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  1. Finally, finally, finallyyyyy..... I am back on the forums for good this time!! HOO BOY HOWDY TL;DR - hi friends, I’m Shaar, longtime forum member, local bard (and occasional time-mage), and CAPS LOCK CRUSADER, that’s been wayward for a few years due to the Chaos Rodeo that is Life. [a little more details under spoiler tag to avoid wall of text] Cue to today where I’m admittedly struggling a little! My job has been exhausting and overwhelming for me after everything I’ve been through, and I get very tired during the week very quickly - it’s affecting my fitness and gym schedule too. Heck I even finally bought myself a bicycle three weeks ago but haven’t had the time or energy to take it out yet, and that makes me REAL SAD. So I met with my supervisors recently and was very honest and open with them, and I’ve been given the blessing to drop down to part time work - three days a week. I’m super grateful for this because financially we are in a very privileged place where I can make this decision to step back and slow my life down again. It’s also HARD for me (i am a proud little shit) but lately I’ve been slowly able to come to the realization that... I’m not young anymore shaar you dingdong! Past Me coulda maybe done all this shit and kept on trucking but I’m not Past Me anymore, I’m not 25 or 35 anymore, I’m 42. And it’s time to start ACTING LIKE IT. This challenge is all about adjusting to my new schedule, re-learning how to slow down, and be able to start taking better care of myself. I’m getting older and need to get comfortable with settling into a different chapter of my life - and being okay with not being all FULL SPEED AHEAD all the time! Each week I’d like to post a checklist of my goals for the week and keep this thread updated with HOW THE HECK I’M DOING, even if I’m hardcore failing, ‘cause that’s ok too. (And also part of the process.) My main goals are to get settled into a comfortable - and sustainable - gym schedule. I love lifting weights but it’s become increasingly hard on my body lately. Whether that has to do with my schedule being so jam packed or just me getting older remains to be seen, BUT I need to work with the concept of not pushing myself to my limits all the time, but keeping it more real. I have a BICYCLE now so hopefully take that out for a few spins before it gets too cold here toooo~ I NEED to add more mobility and yoga into my life. I feel like an old oak tree a lot and I’m going to be able to have the time lately to take more care of myself. Yoga, foam rolling, even just laying on my acupressure mat for 20 minutes, anything that will help my recovery!! Keep drinking water, keep eating generally balanced meals, keep the drinking ONLY TO WEEKENDS, keep your anxiety in check, keep getting decent sleep, and keep working on enjoying myself!! I’m going to have more time on my hands to balance all of these things and make it work for me and holy HECK am I looking forward to ittttttttt. I’m REALLY STOKED about this new chapter in my life and I’m just really over the moon that I’m able to make these changes and just lead a more enriched and healthy existence mentally, physically, and emotionally. Anyways that's it from me for now, more updates very soon and I can't wait to catch up with all of you nerds!! I MISSED YOUUUUU let's do great things together!!!
  2. I'm going to set up a challenge that mostly doesn't require the computer and internet connection because we'll be on vacation for the last two weeks of the challenge!! I'll probably have my computer, but based on prior trips, I may not be have a decent internet connection unless we are in port. The goal is to draw 6 x week number cards from a mixed deck ... and then do them. So, week 1, that's 6 cards. And week 5 .... that's 30! If I don't clear the cards for the week, I have to pay a forfeit to church or charity to resurrect me. There's no guarantee that the resurrection spell will work correctly, and I could end up cursed or undead or ?? I can use the Goodberry spell (one per Omega 3 rich food eaten) to undo the damage of one card missed. Cardio: terrain cards Strength: monster/villain cards Balance/flexibility: yoga, BOSU ball workout, any other agility related thing I can think of Nutrition: Omega-3 rich foods (cast the "Goodberries" spell for each one) Social: Place and encounter cards Omega-3s: Itchy skin and thinning hair .... hoping that it is just because 1) I have gotten older and 2) I have been eating more animal-based fats than vegetable-based fats. And ... Alaska. Hello .... let's eat some salmon!! A friend of mine from the SCA commented that she needs to figure out how to "people" again, and I agree. Teaching doesn't engage the small talk and social interactions, and I need to practice before I get on a boat for an 10-day cruise full of strangers. I think I can mostly do this with my Pathfinder and MTG Forgotten Realms cards, plus the ones that I am making. HUM >>> might get creative and actually make my own "playing" cards for the "game"??? And .... I might pick up some tokens to represent healing potions. For someone who doesn't currently play D & D, I'm looking at a lot of game props to help with this. I'm still in search of the dragon. The dragon is a lifestyle and set of habits to support health and a "normal" body weight and BF%. Not quite there, but last challenge, I pretty much coasted on habits and didn't gain weight. Didn't lose it or reduce BF% .... so that means I AM getting close. It just needs some minor adjustments.
  3. Hello my nerds!! WELCOME to my uhhh... 50-something-th challenge... (I lost count, hmm, I should recount and update my little brain huh?) here on Nerd Fitness! I am REALLY EXCITED about this one, because after the past Hell Year that I’ve dealt with, I’m feeling ready to lift myself up a little bit more and re-start setting some building blocks in place and kicking my own ass into gear. To do this I’m going to turn towards my past here - yep, I’m literally copying a challenge I did in 2015. Holy shitcakes 2015?!!?!! Wow that’s old. (Psst shaar, so are you.) 2.Did you know I keep all of my past challenges in a Google Docs folder labeled Nerd Fitness?? Well now you do (how exciting for you to know huh), and it goes all the way back to my first one in September 2014. 3. Obviously to say Nerd Fitness has been life changing for me is an understatement. I’ve been somewhat wayward over the past years and have also shouldered a LOT, but my last challenge rekindled what I already knew - these forums are invaluable and I’m ready to take advantage of that again! HO-KAY SO. 2015 shaar(awy) was just starting out and at this point in her timeline was getting ready to set some groundwork for GREATNESS. And I’m about to do it all - over - again. I’ll be editing these goals just a teensy bit to update them for Current Shaar, but the overall accomplishments are going to be about the same. With the help of a THEME - it’s been a hot minute since I’ve done a themed challenge, and in honor of this one (and the original content) I’m going to lean into the prettiness of the FF7 remake to get this going. ANDDDD I’m going to grade myself too, just like the frickin’ olden days! Ahahahaaa yeah here we go~ Quest 1 - Less Mako, More Mana So near the end of last challenge I took a big step away from alcohol and it was very eye opening. (DIFFICULT, but eye opening.) I’d been drinking a -lot- since my mom’s passing and to deal with my anxiety/depression/PTSD and it eventually started affecting everything in a negative manner - my sleep, my anxiety, my digestion, my weight - I am at the highest weight I’ve ever been and I know a lot of it is from boatloads of empty calories. I went a week with no alcohol and it was unreal what a difference it made