This is my first log, making a small step towards my ultimate 55kg goal.
I woke up nice and early this morning for a minor surgery. Doing intermittent fasting (OMAD), it’s a little relief that I can fill my day with big chunks of time where it’s not possible to eat. Admittedly when I’m up earlier there is a little dread that the day will feel like it lasts forever until I can eat, but I’ve been talking myself through all those thoughts. Food and weight has very much become a mental thing for me, and I’m working on making it feel like less of a big deal.
Part of this process is recognising when I’m creating my own drama, in the mental back and forth between wanting to eat food and binge, but not being able to have it. Giving myself permission to eat whatever and whenever I want, but when I do, needing talk myself through how that will affect my goals / how it will make me feel now vs later and then making a rational decision. Moving away from the habit of frantic binges where I don’t feel like myself, feel irrational or uncontrolled like I’m going crazy after trying to ‘hold out’ for as long as possible, enduring a self inflicted torture.
Bit of an emotional day yesterday my immediate though after waking up is food, but keeping in mind all the positives that will come with hitting my goal is a big reason to stay on track.