Nuala

Not feeling better but at least feeling calmer. Had insomnia yesterday so I think my brain must be too exhausted to be freaking out. Week #3: IF : OOOOOO- Booty : XXXOOXo FF : XXXOOXo Alcohol: OXOOXOO Summary Week #2 IF: 6/6 => Grade A. I've been tweaking a bit the starting time. It doesn't makes any sense to wait until 3pm when I don't have gym as I usually go to bed early. The duration is still the same: 8 hours. Booty: 2.5 glutes day => Had an half-assed session on Sunday. => Grade A- FF: 3 Sessions => A. Not the best ever but I did them. I also do better on the tailor pose. Alcohol: ... We had a friend at home to watch Munich bouldering competition. I made the food and he brought some beers. And I was weak, and stupid, and I knew that I would hate myself for that but I took one. It was a huge one so I shared it with bf, but that's not making me feel any better. Also, the mood crush arrived just after that and I wanted alcohol so much on Sunday that it almost drove me insane. Beer is bad for me, seriously. Grade => B according to my start of the challenge self. She was very nice. New reminder: Starting weight: 53kg (BMI 20.7), Current weight: 51kg (BMI 19.9) Starting waist: 69cm, Current waist: 69cm Crappy end of week. Crappy results. :/

Sorry, feeling bad, depressed, useless.. Yesterday was sucky, today too. Want to disappear again, but I won't goddamnit >_<

@mad: Prabably a lot of shame for being out of the loop for such a long time. Like when you were suppose to call someone absolutely and everyday that pass makes it more difficult to actually do it. Week #3: IF : OOOO--- Booty : XXXO--- FF : XXXO--- Alcohol: OoOO--- Ouuuuh, that's bad, really bad. So, I had a beer on Tuesday We went to another climbing gym that day, as much as we love blocbuster, we were all looking forward a bit of change, new problems, new walls, new opening style. And I have to admit that Arkose was pretty nice. Not as good as BB though Pro: - New blocs! - An awesome long wall for horizontal problems - A real restaurant with a very nice bar - A partnership with a local brewer meaning: lots of local beers (hence my failure to resist...) - Very friendly staff Con: - no gym or space dedicated to warm up or strength training (or hooping) - quite small - lots of top out (and I hate them ) - Soooooo far away. It's literally on the other side of Paris. The color code is similar at BB. In order of difficulty: Yellow green blue red black purple. The yellow were really too easy. Basically scales, no interesting moves, it was not even enough for a warm up. Green were also really easy, I warmed up on the horizontal bloc. And blue was my level. I solved 3 or 4 of them, tried many other. None of them was seemingly impossible, just need a bit of work. One in all, I had a lot of fun and also a hell of a session, while BF and friend were eating I was already on the walls, my arms were killing me yesterday >_< [False edit]I was really ashamed writing this awful failure so it gave me a little push to do my stretching and glutes workout! Right glute looks definitely activated now *ouch* left one... not that much. The hamstring still takes the lead.

Haha, it happens to me all the time! Days are so easy to lose.

Well, if frowning puppy is not enough motivation, I present you flexibility shaming doggy: ... Show off.

I'm almost ok with daily IF, considering my tendencies at binge eating all day long, it really helps keeping my diet in line. That being said, I really can't afford to have some "easy to eat" stuff at home, or else it mindlessly disappears in my belly :/ Do you have a punishment game if you don't do enough walking? Like... washing the dishes?

Yeah, after calming down a little I also came to the scam conclusion. I mean, no official letter from Pole emploi, no official letter from a bailiff, nothing? Just an SMS and an email after 1+ year?! It doesn't makes sense. I will probably check with pole emploi tomorrow (not that I have many hope there, we're almost the 15 of August, Paris is a desert) and until I have some informations from them, I will ignore the "bailiff"

Oh boy, I'm pissed off. So pissed off that I feel like throwing up. Weird SMS on my cellphone, apparently from a bailiff that pretend that I own 850€ to Pole emploi. Pole emploi is the thing that gives you money when you become unemployed, I had a work for 7+ years that gave me rights for 2 years. Meaning from February 2013 to February 2015. But at one point, I became freelance (not the best idea ever, it provoked a lot of my anxiety) after a few month shortening my rights period, well, be it, I stopped receiving money months ago actually more than one year ago. And now, more than 1 year after the last time I got some money from Pole emploi, without any letters, warning or anything, I have this email and this SMS that tells me that I own 850€. That doesn't makes any kind of sense, of course it's too late to call today, I'm freaking out and am pissed off at the same time because if anything, it should probably be the pole emploi that would owe me money! *rants* [edit]on the plus side, I have read my emails and my sms today. >_>

Week #3, Day #1: IF : O------ Booty : X------ FF : X------ Alcohol: O------ Procrastinated all the day, now I don't have time to post a longer message >_> I'm not the brightest sometimes.