in literally every aspect of my life. I want to keep this habit up!! For this quest, I will only have a drink if it is 1. At a social function, or 2. Friday evening or Saturday. NO exceptions. A - Nailed these goals and stayed within my lines! B - Managed to stay within these parameters for 4-5 weeks of the challenge. F - Captain Morgan called, he wants his boat back. Quest 2 - Stocking up on Sylkis Greens I’ve sat down with Ao and told him, once I get back from my NYC trip I am CLEANING UP MY DIET!!! No cookies, no delicious lemon sponge cakes, no brownies... I won’t cut treats out completely BUT I definitely need to moderate better. I’ve been eating way more junk than usual and IT ENDS NOWWWWW. Also I need to work on cleaner lunch solutions for me, and work to snack healthier. As much as we both love the occasional treat (he is a WAY bigger sweet tooth than me) I know we are both on the same page with preferring to eat as cleanly as possible, so I’m sure with his support we will be able to nail this one - this goal is all about fueling myself better! A - Managed to stay within my parameters for the whole challenge - and feel good about my choices! B - At least had 4-5 weeks of solid successes in the kitchen. F - Hello I am the new Burger King mascot......... Quest 3 - Training for AVALANCHE This is a big one too. Between having covid and traveling and general feeling unsavory-ness, my activity streak has kinda been in the shitter. I go back to work part-time after the 4th of July so before that, I want to take advantage of as much time as I have to set some good and consistent habits! My goal here is activity - three gym days (two weekday, one weekend) alongside one outdoor day - this can be hiking, kayaking, walking in circles around the neighborhood (or local cemetery, ps i looove walking through cemeteries, does that make me a weirdo) - but making consistent activity a better habit is the name of this goal! A - Nailed my activity goal every week! Yeah! B - Did my best but only managed 4-5 weeks of goals met. F - I have become potato. Quest 4 - Lifestream I’ve still got a lot going on over here, and the prospect of returning to work soon is daunting in multiple ways. As I forge onward and re-set these goals for myself, and figure out what I want and what serves me, I really need to stay present here and keep posting. Cheesy moment - I have many lifestreams in my life that keep me going, that uplift me and care for me when I need it. This place is one. So I’m gonna be here. A - Kept my promise and stuck the hell around. F - Fell off the wagon, ultimate fail. That’s it, pals! Digging into the annals of history to retrace my steps towards what works, and what will hopefully kickstart this path to me again!! In the famous words of Cloud, LET’S FUCKIN’ MOSEY!! (Okay I know he really didn’t say it like that but let me have a little bit of hype here ok)
  4. Ahahahaha yes hello hi GREETINGS once more~ I am returning from yet another half-done challenge where obvs I fell off the wagon - where even is my wagon now? Do I still HAVE a wagon hoo boy howdy... ANYWAYS TL;DR hello I am shaar, longtime forum member but heavy lurker as of late; my mom passed away very unexpectedly in September and the trauma and grief surrounding not only her passing but dealing with every aspect of her estate/proceedings/etc. has been sitting HEAVY with me and frankly I've been dealing with it quite terribly. As of April 11th I'm on mental health leave from my job and have since been firmly diagnosed with PTSD and have been having a WILD TIME with anxiety, depression, and panic attacks. I'm sure I'll unpack more of this ~*~exciting point in my timeline~*~ later but in the meantime... I'd like to maybe finish a challenge?? But only MAYBE. I've been going to therapy weekly and my session yesterday really opened my eyes about expectations - things I unwittingly set for myself.. how I've done it over my whole life and even now that I'm stepping away from everything, I'm still doing it, and it's not fair to myself! I'm a big fan of to-do lists but right now it's kind of counter-productive to what I'm trying to accomplish.. which is to retrain myself how to live without impending doom around every corner, and get back to some semblance of who I am. SO. I'm here with a non-challenge. No lists to tackle, no goals to reach. Zero expectations to just... see what happens. Somehow through all this I've managed to keep up a REALLY good gym habit - I'm there at least three times a week (because I have time now, wow what a concept) so things aren't all terrible! I have really good days but the terrible ones are just TERRIBLE but I guess I'm working on acceptance, too. Blah blah blah I'm looking forward to being more PRESENT and catching up with everyone and seeing where I'm at in a month?? There's still so much up in the air for me - and not having a plan SCARES me, yes I've brought this up in therapy ahaha - BUT I will do my best, whatever level that's at each day. I'm just gonna show up. I think that works for now! (Also sorry for all the John Murphy gifs, some days have been nothing more than binging The 100 and I have ZERO REGRETSSSSS)
  5. Hi friends - I went back and forth a zillion times about “should I post a challenge after falling off my last 183 of them” and I thought to myself… why not? What’s the worst that could happen, I make it 184? So hi, I’m shaar, and I’m 100% going through the motions. Since my last updates in January my mental health has gotten worse than ever and I am currently struggling with high functioning depression - TL;DR my mom passed away very unexpectedly 6 months ago yesterday and my usual chaos life has been waaaay more of a tragic tornado than usual. I’m dragging around an enormous amount of trauma and grief and poor mental health from having to shoulder every bit of her passing and estate myself and now that the dust has settled things have gotten worse instead of better. I’m honestly not even sure what this challenge will BE or how often I will try and check in but it will at least be something. I’ve made a big decision to take a mental health hiatus from my job, which is a HUGE point of my stresses - I am at the point where I can’t function and do my job at the level I need to and I need to back away to get better. I am pretty much expending all of my energy at work to Keep Up Appearances and not lose my mind that by the time I go home or the weekend comes, I’m spending 80% of it on the couch or in bed, and that’s Not Okay. That will start next month (if I don’t have a meltdown and quit first ha ha ha) for a few months so there may not be a whole lot of posting here until I can get to that point where I actually have energy to do updates or, you know, actually give a flying heck about anything at all. My nutrition has been somewhat tragic and my drinking has been a little bit excessive but I made a deal with myself yesterday that today the drinking was going to stop. So, there’s a goal! I haven’t been to the gym in a week but at least I hope to have the energy to tonight. And that’s about it! I will do my best to stay around this time and hang in there so I can start to get better and work towards CAPS LOCK SHAAR again.
  6. #Back2Music22 Several weeks ago over on Ye Olde Discord, several people were interested in a get musical again pact. I'm going to tag those lovely folks here, but absolutely anyone brave enough to click on a thread advertising a Bard Only party can most certainly join in! If you are a rusty musician looking to get back to it, a newly-minted bard hoping to learn your first notes, or a seasoned troubadour who never leaves home without your trusty lute, all are welcome here! @Starpuck @Cheetah @obax @bigm141414 Very sorry if I missed anyone, tag whoever you think might be interested!
