Jackdaw

Hello friends! I am back! Life took some violent twists and turns - I lost my job in Berlin, I got rejected at a new job after a trial day, we couldn‘t rent a new apartment, my husband couldn‘t get a date for residence permit - it was no fun. Then we moved to Dresden. We did it because we predited getting an appointment for RP would be much easier here. And we were right - we got it in just three weeks. Besides, I got a job as a German teacher, yay! We live in a beautiful, sunny city and my husband is already allowed to work. He is also gonna receive RP in two weeks. Everything turned out well. Now as everything is settled, I can focus on my wellness. My goals: - do more back exercise: 20 min a day - find a fitness routine that doesnt hurt my back and do it 3-4 times a week - lose 2 kg. Unfortunately I put on weight because I was unable to do my workouts due to injury as I used to.

Heey Not so good. We are moving again... I can't find a job and we already live from the money we borrowed 😕

Jackdaw gets fit Ok, so finally I am gonna focus on what this forum was designed for: fitness! My main goal is pain relief, getting back in shape after injury and working on my posture. Exercise three times a day (15 min) I am gonna do Liebscher Bracht routine. It is focused on pain relief and improving mobility, but actually it is quite strengthening too, my core was super sore after the first few workouts. Stretch throughout a day Bracht has lots of one-two minutes exercises while standing, so I wanna implement it into my day. Besides I am gonna report about other fun things I am into recently. These days I am totally hardcore about learning Morse Code. I am already fluent with the alphabet. I am excellent at sending, but not so great at receiving. It’s very hard. My brain just doesn’t catch up with noting the sounds. I am working on it every day. I am practising with an Indian soldier (My life is interesting, huh?) I met on an app for learning Morse. Many people all over the world message there in Morse. It’s really cool. For quite some time, I’ve been fascinated about making electronic gadgets and had thought about trying it myself, but I never had time for it. I don’t need to learn German anymore, so I think it’s time for developing some new hobbies. I’ve got my eye on a an electronics course (together with tool kit) for beginners, so that’s what I am gonna do after we move - learn basic electronics and learn how to make the most primitive circuits. I am totally excited about it. It’s my dream to make a simple robot (one day) and a toy car. I am also searching for a new job. It hate the idea of working again. I’d like to stay home and learn stuff I am interested in forever. But on the other hand, if I work, it gives me lots of satisfaction I can feed myself. So quite conflicted here. In the last four months I moved four times. We’re just about to move again. We’re both jobless and the euro currency is bleeding our pocket quickly. I am having a job interview in a field I have no idea about (logistics) but they want someone who speaks Polish, English, Chinese and German fluently, so they invited me over. Life has been like standing on the edge of a precipice with one idea what is down there when I jump. Because of my anxiety disorder, I hate that situation, but in some perverse way, I love it too. I love life to be like an action movie. My new morning routine: 1. Get up early 2. Coffee & morning reading/writing diary in Chinese 3. A walk in a park 4. Job search/interview preparation 5. Morse Code practise

Getting things done which we usually postpone doing brings so much satisfaction! Wow, so much aikido. You'd get back in the game in no time! Convection sounds really fun

Challenge wrap-up: 1) I am very satisfied with my results. Focusing on one thing was a good idea. I can stick to it in 99℅ and not feel guilty about not doing a hundred other things I wanna improve. I didn't eat any sweets, cookies, cakes, etc for 31 days, except for that one piece of pastry my husband brought home. I drank some redbulls but I was so low on energy for a couple for days it was better to drink it than not function at all. And the challenge was initially about eating, not drinking so... yeah. I am not on any kind of a diet. I just wanted to improve the horrendous habit of eating sweets every day which I developed after coming back to Europe. Done! 2) My exercise routine didn't go so well. I wanted to stretch three times a day, but most days I only do it once. Well, at least it became a habit. But it's still not as good as it should be. It will be the theme of the next challenge. 3) I did try new exercise for my back and I did went to see a doctor. See u in the next one! It's gonna be fun!