Sorry to hear about your rough review But no more guesses now, you know what to expect! Onward to week 3

Crossing fingers so you will have an hockey team in fall!

Good job for the finals! And surprise price money for a dinner is really nice too Despite the frowning puppy (I'll have to take one too ) that seemed to be a pretty solid week, with lots of Hockey [edit]Oh boy, frowning puppy is running after us this week! Beware!

Ok, I missed an updating day but after the gym yesterday I didn't really feel like going on the computer. Sorry! Thanks goodness that the staff at the gym takes its sweet time to serve you, it gives me a bit of room to change my mind YAY! Tomorrow we will go at another bouldering gym. BF told me about the locally brewed beer they sell, he fears for my streak. So do I. I'll have to make sure that I'll have absolutely no money with me. I managed to avoid your vigilance for at least 2 weeks! Short sneak I know Nice to see you Big! I'm home I am really bad at squats as I have an ankle mobility issue. I think I can do Bulgarian split squats, would that work too? Back to you girl! The FF move that gave me the biggest result was the Shoulder internal rotation extension. Basically, you put your hand on your back, back straight, elbow go back and forth a few times then try to put your hand higher and do the same. Simple but with exercise I have my hand between my shoulders blade and my fingers almost at the root of my neck. I'm not sure I have a lot of improvement room there. So my exercises are more posterior shoulder openers. FF has one, I also added some - Stick dislocates - Floor angels - Child pose or puppy pose. And some others shoulders stretch that feels more.. lateral? - Forward Fold with Shoulder Extension - Yoga's Eagle arms - Scapular shrugs That's a really good idea. I should add a pop-up on my computer to remind me to do that regularly. For my posture too, I can't let my APT getting worse. *investigates*

Week #2, Day #7: IF : OOOOoO- Booty : XXXXOOO FF : XXOoXXX Alcohol: OOOOOOO Summary Week #2 IF: 6/6 => Grade A- I feel like I cheated a bit on Friday with my glass of sweetened soy milk, hence the -. Not a big deal on the grade, but still I'd rather keep me honest. Booty: 3 glutes day => A Such a pain to activate them, My back and hamstrings are so strong compared to my glutes that they immediately take the charge. I'm not doing high volume for now, just find a way to activate them. I made another session of weighted hip thrust at the gym (weight 7.5kg) and just started to feel the burn. FF: 2-ish Sessions => B. I was not on top for my stretching this week. I even feel some soreness in my shoulders after bouldering, sign that I haven't stretched at all. I have to go back on track! Alcohol: 2 weeks streak! => A \o/ New reminder: Starting weight: 53kg (BMI 20.7), Current weight: 50.5kg (BMI 19.73) Starting waist: 69cm, Current waist: 68cm No changes since last week, but I have to admit that I ate a bit too much yesterday (rice, my nemesis) and while it shouldn't really matter long term (I was quite reasonable the rest of the week), I'm not really surprised by today's result, I probably packed a bit of water weight and stuff. So let's be it and be more careful next Sunday!

Week #2, Day #5 #6: IF : OOOOoO- Booty : XXXXOO- FF : XXOoXX- Alcohol: OOOOOO- IF: still doing good, I feel like I cheated a bit yesterday. I went back from the gym at 11:15pm, 15 minutes past my end limit but I still took a big glass of sweetened soy milk. It was technically not food, but still it was calories... Booty: I can't get my glutes activated. I've been trying many different exercises, try to squeeze my ass as much as possible but most of the time I feel the burn in my hamstrings or in my back. I tried some hip thrust at the gym and could only manage to activate them for 2 set out of 3. I couldn't activate them during the last one. Glute bridge doesn't seems to work, sometimes the one leg elevated glute bridge works, bird dog kinda work, donkey kicks 20% of the time. It's really difficult to find what will bring them back to life. FF: TL;DS (too long, didn't stretch) That's bad I know :/ I'll make sure to make a big session tomorrow before climbing. Alcohol: oh boy, it was hard. 3 things saved me: the persons with whom I usually drink were not there (not that it usually stops me anyway), BF found the right words telling me it would be a pity to break my streak and I also didn't want to disappoint you all. So when I arrived and I saw all the people I know already enjoying their beer, I ordered a big bottle of water. When it was time to leave and I had to wait for BF, I just ordered a chocolate milk and went outside to drink it. The streak is still going, yay me!