  7. Well, jeez. It’s been a WHILE. I kinda don’t even know where to begin at this point..... HELLO everyone, I am shaar - longtime forum member from days of yore, wayward bard and time mage, liberal user of caps lock and bringer of the HYPE! If we haven’t met before hello and I hope we can be friends! If we are already friends, hello I MISSED all of you so much; your genuine kindness and support are what keeps me coming back here throughout the chaotic rodeo that is my life. So, where have I been? (spoilered for Terrible Life Events) But enough of what's been handed to me. I feel that more than most I am always in flux; today shaar is in a very different place than last year’s shaar, or even two years ago. Ten years ago? TOTALLY different person. Living in a totally different place, completely different people and situations. Change is a constant companion and I’ve learned to take it under my wing and find ways to make myself thrive with it. The entirety of my life has been a wildly stark dichotomy of brilliant highs and lowest lows - there is rarely an in between. I've had some amazing experiences and am somehow through it all, a very lucky person. I have shouldered a lot of loss and unfortunate events. The past three months have seen me at my lowest ever. The sun is starting to crack through the void a little bit and I’m convinced that 2022 is going to burn brighter to me than anything, EVER, before. So here I am. LET’S FUCKING GOOOOO, YEAH??? OVERARCHING GOAL Don’t fall back into The Void. My sub-goals all center around BETTER HABIT BUILDING. V. important. Regular fitness schedule. I’m grateful through all of this I have a body that not only puts up with me but allows me to lift heavy and pretty much do what I want. It’s been a solid three months since I’ve done anything remotely fitness-related; I will take advantage of the fact that I am in good physical shape and get to the gym three times a week. Eat better. NO more mozzarella sticks for dinner! NO more leftover pizza at 9am! NO more holiday candy! I will make smarter meal prep choices for work lunches that contain more protein and more veggies, and I will cook us a healthy homemade meal twice a week at least - once during the week, and once on the weekend. (Leftovers FTW.) (Also I fuckin LOVE cookingggggdsfjlksd) Dry(ish) January. Full stop admittance that alcohol has been a coping mechanism for me through all of this madness. I will keep any drinking to Friday night and Saturday ONLY. Keep up with posting. It’s been harrrrd for me to keep up with the forums, mostly because the only chance I have is at my desktop (posting on my phone makes me want to curl up into a ball and fade away) but I now have a bluetooth keyboard for my iPad so hopefully that will help???? (YES it will~) I considered making a 2022 roadmap for my goals but then I realized my existence could be classified as “shaar plans and the gods laugh” so then I ALSO laughed and said to myself, YOLO HERE WE GO FOR NOW~
  8. My mother died in October (at age 85). My daughter got married in October, and she and her new husband are starting to talk about having kids. This has prompted some new soul searching on my part - and some thinking about what I want to accomplish in my life. And some thinking about what I want to BE as a grandma. (Disclaimer - my daughter is not yet pregnant and doesn't plan to have kids for 2 years, which gives me time to lose 40 pounds .....) I was a "cool mom." My daughter looks back on her childhood with fondness - at horseback riding and rock climbing and hockey and soccer and cheerleading and theater and Girl Scouts and videogames - and appreciates how she had freedom and support (I was involved in everything but cheer) to do a lot of different things. That kinda ended when she went to college and I began to slide into habits of an empty nester. I gradually started to internalize the messages that say "you shouldn't be doing that" or "you shouldn't dress like that now that you're over 40/50/60/whatever." Truth is, I want to have FUN and BE FUN. I want to be the grandma that shows my grandkids how to do cartwheels and handstands. Takes them rock climbing. Knows the names of all the constellations and birds .... and who will dig for worms, go swimming, take them hiking, and can help them find well-hidden geocaches. I don't want to be like all of the grandmas in my family (who are, unfortunately, sedentary lumps perched on top of atrophied, skinny legs) who sit around doing needlecraft, or bake a lot of unhealthy foods, or sit in front of TV or computer. I want to beat the expectations of my family and avoid the stereotypes of what a middle-aged woman does and how she dresses and acts. Specific goals will evolve over time, but .... there's the current list!!! Fitness Lose weight and gain muscle (127 lbs and 21% BF by May 2017 - when my daughter will graduate with her Ph.D.) Do a chin up unassisted (again) Do a crow pose Do a handstand Travel Go to Greece Go to Rome Go to London Do the Unexpected Blackbelt in karate Do a Zombies Run Do the ZR Virtual Race Volunteer as a zombie at a Zombie Run Do a bubble run Do a color run Do an obstacle course run Do a 5K Do a 10K Do a half-marathon Bike to work (at least during decent weather ....) Keep Learning Master's Degree Doctorate Learn modern Greek Get my Personal Trainer Certification Defeat the Fashion Police Wear tights and a tunic Wear tights with a skirt
  9. HELLO THERE and WELCOME to what is probably take 38 of Shaar Actually Posting Enough to Finish an Actual Challenge......... WILL IT HAPPEN??? Ahahahahaha yeah hmm we’ll see about that~ >:3 Hi friends, I missed you! Brief Intro: Hello I am shaar!! I’ve been here on and off for almost a decade now (!!!) and it’s no joke when I say that Nerd Fitness changed my life. I’ve lived up and down the east coast but am currently (and very happily) settled in a comfy little town in central Massachusetts not far from where I grew up. I live with my boyfriend of almost a year now, he is the absolute best and I love him x 4980358740. We are both very much health and fitness nuts (he is extremely fit and is an actual himbo) and both of us being on the same page helps so much when making healthy food and lifestyle choices. I play a LOT OF VIDEO GAMES maaaan I really love video games, I’m still playing XIV but not so much, kinda burned out there, but I’m also into Genshin Impact and the new FF7R DLC with Yuffie AND I played the Swords of Legends Online beta last week and man I cannot wait to lose myself in that flashy xianxia bullshit when it comes out for real wowow I love cooking and being outside and horror movies and video games (duh) and reading and well pretty much everything. My life is unbelievably amazing and I’m grateful for it every day, I’m certain I’ve gotten to where I am with 50% hard-ass work and 50% luck, somehow I rolled a nat 20 in LUCK, it is a very high stat, also CHARISMA, I am max CHA and am an actual bard, my dump stat is INT and I’m not even sorry about it. BRIEF HUH SHAAR JEEZ Anyways hmm ok. SO on the real I hemmed and hawed about even making this challenge 500 times ‘cause my biggest enemy really is - finding the time to post. I work a 40 hour week in the office (and I adore my job), aside from that I’m at the gym or watching movies with Ao or having dinner with my mom or just being out and about, I’m very out and about lately, so I’m worried I’ll kinda fall off the log or whatever with keeping up here. The new forum format STILL OVERWHELMS ME A LITTLE but I’m gonna do my bessssssssssssst. (also an excuse to use a bunch of wei wuxian gifs HA) SHAAR GOALS! - THE GYM! GUYS. After nearly 4 years (since I left North Carolina wow) I have found a killer local gym with LOTS of racks and actual DEADLIFT PLATROFMS and shit! !!!!!!!!!!!!! Nothing fitness-wise has hooked me as much as lifting, ever, and I’m SO STOKED to be back at it. Like I don’t even have words for how happy I am. I’ve gone twice and yesterday was my first leg day that I blew out of the water and am feeling the DOMS BAAAAAD today. But I DON’T GIVE A HECK. This goal will be easy; lift three times a week. My plan is to go one morning (they open at 5 am) before work, one day after work, and one weekend. (Side goal for this - don’t break your ass) I’m so ready to get back to a good routine and see my stupid little noob gains and rebuild my muscles and get STRONG AND FRESH TO DEATHHHHHHHH. - Eat smart. In the past I’ve struggled with fueling myself properly for lifting heavy - I may or may not have been a victim of the ol’ carb flu MORE THAN ONCE OK int dump stat there it is pals - honestly my diet is pretty neat and clean overall BUT I know I’m going to need to add more protein and good carbs overall. My Fitbit is going to be a huge help with this so I know exactly what I’m expending energy-wise and I may track my food on their app ‘cause it’s SUPER SLICK but long story short - don’t eat like a shitface. - POST HERE. THIS IS MY HARDEST GOAL. HONESTLY. I will do my best, I love my friends here SO MUCH and I always feel guilty when I can’t be as present as I want to. Posting used to be so easy for me ‘cause honestly I’d do a lot of it at my old job in NC or when I worked from home here but all of that is gone now and honestly, covid really made me REALLY jangly being “online” all the time, so I’m really on the go a lot more than I ever have been just being able to be OUTSIDE. But I will try my hardest to strike a good balance here. I wouldn’t be where I am without the support of my friends here and I really mean that 50048095%. Ho-kay that's all I've got for nowwwww, I'LL FINISH THIS CHALLENGE JUST WATCH ME~
