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They're a source of frustration because I'm not getting stronger, and I'm having a hard time finding a consistent place for them in my day. At this point I think it's untenable -- I can come back to it when I'm ready. My sleep schedule is getting marginally better just because I'm so tired all the time, but I struggle with getting up on time. My alarm goes off, and I say "fuck it" (out loud, even) and go back to bed. I think I need a hard reset rather than marginal tweaks. The past couple weeks have been hit and miss for reasons ranging from a poorly timed drinking water advisory to some poorly thought out training on vicarious trauma at work to head office going we find your novel suggestion that cisgender people have gender fascinating and would like to subscribe to your newsletter please attend a zoom meeting to discuss further. I'm walking into a headwind of depression and towing an anchor of learned thoughts that I just don't want anymore. Everything is twice as hard because I'm trying to meet expectations, manage my psyche, and do what keeps me stable while not exploding on the people around me. I've concluded that what I've been trying to do isn't what I need now. I need to unwind myself and support myself. I need things that are gentle and accessible. I'm trying not to feel like a failure. It will probably look like more yoga and walking with a little bodyweight exercise for sweat purposes and for when I want to avoid other humans. I'll continue to work on sleep hygiene and try to balance my eating between easy and nourishing. I'd like to be online less and outside more.

You're doing a lot of work in the face of gremlins; I hope you see good results that get you to a better place soon. You deserve to be safe, healthy, and happy.

Day 2.6 Physical 10km walk Diet OK Rest still not what I wanted Day 2.7 Physical ~12.5km urban hike on some paths I haven't explored since the main trail was expanded Diet improving! Rest eh, it's the weekend Day 3.1 Physical rest day Diet too tired to cook Rest got to bed early at least Day 3.2 Physical strength workout B Diet I cooked! Rest slept in but got to bed early, so it balances out Day 3.3 Physical 2.5km jog, ~6km socially distanced dog walk Diet today was good; walked up to the bakery for a sandwich at lunch and cooked a healthy if uninspired supper Rest got up on time and went for a jog before work! I had planned on a bodyweight workout after work and a walk to anime night, but our household bubbles were just reduced to actually, don't do that after going up to ten last week, so it's masked and distanced dog walking for the foreseeable future. Current challenges include scheduling workouts that keep my showers to a minimum, work absolutely sucking, and just being tired of food. I think I'm doing a pretty good job of making my workouts a habit, but the joy is kinda drained out of everything but walking. I'm keeping my spirits up by planning walking holidays, like my camino and, most recently, the West Highland Way.

Day 2.3 Physical 12km urban hike, ~4.5km walk to anime night and back Diet pretty good Rest good Day 2.4 Physical 40 minutes yoga Diet cooked and ate outside Rest lazy with my sleep schedule Day 2.5 Physical ~4.5km walk in the first spring rain Diet OK, but I'm starting to feel hungrier than normal Rest sleep schedule is not any better This is turning out to be the kind of rest week I planned for at the beginning of the challenge. I will probably delete the running app I was using and aim for short, slow jogs before work. I'd rather build up my walking distance now that the local trails are clear and I'm feeling mildly optimistic about a multi-day hike this summer.

Day 2.2 Physical ~10km wander (just under three hours with breaks for tea and to douse a fire someone left smouldering on the trail, jfc people) Diet happy with the day so far and up to cooking this evening Rest took the cat for an ad libitum walk in the yard, which ended with a cuddle, raising my hopes that I can get him to nap with me on the hammock this year! Slept in a little and took my time getting out for my morning wander. Should really do some yoga later.

Day 2.1 Physical 2.5km jog; enough housework to feel like I got an honest day's work in Diet OK Rest wound up really tired and went to bed early It doesn't look like I accomplished as much as I wanted to, but I spend a good chunk of the day on my feet being productive.

Day 1.7 Physical ~8.5km wander Diet *fart noises* Rest slept in; stayed up late; relaxed a lot The good news is that my favourite section of the river bank is walkable in boots and maybe gaiters! edit: total distance walked this week 18km

Brilliant; I love it. Most of my magic-practicing friends land somewhere on the Christian spectrum. And that sounds like most Catholics I know, honestly. I'm always surprised when I meet a Catholic who has a simple relationship with Church authorities. Would you tell me about your conception of the God and Goddess? I like what you say about pure potential. I have a cranky old man cat. ❤️ He walks well on his harness; he just think he shouldn't have to wear it. As far as he's concerned, he owns the whole block and needs to go shake down the neighbours for rent.

Day 1.6 Physical 2.6km jog, strength workout A (65 minutes) Diet lunch could have been more substantial, but I made up for it with a snack Rest slept in for the holiday, but I'm not holding it against myself. Pleasant day bookended with workouts. Walked the cat in the backyard to his heart's desire. Took it easy with my deadlift and squat; not sure whether I'm just suffering a lack of mental toughness. Small gain on the chest press and farmer carries. I've been consistently active for one month! Ordered new socks and a pair of jogging pants that doesn't have a hole in the butt to celebrate.

Yay show me ur altars! My pizza night is tomorrow. Tonight is supporting local business by eating their delicious enchiladas.

Welcome! I'm new here too. Following along for morning routines that include ritual!

Day 1.5 Physical bodyweight circuit D (30 minutes) Diet no regrets Rest slept in again Hopefully more later, but today might be a bare minimum day.

Yay, you're exploring new beliefs and practices! That's really exciting. Would you be comfortable sharing your experience and practice? Hoo boy. I'm a Gnostic witch, heavy on the Hellenism. Gnostic for a set of myths about the universe and an emphasis on direct, personal apprehension of the Divine, witch for transgressive, street-level practice, and Hellenism because I settle comfortably in Hellenistic/early Roman Empire thought in terms of gods, rituals, and philosophy. My religion (where religion roughly = myths and values and practice) is heavily informed by the wild and experimental cultures (like Alexandria) that produced texts like the Greek Magical Papyri and the Nag Hammadi library, as well as syncretic religious movements like Manichaeism (Jesus + Buddha + Zoroaster). They had in common gods who can be combined in unexpected ways, a belief in fate influenced by the stars or stellar gods, and the possibility of a mystical ascent to the outer edges of the cosmos, where a hypercosmic god can be met and known. For myself, I'm equally comfortable with classical paganism, the really foundational Weird Stuff in Second Temple Judaism, and forms of Christianity that absorb paganism. I realise that's mostly quite niche! I really love it, though, so if you have any questions, I'd be happy to go into more detail and provide links. My practice is sleeping right now, but it typically looks like Hellenic Reconstruction-lite with an emphasis on invoking the Divine.

This is such an important skill to develop! And it takes practice. Glad you had a win today

Even before I read the Narnia books, the older family friends who were priests rocked the Oxford don aesthetic, down to scotch, cigars, and Sanskrit. I never had a chance. 😆 Anyway, now I'm a heretical paganising witch. It's all down to Mr. Tumnus' bookshelf: The Later Letters of Silenus and Is Man a Myth? Foundational stuff. Kamut is a commercial strain of khorasan, an ancient grain. It's nutty and buttery; I love it in black bean salad, but I can also just eat it as a side. That story made my day; thanks for sharing! I would've loved to be a religion scholar trying to sort that one out. 😄