Hey! I clicked on it because I was like "Congrats!" to the acid trip AND to joining up. (I'm over 6 trips in, but they were many years ago and I lost count...)
Good on you for just living your honest life. Whatever it is, so long as you aren't hurting anyone, you'll find those you need in your life at the time you need them.
I'm so excited for you to be making so many firsts - boundaries, discussions with the little-kid-you inside, NF, acid, not worrying about what others think!
My ONLY advice is that if you could try to not be so hard on that little-kid-you.. he