  10. - - - Her favorite time of day was twilight, where the sun had barely crested down beneath the horizon, lifting one last futile glow of the promise of daytime against the encroaching night sky. The melange of dying gold merging into the comfortable slate-blue atmosphere of whatever bits of daylight were left, giving way to the yawning darkness of space. She found it fascinating and sat, enrapt, small form curled into itself under her fur-lined charcoal cloak, chin resting on bent knees as she just... watched. She watched the sky change before her eyes, the colors dance and fade and darken into nothing, and Shaar was unaware she was holding her breath until she let it out slowly in one low, metered hiss. The vastness of the night sky had always been one of her favorite things; comforting in a way, in its deep endlessness. She could understand why so many people feared the night, why they were uncomfortable with it. But she somehow managed to thrive when the sun was long gone and the cloak of eventide settled about her shoulders, heavy and familiar, like an old friend. She remained motionless for some time, sitting in what could have been considered a quiet reverence, nimble fingers of one hand delicately trailing against the fixtures of bone settled in the wristwrap of her other; mindless, a moving meditation as the motions continued in diligent repetition. Bottle-green eyes remained bright and fixated on the endless expanse before her, slowly adjusting to the darkness as night finally settled in for the long haul. Stars and constellations began to dot the blackness, and a small smile curved her lips as she watched them come to life, one by one. She was waiting for someone, but she sure didn’t mind biding her time this way either. “Hey, stranger.” As if on cue, Shaar heard his voice behind her. She sat up just a bit straighter, leaning her weight back into the cluster of rocks behind her, head tilting just a bit to break her gaze from the sky and allow it back over one shoulder. The Fury approached quieter, much moreso than she remembered, and the thought elicited a crooked smile. “... Revenant been giving you tips on how not to be a bull in a china shop?” An indignant snort as the redhead stepped into view through the trees. “And fuck you too.” His form flickered briefly as he spoke, effervescent, but there was a lilt of a return smile in his words - the man moved to sit unceremoniously at her side, mimicking her posture intrinsically. Shaar smiled a bit wider then, leaning comfortably against her familiar, and they sat in silence for a long few beats before she spoke. “I’m sorry.” “‘S ok.” His reply was almost instantaneous, and the two turned to look at each other, gazes locking for another long moment before The Fury lifted one shoulder in a dismissive shrug. “Weird times, dude. ‘S all good. Really.” There was a subtle emphasis on that last word, and he moved to rest one hand on her knee in kind. Shaar dipped her chin, drawing her hands out from beneath her cloak, one lifting to smooth wayward dark hair away from her face. “Everyone doing ok?” “Mhm. Getting along. Revenant’s teaching Light how to paint. Not quite masterpiece level yet, but..” He continued as Shaar chuckled softly at the mess that likely entailed. “Voice’s... well, Voice. Full of riddles and shit. ... He’s good. They’re good.” The man paused briefly. “But I’m sure you didn’t ask me here to catch up on the family.” Family. That word sat with Shaar for a moment before she shook her head slowly. “.. You’re right. I didn’t.” The reply faded into the darkness of the night sky as she turned her gauntleted right palm up, fingers splayed just so, and as if on command something of a holographic map spread up and out from the crux of her hand into their vision. Bright white dots and lines against an empty backdrop, some larger, smaller, brighter than others, all mimicking the emptiness above them. Some small texts, very foreign and barely opaque, littered what could be the edges of the chart. The patterns reflected brightly in their eyes; his warm gold, and hers cool green. The Fury let out a long, low hum, copper brows furrowing as he watched, Shaar’s free hand moving the map as if it were a touch screen - enlarging certain areas, and shrinking entire galaxies to see them whole. He knew what it was. A trickle of adrenaline danced up his spine as he posed the first question - “Where are we going?” “Don’t know.” Her reply was soft, and he considered it thoughtfully before posing the second - “What are we looking for?” “Don’t know.” The same response, but he could catch the lilt of a faraway smile in this one as delicate fingertips swiped across the map, seemingly keying in quick patterns at key points to allow a swing to a whole other viewpoint. The Fury sighed, running one hand through his hair as bright eyes flitted from the map to the cosmos above, and then back to her. “Fuckin’ a dude, what -do- you know?” Shaar laughed quietly; a tinkling of silver bells that instantly reminded him of The Light, and it made him catch his breath quickly at the sudden resemblance. “Not much.” There was a wild smile curving her lips as she tilted her head towards him once more, a single dark brow lifted in return. “You coming?” “Wouldn’t miss it.” - - - » Shaar kom Starkru bardic time-mage; of the furious heart, traveler 'twixt the stars FRIENDS!! Did you know, 2021 is gonna be our MOTHER FRICKIN’ YEAR??!?! I’m so hype I can’t even express it in proper words adkslf asfklgsdj lfasjd dasjldas SEE?? We are surviving a Global Chaos Shitstorm and we are going to move forward - TOGETHER! - and show 2021 who the boss is. (Spoiler: US.) Brief introduction for the new friends or otherwise memory-challenged (that’s me big time); hi! I’m Shaar, native New Englander who grew up here but moved away for some time to some places, returning after a long stint in North Carolina 2 years ago. I love it here and can’t envision being anywhere else; for many reasons and after many adventures, this is now Home, and in short time I'm about to move in with my boyfriend (hence forth Aoshi, or Ao) and am 10/10 looking forward to this change. Life has not been easy for me and I’ve seen my fair share of adversity and wildly unexpected struggles but thanks to my sheer screaming willpower - and the humbling support of my friends here - I’ve been able to eventually tackle every obstacle that’s been put in front of me. I love being outdoors and exploring everything the Northeast has to offer, and I’m also a huge fan of horror movies, traveling, cooking, and - video games - something you’ll probably hear a LOT about here, ehehe. Fitness-wise I’ve dabbled in everything, from powerlifting to yoga to boxing, and my current Life Setup (thanks to covid) has me utilizing the work treadmill and weight sets, which honestly isn’t so bad. I’ve had some setbacks, but haven’t we all?? I’m so excited to be here with you all and tackle our goals and succeed and ALSO progress Shaar's story a little bit and write for her... SO! LET’S GET ON IT YEAH?? [roadmap] I’m super into the night sky, and always have been. I do however, struggle to find constellations - weirdly enough the ONLY one I can continuously pinpoint is Orion’s belt which is WILD ‘cause it’s legit just three dots in the sky, like, of all the shapes and chaos mess up there how does that even work? Anyways friends there are APPS that can do this for you, you just fire that sucker up and point it at the sky and BOOM there’s Libra! I’m sure no star traveler but I want to see how much I can see! Try a star finder all (or two!) and share my findings. [phase shift] I am moving on Saturday the 2nd, in true Shaar fashion, a whole 48 hours into the new year. ‘CAUSE WHY NOT? This will take some adjustment on my part, as obviously I’m not used to cohabitating with a partner since the past... 3? Years? Aoshi and I have gotten the house set up already so now all that’s left is to get my stuff in and set up my room. I expect this to be quite a flawless transition to be fair but lots will be different, so this goal is to execute this as effortlessly as possible and report back with my progress. [arcane texts] My Kindle is old and busted (seriously, I have the original Fire, BIG YIKE) BUT - I’ve found that I can use the Kindle app on my iPad! I’ve been jonesing to read more lately, especially once I’ve moved and have a bit more time under my belt, so my goal is to finish one book in my library from start to finish. [culinary charisma] Pulling one of my end-of-2020 goals into this challenge; MORE COOKING! I have a laundry list of things I want to make for Ao and I once I’m in and settled - and the list is ever growing - so my goal for this challenge is to make two sick-ass dinners for us and get this ball rolling! (Also the boy has one of the best knife sets I’ve ever been able to use LORDY LORD I am hashbrown BLESSED~) I'd be honored to have you along for my travels~ Friends, we go, TOGETHER!!