Glad you have a therapist that is helping you and it's a discount! The pics with your surroundings are very beautiful. Very nice spot to chill out. I think the idea to start walking before you start running is a very good idea. It's easy to get injured and/or discouraged if you have no experience or a long break. Nice you're exciting for your new challenge. Me too! I hope your head gets better soon.

So many things are going on, I have a lot of challenges ahead of me. I also have many new ideas, but I am gonna share it in the new challenge. No sweets challenge has been going very well. I had only one misstep so far and ate a pastry filled with apple. My husband bought it, put it in the kitchen and I couldn't resist. The gift ginger cookies I got from a colleague don't count, because I restarted the challenge after that (it was the 2nd of Jan, so I am challenging till the 2nd of Feb). My core routine is so so - I always do it at least once a day, maybe 50% twice. I'd like to improve and do it twice-thrice every day and addictionally maybe some 2-3 min exercise here and there.

It's wonderful you've made such huge progress and have so much discipline. It must be very rewarding. It was joy to have you here. Take care and good luck on your journey!

Well, as you said you're back on the horse, so with time you get as fit as before. I also tend to be imaptient, but we just need to keep going and let the time do its work. I hope you won't have so much work tomorrow and yay, weekend! Take good rest!

The last few days were a blur. You could never expect how bad light can affect you, but it really can - I got headache, eye strain, were constantly sleepy, moody and depressed. Yesterday my husband got rid of the lamp, installed a very powerful bulb and it's like a curse reversed - I am back to my energetic and cheerful self. I am making doctor appointments as I have a lot of time now. Today the orthopedic doctor told me he assumes my bone structure didn't change much, but I might have a spinal joint inflammation. Tomorrow will gonna do CAT scan to see for sure. I hate CAT scans. I feel as if I was in a coffin. Recently I am reading Musk's biography and I got totally obsessed about Mars exploration and development of AI. I just can't stop watching videos about it. My husband thinks I am bananas because I keep on talking about colonizing Mars 🤣 We certainly have a lot of fun. What's more the new interest seems to be very useful. There was a guy hitting on me few days ago and by discussing different robots and techinque of landing on Mars, I turned him off completely haha. Definitely not his idea of a dirty talk. I suck at exercise recently. From tomorrow I am gonna do better. I do it once-twice a day but it's definitely not enough.

Very interesting workout! It's always good to have a workout buddy xD That group sounds very interesting! Keep us posted how it goes!

It sounds like a good training! Recently core exercise is all I do. It's so great you have exercise machines at work. I guess it can also help you relieve the stress. Is there a lot of snow where you live now?

Today I discovered even more weirdness in my flat... Those guys have so much creepy stuff... Books about occultism, some unidentified objects, ALIEN PORN! Me and my husband had a great laugh at the last one lol. Can't wait to see what else I am gonna discover here 🤣 Each day those hidden jars with organs seem more and more probable... This morning I took my husband for a walk in a park and in a cemetery. (Ok, I am also a weird one. But I thought it'd be interesting for him to see an European graveyard). When he heard the raven calling he said it is just like in a movie 🤣 In the afternoon I had a good time with my new friend V. We got to know each other through an app, it was our second meet-up. I really feel very comfortable with her. I also must show off with my new jacket, it's just sooo cool! I saw it on Chinese shopping platform and asked my husband to buy it and bring it. Fortunately it fits! It makes me feel like a superhero! 🦸‍♂️ Sweets:no... even though I started having a craving... A LOT Exercise: no... I must get back on track... today I felt much less tired, hopefully tomorrow I can get to it.

I think taking a side job to help you with finances would be a good idea. Maybe cut the stuff you do to focus on your art projects or put it on hold conpletely. I just can't see how you can focus on your projects if you don't have enough income to sustain yourself. Any other big decisions can wait until you get more stable. Take care! I believe you'll figure it out. Btw why are you worried about forums closing?

