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So, I did end up going to the Y, but the class was not at all what they had previously told me. It was a class for competitive swimmers which I absolutely am not. But I was able to stay and swim some laps, so that was good. At least I overcame my fears and went.

I am bad about lists, I hate making them and when I do, I forget them!

That's what I feel I need. I remember reading something about this when I first signed up. Tonight is the night I have been planning to start swimming. There is an open Adult Master swim at the YMCA tonight and I was thinking I would go and see what it was about. But now those demons are creeping into my head giving me lots of excuses not to go. I'm starting to get anxious about all the reasons I am not good enough to do this. Excuses from, I'm still sore from running this weekend, to fears I will somehow be embarrassed by my appearance or skill in the pool. UGH...all these voices telling me I'm not good enough. And all I want to do is talk to someone about helping me improve my swimming. I always blow things way out of proportion in my head. Right now, I am resolved to overcome those obstacles and go, but a lot can happen in the next 7 hours...lol

I will definitely check out those pod casts. I am looking for something different to motivate me on my runs. Great goals by the way.

sounds like you are off to a good start

Hi Porter, Sounds like you got off to a great start. Keep moving forward!

I like how you broke this down. Thinking about it that way getting to 10000+ steps doesn't seem that hard.

I realized that I have been wishing people 'Good Luck' on their goals and challenges and now I think that's probably not correct. It's not luck we need but perseverance and encouragement. But 'Good Perseverance' just doesn't sound right...lol How do you encourage people to meet their goals?

I also signed up for a Sprint Triathlon, mine is the middle of May. I did what was billed as a 'My First Triathlon' where the swimming was only 400M, the other distances were the same. I struggled with that distance so I know I need to work on that. Maybe I should try flippers! hmmm.... Good luck on your goals.

These sound like good goals. Now I have to go check out HabitHub and see what it's about

Wow! Congrats on your race results. You ARE Awesome! One of my goals is to break 30 minutes for a 5k. Didn't do it this weekend...lol

I can relate to a lot of the things you wrote. I am depressed also, but I constantly beat myself up because in my head I think that there is no reason for me to be depressed. I have most things that 'successful' people have. It's this crazy vicious cycle that I struggle to break out of all the time. But it is so fucking hard. So, I get the anger. I'm angry too.

First day of the challenge and I am looking forward to this. I actually paid attention to what I was eating this weekend and was able to make *some* healthier substitutions. I stepped on the scale this morning for the first time in several days and I was down to 169.8! First time under 170 since new years! I am also going to try not to step on the scale daily, but rather weekly. Otherwise I get frustrated that I am not losing. Thanks everyone for taking the time to respond. For someone like me who finds it hard to communicate in any medium, it means a lot.

These sound like great goals. The hardest one for me would be the menu/shopping list. I need to get better at planning my meals for the week.

Thanks all for the encouragement. I am in a much better place today. I am am looking forward to the challenge starting next week. In fact, I’ve now gone 4 days with no Diet Coke between 8-3 and I did my first body weight workout last night. still need to get my diet under control, but baby steps...lol