  11. Wowie wow wow last challenge of the year AND my 50th - yike I’ve been here for a hot minute, huh? This challenge when completed, will be number 50 for me. And that’s just the ones I’ve successfully finished, not counting the pile of half-assed incomplete challenges where I’ve fallen into a void hole or something. LEVEL 50 IS PRETTY BIG! As always I’m so grateful for this community - for all of YOU - for always being here and being so supportive. Nerd Fitness has really seen me shoulder some of the hardest times of my life and somehow come out screaming on the other side, and I credit a lot of that to the support I’ve found here and the fitness and wellness that’s been a big help in keeping my head on straight. If I can repay even a little bit of that it’ll be my absolute delight. So, THANK YOU for helping me get here! I've also taken a big liberty and edited my ENTIRE opening post - thanks to Rangerbrain and everyone's DND characters popping up of late, I finally decided to sit down and not only write a character sheet for Shaar, but to retool my goals just a smidge to align with her classes. I've written for Shaar LOTS in the past, so it was an easy transition into an actual character format. And while I've written MANY character sheets in the past for my own creations, anything DND-related is so out of my wheelhouse, so this is all a bit of my own liberties (and my own fandoms) here. :3 Without further adieu... » Shaar kom Starkru bardic time-mage; of the furious heart, traveler 'twixt the stars Race: Human l'Cie Alignment: Chaotic Good Stats: STR 5 | STA 4 | WIS 7 | CHA 9 | CON 6 | DEX 3 Appearance: Shaar is short of stature, clocking in at a huge 5'3", but don't let that fool you; you know what they say about little dogs having the loudest bark? Yeah, that generally applies here. Long dark hair is often pulled into a high ponytail, various small braids woven into bits of it, adorned in kind with an assortment of small feathers and beads at their tie-offs. Jaw-length bangs frame a pale face that nine out of ten times is harboring at least a ghost of a smile, if not on her lips then lingering in forest green eyes. She is generally clad in dark colors as per her preference; layers of fur and leathers that seem comfortable and well-worn enwrap her small form, a pair of charcoal over the knee boots topped off by a light hooded cloak draped across her shoulders, fur-lined and dotted with various bone pieces and feathers along its hem. Despite her egregious nature she prefers to dress diminutively, save for a few special notations - her right wrist bears a gauntlet of sorts, a distinct covering of delicate bones settled in a single layer atop her forearm, all fitting together a bit too neatly - a single ring rests comfortable on her right ring finger, a set of pewter-cast swallow claws clutching a bezeled moonstone - and an intricately stitched leather belt slung low across her hips, housing more than a few sheathed short knives, and a small pouch containing... who knows what. Personality: Charismatic to a fault, there is a reason Shaar is a bard first and anything else second. She is a textbook extrovert and 9 out of 10 times will be not only ready, but thrilled to strike up a conversation with anyone, anytime, about anything at all. A patron acolyte of The Fury, Shaar is also a very steadfast and tenacious individual and can be very forceful in her ideals and beliefs, or defending those she cares about or shows loyalty to. She is always very off the cuff, joking and casual in most any situation - if you witness her get steely and serious, you know shit's hit the fan. She's got a temper and often swears like a sailor, but for the most part her heart is in the right place and she tends to funnel her wild exuberance into mostly non-reckless behavior. Talents: bard; There are many darkened taverns, in far-flung areas of the world, where legends exist of a small girl effectively shit-talking alpha thugs to the point of rendering them speechless. This is the legacy of Shaar - not only demeaning bullies and adversaries into a pile of mush with her continuous string of curse words and putdowns, but also flipping that skill completely around to support and enliven her friends at the drop of a hat. Nothing brings Shaar more joy than being able to bring laughter to a friend or ally in their darkest hour - well, aside from trash talking criminals, naturally. time-mage; A traveler and shepherd of the stars, not by choice, but by nothing more than circumstance and necessity, Shaar has the ability to hold the fates in the palm of her hand. Existing in multitudes across worlds, the burdens she has shouldered and overcome have opened the doors of locked away and arcane abilities, allowing her a myriad of resources to not only entrap and hinder her adversaries, but to benefit herself and her allies on the field of battle as well.. l'Cie; Shaar is a l'Cie - a human chosen by agents of the world's gods as servants to fulfill a focus or greater task. She knows very little of her racial upbringing, save that she is a patron of The Fury and that she harbors quietly long-lost attributes of the time mage, a sect of people little known to her world. CHALLENGE GOALS Bard [ "Cool story, bro~" ] A bard always has stories - I want to be more present on the forums. I know this is HARD for me because I'm always going 500 miles an hour but I want to work to share more with you all over this challenge; more updates, more wild stories from my life (because I have a LOT), more interaction with you, my friends! [ Provoking Cantrip ] Keep fitnessing, twice a week at the VERY least. Treadmill, lifting, see how your elderly-ass skeleton is feeling that day! And do it. Simple as can be. Time Mage [ Cosmic Deceleration ] My life is a textbook example of “man makes plans and the gods laugh” BUT, I’d like to sit down and hang some goals for 2021 that I’d like to strive for. I have a few ideas rolling around in my head already and a lot going on (AS USUAL) but it’d do me good to solidify that shit so I can hit the ground running - as always. It's time to look ahead and plot my course. [ Stellar Interconnection ] Y’all I feel OLD lately. My knees hurt. My shoulder gets in the way of *gestures vaguely at life*. My back feels like an old-ass oak tree. I know I can do better at this because I have in the past and duuuuh I also own a fair amount of GMB Elements. I know better in that everything in my body is connected and I need to set myself up for a good 20-30 minutes of stretching and mobility twice a week. Foam rolling, tennis ball on wall, downward dog, ANYTHING that gets my elderly-ass skeleton moving more than sitting at my desk all day. OK friends, that's all I've got! Let's finish this year out HOT and then show 2021 what we've got!! (Hey, it's almost like I'm a real bard, you know, the rhymes..... ehehe~ )