WHAT, you're 43?! Judging from your pics I thought you're 20-something... *recovering from shock* It was so nice to have you around, like the others here I always felt your posts and comments were full of energy and positivity, not phony at all... But I understand by "phony" you mean you forced yourself to keep up here? I wish you all the best on your journey, looking forward to intaract with you on insta and see your cats 😛

Thanks! I finally have time to enjoy it. Yes, it went smoothly, thanks! Actually, till the last moment I was irrationally worried there will be some problem on the border and he wouldn't make it. After what they did to me, I have no trust in China. (Fortunatelly he didn't tell me that beforehand, but he picked up a fight with the police after they released me. I think I'd die from stress if I knew). Yes, I am happy how are you today? ---- Hey guys!! My husband is in Germany!! 🇩🇪❤ He is very excited. Everything is so different than in China and it's his first time in Europe. Yesterday I took him sightseeing. We went to a Berlin Cathedral, got up the Television Tower and went to Alexandersplatz. My husband was amazed by the catherdral. He had never seen a church before. He had a blast investigating all the weird shit in the apartment. I bought him batman slippers, because the place vibe is as dark and heavy like Wayne Mannor 🤣 I don't feel well physically. I am exhausted and it feels hard to motivate myself to do anything. I feel like I could fall asleep and sleep for a week. My recent record (14 hours) seems to confirm that. The stress, crappy diet and lack of sun seem to finally really get to me. Sweets: no I was really tempted because the cakes in a cafe looked just sooo good, but I withstood it. Exercise: nope... I am barely in a shape to keep my head up My former colleagues are such weird people. Some of them texted me and asked how I am doing, but after I replied they never wrote back... Even the girl I believed to be close with. Why to ask if you don't have any interest?? Good I left that place. I really need to engrave that in my brain to take it slow while getting to know new people. I think I skip at least few first stages lol.

Yeah, you're right. I didn't really have much motivation by myself, but now when my husband is here I want to show him around, he had never been in Europe. Yesterday it was the first time for him to see a church, he was in awe. Yeah, now I think the same. The fallout with the company was painful, but I think it's for the best now. I can spend some quality time with my husband and run his errands. And I am really exhausted, you know, I sleep 10-13 hours a day and still, I can only think about sleeping all the time. It's really a time to take a breath.

I miss the sun as well! Being used to conpletely different climate and heat waves, the weather in Berlin seems unbearable. There were like 3-4 sunny days in three months here. Nice you found some stuff you can still use! Declattering is tiring, but brings a lot of satisfaction.

Hey guys I can't believe it! I am going to pick up my husband!!! After prison, kicking me out of the country, experiencing earthquake in Africa, going abroad, getting a psychiatric treatment, finding a job and moving from apartment to apartment like a nomad, we-can-finally-be-together! I can't believe I got through all of this by myself. But I did it. I did it. It feels strange to be going to an airport to pick someone up. It is my first time. Usually it's me flying here and there. In one hour I can see him. And hopefully we will never have to get separated again. But if we do, I know I can deal with everything on my own. It is crazy though, to come abroad with zero knowledge of the native language or English. He hadn't wanted to listen to me and study. He has just called me from the aiport in Frankfurt because he had no way to communicate with the officer who was questioning him. I have no idea what would happen if I didn't pick up that phone. Exercise: once oops... I was busy shopping ane meeting a new friend Sweets: no

Ohh I see, I will check it out. You don't read any fan fiction? If you want some recommendations about such stuff in a different setting, you know where to find me 😛

OMG can you be my best friend?!? xD But seriosly, would you like to discuss what we've read/watched sometime? ❤

Hey you can go through this! You can always try to talk more about those things with your loved ones? Initiate a talk? I don't think it's so overwhelming for them. if you need to talk to someone you can always call me or something. I don't think I can find any good solution, but I will listen. I also have self-worth issues, I know it's really hard to overcome. But hey, you've done so much, you are living a sober life now. Many people would not accomplish it. And you have courage to follow your dreams, damn, it takes guts to do that. I wish you all the best. Try to stay strong and when you can't, just know it's ok to be weak sometimes too.

OMG, is the genre BL? 😍

I love that pic, is it from some anime? It hasn't been the best week, but life, right, we can't do our 100℅ every time. And you had a lot going on. Nice, you already read so many book this year! Chinese steampunk bullshit sounds very intriguing, I must check it out xD

Your workout has been going so well! Good luck with balancing your diet. Wow, dealing with boxes that have been stored for seven years sounds like a big challenge for me. It'll take a long time.