don't make yourself last and don't hate yourself and beat yourself up. You've already achieved a heck load more than you think in your life and you are going to go even further. Then, get out there and make decisions for your benefit, because you do deserve to be a priority. It took a long time for me to get that, I want you to know it to. Thanks for a genuine, heart-to-heart read. The world needs more honest people who not only recognize what's holding them back but also eagerly want to break free and reach their fullest potential. I have the utmost faith in you Teros.

Thanks a lot, I like that advice. I always work harder and longer when I enjoy something. Motivating myself to absolute torture every other day just isn't that sustainable for me A concept I truly didn't even consider myself until recently. You mean I don't have to base my entire self-image on what I can scrape from intelligence and awkwardly delivered yet perfectly timed humour? I can actually one day have the energy to do cool stuff and look nice in clothes? There's this whole world beyond hating my body that I missed and it's actually really exciting to consider it. You mean I could buy a trenchcoat? I could WEAR it and it would look NICE? Maybe I could go up these stairs without sounding like Darth Vader? My body won't consistently feel like crap all day because of the food I'm shoving in it? Nice! When you think about it, the pay off is so worth it, but I kept giving up without even trying or believing that I could succeed. But naht no more.

*breathes deeply* It's cool it's not like my self-confidence is so low that I need the approval of everyone in order to avoid falling into a pit of existential despair. Yo, my goal is actually just to become the living embodiment of a goddess on earth and to conquer the hearts of all humanity. *Desperately thinks of a way to tone it down* Losing 50lbs would be nice! But in all seriousness, I have dreamed of being fit and healthy for years. I'm hoping to just do the best I can and see where it leads. Ideally though I would stop eating crap and locking myself in my room to watch Rick and Morty. Why weight's basically been holding me back for years (heh, could that be a pun?). I believe the main reason why it has never really changed is that, 1) I didn't believe it could and 2) There was never a good enough reason (in my mind) for it to. In terms of 1) It was more of a combination between my fear of failure and my already established feelings as a failure. I tend to be motivated to do what I'm good at (man did that backfire in physics!) but now that I've been in school for a bit I'm really learning to accept the concept of "not being as good at something as you want to be, but accepting it as a learning process" which has helped a lot. Since I felt that I had "failed" my physical appearance and health quest, I didn't believe there was a point in fixing it. Kind of messed up logic, which leads to point 2). I never thought there was a real reason to change myself physically because I wasn't really used to focusing on myself and doing things for me. When it finally clicked in that, "hey, this is something you want and you should put your energy into making it happen" it was like this really super easy to grasp concept that I had never really grasped had been...grasped....(the heck am I saying?). Both my parents growing up were (and still are) overweight. They both have gone on numerous diets over the years and haven't seen much progress. My Mother if anything has shown a real desire to change her weight and has made much more progress comparatively to my father. But in terms of healthy food I am just as in the dark. Cooking has done wonders to open my eyes to all the food out there which is actually real.

HAHAHAHAHAHAH........*whispers sadly to self* "me too".....I mean uh HELL YEA I'm like a genius it's so easy pfftt - what, "physics" I thought you said "breathing" because for me they're basically the same thing. You read my mind *looks for some kind of finger guns button* . You know I actually wanted to know something today, but it required speaking to two people that I didn't know and so I sat near them for a few minutes having an internal panic attack but eventually spoke to them and I think convinced them completely that I'm a normal human. I don't know why I chose this picture but it just seemed right for the kind of emotion I was trying to capture.

Nice to meet you both, Wobbegong and Super Starling, I appreciate the comments. But I mean, what the hell IS that? My Mom just asks me to walk the dogs with her about 500 million times a year (that's an average over years of data and I have a graph). She doesn't say no to babysitting other people's dogs either so sometimes there's like six of them and I help out of pity. I'm pretty excited about this set up as it seems really useful and I'm a complete sucker for any system that makes me feel like life is a leveling up adventure (because WHY NOT). I like it especially because it relieves the weird engulfing pressure that I needlessly place on myself by making the weight loss process feel more like a journey with a lot of little steps. I'll try not to gush over it too much until I've actually made more progress.

Woah talking about yourself feels so weird even when it's on the internet. Hi I'm Jess and I've been caught in-between the "I'm too unmotivated to change myself" and the "I'm so sick of having the physical capability of a toad" stage for pretty much my whole life. Though I imagine toads can hop for quite a while. I've never timed one though... Anyway, I was hoping to find some support for weight loss because I've never tried weight loss with a community before. I've had success with it in the past, but that was with a program I can't continually afford. The biggest challenge is always habits, and starting way too big. One of the reasons I haven't focused on weight loss recently is because my mind wraps around the idea and just explodes. I have to say that Nerd Fitness was kind of like a God-send. I was just randomly surfing the internet looking for healthy recipes when BLAM this article for healthiness catches my eye and its engaging and makes jokes and reference I understand (and find hilarious). It was actually extremely refreshing. I always avoided fitness communities in the past because I felt like I didn't belong to that crowd. I thought "they wear yoga pants and can bench press other people" and I never seemed to connect with them. They also kept trying to get me to eat gross oatmeal or be a vegetarian and I mean I don't know I love steak. The point is, I'm grateful for this community and I'm loving the reading material in the emails so far. Fun facts about me that would be too random to just list in a paragraph - I'm currently studying astrophysics at university - People think I'm super chill in public but that's because my "deception" and "emotional suppression" skill is really high - I defeated Cthulhu in D&D last Sunday by electrocuting the s*** out of some water (and critting on my roll) - Even though I love science I also enjoy acting, painting and writing - I'm a nostalgic Legend of Zelda fan - I snapchatted my friends about string theory and none of them seemed excited WHAT