  12. Oh hey look I changed my name back~ IT ME! DON’T CALL IT A COMEBACK, I’VE BEEN HERE FOR YEARS (that’s a ll cool j song you know) And hopefully maybe this time my dumb ass can finish a challenge? Maybe?? ? ? ??? Hi friends, I missed you all so v. much So Loire is back to Shaar because let’s be real, that’s who I am, and like my name change I am also.... Back to basics here. My life has been STUPID busy and somehow it’s all good shit despite Madam Rona rearing her ugly-ass head again lately... cases here are climbing slowly again (like I’m sure they are for all of y’all too) and I’m just like, can people just BEHAVE for a little bit so we can kinda maybe get back to a little normal? Maybe? PLS? Anyways, thanks to the Madam here, I’ve shelved my boxing classes for the foreseeable future ‘cause I just can’t confidently get back to -that- kind of normal right now. It sucks but it’ll be there in the future. In the meantime I’ve gotta figure out what the fuckadoodle I’m doing over here to keep myself from turning into a Chaos Manatee. GET IT TOGETHER SHAAR HERE ARE SOME GOALS Do fitness things. Guys did you know my workplace has a gym? AN ACTUAL GYM? Our owners added a gym onto our big expansion last year and we just finished it up like a month ago and there is - a treadmill - an elliptical - fuckin’ BARBELLS - a whole ass bathroom and shower - this is the part where you slap me and say SHAAR YOU HAVE BARBELLS AT WORK and you are not USING them1?!1/!?1# I know I know I know.... I know. My plan is to come in on Saturdays when no one is here and go to work, and ALSO one weekday after work, to be determined with how I’m feeling and what else I’ve got going on that week. Keep prepping lunches. I have SLACKED at this over the past month. I like to meal prep for Monday through Thursday and go out for lunch on Fridays but SOME days... uh.... Weeks...... I have gone out to lunch ALL week. It’s not good for me and it’s a money pit and I need to stop throwing money out the window because of some plans I’ve got unfolding (see: next goal) SO. Meal prep. SUNDAYS. Do it. No excuses. Get yourself together. Honestly I’m somehow 20/10 together even in this chaos timeline BUT - I’m moving in with my samurai himbo boyfriend within the next couple of months and I need to ASSESS MY SHIT. We are both STUPID excited for this and I could just go on and on about how wonderful and lovely and thoughtful and sweet and excellent he is but I won’t put that evil on y’all, your teeth might fall out or something. I’ve already started going through my accumulated stuff since moving back to New England but I need to not lose momentum here so I can be ready for a clean and easy move when it happens. Paring down the clutter, stowing/packing my summer stuff away for easy transport, and making a shopping list of things I’ll need to buy are all on deck for me. (Did you know I’ll have my own BATHROOM?? I’m gonna make it look SO COOL GUYS) STAY. PRESENT. Keep up with my thread and MORE IMPORTANTLY, y'all's. I'm playing lots of video games (natch) and having lots of adventures and I need to share them all AND, share in yours too! This may be the hardest goal of them all but I swear I'll make it happen! I miss my nerds like BIG TIME and I'm gonna do my best, I promise!~ Despite the chaos life is good, really REALLY good, I’m somehow very lucky to be right where I am right now. LET’S CRUSH SOME GOALS FRIENDS!
  13. Hi friends! Welcome to my throwback challenge, in MORE ways than one. :3 Everything is Chaos and I’m feeling like I’m in some ways, starting over, cobbling together a new routine in a world that doesn’t look like it’s going to be going back to the normal we know anytime soon. The goals I was pushing for are either unavailable right now or just don’t fit into the life I’m living, SO. It’s time to go back to the start and tackle some throwback goals to start building a new foundation! What better to do this with than the remake of one of the best and most iconic RPGs ever? FF7R is absolutely the best video game I’ve ever played, hands down, I play a LOT of games, and I could write an essay on why it’s so perfect to me, buuut I won’t. I’m even going with a THROWBACK FORMAT to the old days of many of our challenges! HAH! What is the world coming to?! (Don’t answer that.) Ok pals, LET’S MOSEY~ CLOUD STRIFE Don’t be a shithead. Seriously. SERIOUSLY. I have to make myself a goal not to be a bitter shrew. But that’s where we are. I’ve been digging deep lately to look past the things that make me angry - the things I don’t have, that I feel slighted on, that maybe I feel like I deserve after all I’ve done? - and not let that bleed into my social relationships. The isolation’s making me a little more edgy than usual; my fiery heart is good for a lot of things, but not when it’s burning a resentful hole in my own chest. Cloud’s a shithead when you first meet him, just in it for the money, stay the fuck outta my way, blahblah. But that all changes slowly but very surely, and he begins to open up and care about his teammates. The remake does a VERY good job with this and the transformation from Angery Fuck to Empathetic Friend has been a blessing to witness. Goal: realize when you’re angry at things out of your control. Deal with it - journal, yoga, do some creative writing. Do not isolate from your friends or shun them; create your own light. AERITH GAINSBOROUGH Aerith is an absolute sweetheart and I will fight anyone that tries to hurt her. Real talk. She is also the last of her kind, an Ancient, and as it’s described in this game, “a steward of the planet”. It’s finally springtime, and this isolation from Pandemic World and working from home is doing a number on me. I need to get outside AT LEAST once each weekend. It’s been kind of hard because all the parks I try to go to are flooded with people - and the state has actually been closing down certain state parks because of it for safety reasons - but every little bit I can find it a help to me. TIFA LOCKHART Tifa is just #goals. She’s strong, beautiful, kind, empathetic. The way they fleshed out her personality in the remake is absolutely perfect and I LOVE AND SUPPORT HER. Tifa’s dealt with some shit but she’s never let that make her any less strong. I’ve dealt with some shit too, but I’m slowly turning into a marshmallow. Now that I’m kind of “settled” (ha ha) with our current situation I need to make whatever consistent fitness I can make happen, happen. For me right now it will probably look like: Kettlebells - 2x week. Yoga - At LEAST 1x week, optimally 2. This is subject to change if I’m having a Week from Hell or if a giant meteor drops on us, but this is my plan as of now! BARRET WALLACE Barret somehow is this amazing mix of shooting his gun and cursing like a sailor continuously while ALSO being an absolutely kind and compassionate leader and friend and it’s perfect, his personality in the game may almost be my favorite. He takes NO SHIT and is VERY LOUD and has NO RESERVATIONS about letting people know how he feels. He’s true to himself and his comrades and he never wavers from his goals. I want to vlog more but I am always so lazy about doing it so I’m going to just GET IT DONE. At least 2 vlogs this challenge. I promise not to yell and swear a lot, well, I’ll do my best! Ok, cool, coolcool, I have ACTUAL GOALS this time that can start kickstarting some progress in this wackadoodle timeline we find ourselves in. BUT WE GOT THIS. WE CAN DO THIS! And I'm glad YOU are here with me, nerdfriends~
  14. HELLO FRIENDS Actual goals coming soon~ [edit] Actual goals are here! .... Kind of~ This is a real loose theme around the gacha game Arknights. TL;DR, you're allowed to do missions until your Sanity Meter (upper right) runs out; it's kinda a way of throttling player advancement so the game can be experienced over a course of time, as opposed to binging everything all at once. (I like it, it encourages me to step away and do other things~) How the actual shit do I keep my sanity meter intact while the world is burning, though?? I somehow have been able to soldier on and keep positive throughout this ridiculous chaos timeline of ours. At the time of this writing I've been temporarily laid off of my job (myself and about 1/3 of our staff, we will re-up once everything gets back to normal) and am collecting unemployment benefits, caring for my 67 year old mom who has numerous autoimmune issues, and our state is about to enter lockdown tomorrow. IT'S INTERESTING TIMES! I need to set myself some baselines: - Don't drink like a shitbird. - Don't eat like a shitbird. - Try to keep moving. At-home kettlebells, yoga, take advantage of my boxing club's on-demand service. - Make sure you shower and dress like a normal person. Try to keep a regular sleep schedule. DO NOT fall into The Pit. - DON'T PANIC. (I've been doing pretty good at this) - ADAPT to whatever happens. (I'm also ridiculously good at this one, thankfully.) That's.... really pretty much it. I'm not here to over-extend myself, but to stay the course and do all I can for my friends and family while I have the positive headspace and bandwidth that I do. Let's get through this, together.
