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I really don’t. It’s funny how in the past ten years that’s never actually changed. Things happen, I react. Not always well. This time ten years ago, almost to the day, as it happens, I was lying in a hospital bed after I reacted particularly badly. And then came ten years of life I never expected to have. There’s been both bad and good, though one of my best decisions by far was joining NF. I’ve been here for seven years now, which actually makes this place one of the more permanent fixtures in my life. And with good reason. Looking forward to the ten years ahead, well, I don’t know what’s going to happen. I know where I want to be. I know it won’t be an easy road. It never is, but then, I don’t think I’d ever want it to be. It wasn’t an easy road that brought me to the person I am now, a person that is easily the best version of themself. It wasn’t an easy road that brought me to the mindset that I have created, a mindset that, while still shaky, is far harder to break than that of ten years ago. It wasn’t an easy road that brought me to the knowledge I have, the skills I’ve learned, or the people I’ve been fortunate enough to meet along the way. And if all of that has come from a hard road, well, I look forward to whatever is coming next. I did have a plan for this challenge, however recent events have rendered that unrealistic. On the 4th I was given a two month notice to leave my flat, the reason being that my landlady had decided to sell it. This caused a fairly massive panic given that, while I can afford to live somewhere, I can’t afford to move somewhere. I gave myself a couple of days to be emotional about it, then got to work. The current situation is that I have someone who is now a potential housemate and we are currently arranging viewings to anywhere and everywhere within our combined budget. It does mean that not only do I have to contend with a heavily bloated work schedule (my department co-workers all have weeks off one after another and I am the only one who does overtime), but on my days off most of my focus will be on this current situation. But that doesn’t mean I have to drop everything else. I just have to be a little smarter about it. I debated staying in my safe little bubble with the Druids until this is solved, one way or another, but given that part of what I’m working on is learning to step out of my social comfort zones, I’m sticking very firmly to the plan and making the jump to the Assassins. Or back to the Assassins, I should say, given that I spent a year here way back in the day! Fitness I only have two three goals here: Daily yoga Workout 2-3 times weekly ADDITION: Weekly walk, 30+ mins, preferably away from people and traffic and the city in general Yoga daily was part of the original plan, and is definitely easier to make time for, so I’m confident I can stick to that one way or another. The workouts, however, are something of a compromise. I wanted to increase how often I worked out and I’m itching to get back to learning more advanced bodyweight skills. But with my current situation being what it is, I can’t prioritise that. So I’m going to put aside my frustration, stick with what I’m currently doing, and do it well. Food Again, focusing on two things: Drink two litres of water daily Eat at least seven servings of vegetables at least five times a week I’ve been having trouble with proper hydration, especially at work. The vegetable thing, however, is basically me trying to persuade myself to keep eating properly rather do my usual stress/depression trick of not eating at all. I have a weekly meal prep habit in which I prep at least two meals for every day of the upcoming week, and I am always generous with the vegetables, so in theory, anyway, it should be easily doable. Life All going well, there’s a strong possibility that I’ll be living with someone for the first time in over five years. And if I keep going the way I am, I’m not going to cope very well with that at all. I struggle badly with social interaction, in part due to anxiety issues, and unfortunately my job tends to make things worse on that front. Honestly, there’s no way to fix this in two months, and I’m not sure of how to go about doing so anyway, but I owe it to myself to start. Update daily. Doesn’t matter how small of an update it is, just talk. Interact. This is a forum. It is literally a place for interacting with other people. It’s ok to do just that. Take the lead in the house hunt. It’s a terrifying prospect, but I’ve been asked to do so. I have the experience. I’ve had success. I can do this. I’m wary of making these too rigid. And in the case of point number three, it’s difficult to actually make a proper goal out of it. It’s more a continual prod to ensure I both take the initiative and keep open communication with both my potential housemate and the letting agencies, something which, historically, I am incredibly bad at. And that’s it. I guess if life decides to throw any other unexpected surprises my way it could well change, but for now, I’ve got my plan, and I’m going to try my best to stick to it.