Oh boy, don't tell me that. Friday is usually beer day at the bouldering gym, I'll do my best not to succumb to the temptation, but it's friday, where people drink beer to celebrate the week end... that will be hard and I have very little faith in myself that I will be able to resist. I suppose it's because my abs are super weak, so a full stomach is not supported by anything. It feels a little uncomfortable.

Week #2, Day #4: IF : OOOO--- Booty : XXXX--- FF : XXOo--- Alcohol: OOOO--- IF done but ate too much in the evening, I hate when my belly is full before going to bed. Only made half the exercises of flexibility, BF's uncle was in the room where I usually train. Today is bouldering!

You're my guest anytime!

I feel like I overreacted a little. I have a very low self-esteem, my BF is a genius (© my parents) who is rocking is job and who is way better than me at bouldering (we started at the same time! that's unfair >_<) cooking is the only thing that I feel I can do quite well and I'm doing my best to improve so that it's tasty and nice looking and I always try to keep people's health in mind, never ever going for the easy way, so it quite hurts me and gives a real blow in my already low self-esteem that all the time I spend learning and practising is received with a frowning and a "what the hell is this green stuff" air on the face while a pre-made cake would be "that's the best thing I have ever eaten!". I know people have different taste, I know I'm irrational but that still hurts and I feel like hiding it like I did for such a long time is not helping my anxiety and depression, so thanks for being here and listening to my rants! Anyway, I'll cook like I always do, my BF will love it as usual and that's all that matters.

Week #2, Day #3: IF : OOO---- Booty : XXX---- FF : XXO---- Alcohol: OOO---- I actually know what's pissing me off. BF's uncle motto since he arrived seems to be "Every food choice I make here (in France) makes me feel guilty". Well, you know it's your food choices, I'm sorry we don't drink soda, we don't eat fast food burgers or fries every day, when we are looking for a restaurant we do not consider Subway as one (it's a sandwich place! >_<), when we take a beer we don't chose the worse choice possible and refuse to try any other that may not taste like donkey piss. I don't mind if you do but I would like you not to whine and pout when we try to advice you some better options that you may not know because you're in a foreign country. Also today is not a gym day and that's annoying me. *ranty but tomorrow will be a better day*

It's just that I'm not "nice" enough to buy soda and frozen pizza especially for him, even if that's what suits his tastes better. That would be a waste of money and time.

Week #2, Day #2: IF : OO----- Booty : XX----- FF : XX----- Alcohol: OO----- IF is getting easier and made me realized that the amount of leftover I was eating while preparing the bentos in the morning is actually equivalent to a full meal. Meaning I would usually have a breakfast + 3 meals a day. Thankfully they are not huge meals nor very caloric so it leaves me in my normal maintenance calories income but I can imagine easily the weight I would be if I didn't eat mostly veggies. (hint: it would be bad ) No alcohol yesterday either! It was a huge willpower check because BF's brother is a bit of my partner in crime when it comes to drinking. I can always count on him to fill my glass during family events. But yesterday I just advice him on the best beer of the gym and took the fact that they were out of my favorite beer as a sign. I have to admit that I'm feeling a bit annoyed right now. BF's family (brother and uncle) arrived yesterday and, while I really like BF's uncle his eating habits are really nerve-wrecking. The uncle is a 53yo bachelor, he's been wanting to lose some weight since forever, but when your diet is composed of soda, pizza, meatballs and potatoes, you can't expect it to happen. When yesterday I asked him what he wanted for breakfast, he told me "croissants", I indulged him but quite frankly, when I arrived with the croissants and saw him drinking sweetened tea (what! He even took his own sugar with him, knowing very well that we don't put sugar in tea), while taking his pills (you can't live on this diet for that long and still be in a good health...) I really, really, REALLY regretted buying him some croissants... So, tonight he is eating with us and I will of course cook. I don't intend to make some effort for him, YOU WILL EAT HEALTHY FOOD AND YOU WILL LIKE IT! Yes it will be green and red and yellow and you're not used to that and I don't care. *rant* And yes, I will stretch, right now >_< [edit]Oh, right. My hamstring is all better, it took a few days of rest but no more pain at all now

I missed you coming back! So, welcome back! a bit late ^^' I found it hard to train when I'm in a summer cottage (usually in Finland), there are way too many things to do. Prepare the food, cut the wood, heat the BBQ, prepare the Sauna, swim in the lake, go to the sauna, say hello to the ducks, stare at the lake for hours and so on. So busy... Tomorrow seems to be a hard day, can you prepare your food in advance? At least get some washing and cutting done?

Don't beat yourself too much, if you skipped these few steps for some TV watching or another time wasting thing, I would have taken out Judgemental Cat for you, but sleeping is important! Walk a bit more today if you can!

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