  15. Hi guys! Holy crap what a big challenge! NERD FITNESS 10 YEAR ANNIVERSARY!!!! Can you believe it?!!? I can’t!1/!?11 It was the fall of 2014, and I was at Forever 21 trying on cute dresses for work. I remember trying on some in my usual size, 6, and it was just the breaking point. Nothing fit, nothing zipped up right, nothing felt good, I felt like a human sausage and I’d finally had it. A bad dress shopping experience finally put my path back into my own hands as the next day at work I googled “fitness for nerds”. And the rest, as they say, is history. This place has literally changed my life in more ways than one, and I often can’t find the words for how humbled, grateful, and proud I am to be a part of this community, and to be YOUR friend. (Yes, you, reading this, you are my friend whether you like it or not, but I hope you like it~) So along with the usual goals, there’s going to be a special one too... OK PALS LET’S GET THAT BREAD (do the kids even say that anymore???) (also don’t get too much bread just a moderate serving every once in a while ok too much is bad for you) Food Tracking I’m starting with the big one, the down and dirty shit I hate.......... Food logging. I’m becoming WAY more active lately and I really need a baseline of 1. What I’m eating calorie-wise and 2. How much protein I’m getting. I don’t want to crash and burn if I can avoid it OBVIOUSLY, so. Log everything that I eat on the ol’ MFP. GO TEAM Conditioning + Mobility Holy Hannah pals if boxing has taught me one thing it’s that while I think I’m fairly fit, I need some WORK. I’m not used to cardio and being so active on my feet and I need to work on supplementing that - along with continuing my lifting - so I can progress and keep being awesome. I’m going to observe myself and add mobility work into my week at least 3 times depending on where hurts most - ankles, wrists, my entire flesh corpse - and make sure to take care of myself. Consistency I think this is a goal that a lot of us seem to be working on building... staying consistent. I love winter (fun fact it’s my second favorite season) but gosh does it come with some doldrums - like right about THIS time of year. I need to be super mindful about not succumbing to The Lazies and make sure I work out 3 times a week - boxing for one, lifting for the other two, or vice versa if I feel I’m ready to make that change this soon. One week at a time! Write my Story Not just my narrative (although that will pop in here too) but my Nerd Fitness story. I was inspired by our favorite Sloth when a few months ago he posted a list of all his accomplishments he’d achieved since coming here, and I really want to do that too. I’ve come so far in more than just fitness aspects, and what better time to get it all down on (digital) paper to share with my best pals?? Super excited to celebrate this big milestone with everyone and see what goals we are all gonna SMASH!!
  16. Hi pals~ I sat around and thought on this challenge for a while. The first challenge of a new decade?!1?!? That’s BIG RIGHT?? What should I -do-?... Start over. 2019 was a big, big year for me. Perhaps one of the best of my life. There was a lot of luck involved but also a lot of hard work on my part with adjusting to literally a Whole New Life and, not gonna lie, I killed it. But some other things took a backseat in the meantime, namely my fitness and health habits. I look back to when I first joined NF in 20...14? And I’ve backslid a lot. Not quite to that starting point, because I’m armed with a LOT more knowledge now, and a base level of fitness, but pretty close. And honestly, I’m really not very disappointed... more like excited, ‘cause the only way for me to go from here is UP. I know I’ve got a lot of work to do, and it won’t be easy, but I’m ready. My main goals for this year are as follows, with corresponding challenge goals branching off beneath: 1. Take better care of myself. In many ways. This one is the most important. Obviously fitness and nutrition and fixing my donked up body are very much at the forefront of this, but over the past few months I’ve come across an interesting bit of introspection about myself - I’m lonely. It’s certainly not a crippling thing, nor anything that invades my day to day heavily, but it’s there in the undercurrents. While I’m not sure exactly what to -do- with this knowledge, I’m at least aware of it, so that’s half the battle.. Right?!!? - Deep Tissue Massage set for January 8th. Minimize damage until then - stretch at least 3x a week, foam roll if you can. - After this, back to the gym! Three times a week, no excuses. - Keep batch cooking lunches. Keep it healthy - this hasn’t been too challenging. However, WATCH THE SNACKS. This is the toughie... Loire you can only eat gnarly snacks TWICE A WEEK OKAY. Cheese curls, chips, whatever; only twice. This is a big rule. - Drink less. This is another toughie. I’ll openly admit that I’ve been drinking more than usual over the past month or two to manage and process what feeling lonely is like - I’ve never dealt with this particular beast before - but now it’s time to stop using it as a crutch because it does nothing for me. Drinking only on Friday and Saturday nights, and that’s that. 2. Level up my cooking skills. GUYS I. LOVE. COOKING. I really really do. It’s one of my favorite hobbies, it’s relaxing and nothing brings me more joy than pulling off a complicated meal and having it be awesome. And just cooking new stuff - one of my new favorites is butternut squash ravioli with a brown butter sauce and garlicky green beans - and I’m ready to do more, and put my resources more into this hobby. - Cook at least two new dinner meals over the course of this challenge. Post them! - One of them must make use of............. THE BROILER. ( Backstory: I am scared of the broiler because it gets so hot and what if it blows up my kitchen and also my face and I become like Harvey Dent Two Face for the rest of my life but ALSO I know this is a very unfounded fear but the broiler is WEIRD guys, every time Tank brings it up on his thread I’m like aaaaa and so it’s finally time, to use, the BROILER.) 3. Buy a kayak and roof rack for my car. Y’all remember playing Legend of Zelda for the first time as a very impressionable 6 year old and that moment when you realized you could take a raft out into the water to get to the next dungeon and you were like totally hype and stunned like WHHHOOOAAAAA?!!?!1?!/ No, just me? That feeling is how I feel about kayaking!!! I love it. It’s an absolute adventure for me and exploring is one of my absolute favorite things in the WORLD and I want to do more of it. Unfortunately, I know very little about, uh, making a smart purchase - brands, types, yadda - so this will require a little legwork. But in the meantime, paving my way to this: - Pay down all credit cards and get to zero debt ASAP. This should not be hard for me, and I’m planning on siphoning some of my tax return into this project, but it’s important for me and my list-oriented financial brain to start from square one. That's it; that's my story and I'm stickin' to it. I'm so thankful to be able to be here and have you all as a support system, it's just like... I don't even know how to put it into words. No matter how many times we try and fall, or stray wayward for a bit, this place is always here for us - me - to come home to and it's just... invaluable. I'm humbled and grateful to have everyone's support while I work to figure out my on-fire chaos life, and I'm honored to be able to contribute my support to yours. (Not saying anyone else has a chaos life.) (But if you do, that's cool too~) (I LOVE ALL YOU GUYS OK ) LET'S DO THIS THING TOGETHER
  17. MY FRIENDS, WHAT IS UP I've kinda taken a bit of time away from the forums in my last challenge - October's been a busy month full of commitments and fun and AWESOMENESS. TL;DR I'm still actively living my best life and after some time away - and away from everything to reset and recharge - literally tho', I'm currently spending a week at a little coastal New England cabin and it's PERFECT - I'm ready to slam the reset button on my goals and GET GOING AGAIN. More details to come but I wanted to get this post going 'cause I'm HYPE. Goals will SURELY include: - GYM TIME SHAAR YOU BUTTHEAD. I NEED to get back into this routine. 3 times a week, zero excuses. - Get outside! Log 3 adventure hikes this challenge before it gets butts cold out! - I have two open credit cards right now, and my goal is to pay them both down before 2020 hits. Bigger win if I don't have to use any part of a holiday bonus to do this. I want to be able to start directing way more money into my savings account and I've been super aggressive with my debt so far, I just need to stay on target through the holidays too!! - READ MORE. While I was away for a week I took my Kindle with me and started reading one of my favorite old books, Lost Souls by Poppy Z Brite... it's so good, it totally digs my aesthetic of like 90's era queer southern gothic vampire culture (I know that sounds weird but I too am weird) and I want to re-finish this book and start another one! Goal is to finish this book and buy another one, and finish it too!! - MORE VIDEO GAMES! I haven't actually been gaming a lot lately - I know, shocker! - because October has been so busy! But now I'm back home and with much less commitment going into November so I want to stream some games and show you guys what I play!! I have a Twitch account at twitch.tv/loiire/ and will stream at least 3 gaming sessions over the course of this challenge. I'll announce ahead of time when I'm doing the live streams, but I'll also post the finished video on my thread so people can watch afterwards. What games will I choose?!!?!/1?! WE'LL SEE~ :3 Ok more later, ciaociao for nownow my pals~ <3
  18. Gather 'round ye young and old. Listen close as this story unfolds. I tell the tale of a party of four and the epic adventure that was in store. PRIDE is the name! Slaying is the game! There was a fiery barbarian, a fallen hexblade, a clerical modron and me, the horned bard - little did they know, this adventure would be hard. PRIDE is the name! Slaying is the game! Through dungeons they would explore and monsters they would battle, the journey ahead would be a difficult one traveled. PRIDE is the name! Slaying is the game! Would they succeed? This was a question they would find out later. Lest the group forget that their DM was Dark_Raider. PRIDE is the name! Slaying is the game! What he had in store was an ongoing story - as this oddball foursome sought friendship and glory. PRIDE is the name! Slaying is the game! If you would like to see how this story ends, then stick around as the fun just begins. PRIDE is the name! Slaying is the game! Welcome, welcome, welcome friends! I'm so glad you're here! A new challenge has begun and I'm excited to be back with the Rangers ! If you're behind on the times with what's going on in "Wolfie's World" then let me catch y'all up super quick: I'm working 2 jobs now...over 70 hours a week. I nap like it's going out of style. I workout like a cocaine addict. Aaaaaaand, I'm starting my very first D&D campaign with the wonderful and talented- @Raxie @Jarric and @Starpuck ! We are graciously being DM'd by the legendary @DarK_RaideR and I could NOT be more excited to start our story. If you would like to know more about the specific "party of adventurers", then please head on over to their respected challenges and check out all the cool stuff going on there! If you caught it up above, I am playing the bard. This is a class I didn't realize how much I identified with IRL and I'm honored to not only play a Bard, but a sexy, lute playing Tiefling Bard . Ok, so maybe not EXACTLY like that one, but you guys get the gist. I have horns, a tail and a love for music and stories! My charisma is my main stat and I'm not afraid to charm your pants off...literally! This challenge will center around my Tiefling Bard, Arkaryn (Are-Care-In) Riftripper. Race: Tiefling Age: 25 Height: 6’2 Weight: 190# Hair Color: Dark brown Eye Color: Violet Skin Color: Light Blue Class: Bard/College of Valor Background: Arkaryn “Ark” grew up in the village of Ruinspoke. His father, a bard himself, was entrusted as the lead musician of the Full Mugs, a tavern owned by a male dwarf named Temget, whom prided himself on his homebrewed beer. Ark grew up loving music and hearing the stories of many adventurers and their travels into the various ruins that surrounded Ruinspoke. He longed to adventure and make a name for himself when he came of age and set out on his own when he turned 18. Gifted in multiple instruments, Ark was prolific with the lute in particular. As a parting gift before he left, Ark’s father had given him his old lute, an ebony colored beauty with gold engravings. Along his journeys, Ark met a dragonborn named, Otivull, who was training with the Lance Defenders, and the two became best friends. Ark taught Otivull how to sing and play the lute while Otivull taught Ark how to fight. The two had many years adventuring together and earning coin before Otivull’s Lance Defender squadron was re-stationed and the two inseparable friends lost touch. Ark found himself back in Ruinspoke for a time being, playing at Full Mugs tavern with his aging father. The longing for adventure still held strong in the Tiefling’s heart and after a year, he set out again to make a name for himself. It was on his next adventure that Ark would meet Jyotika the Fire Genasi, Penemue the fallen Aasimar, and Cog the self-aware Modron. What happens next is a story still waiting to be told... This is how I see Arkaryn looking like (except he's light blue with violet colored eyes): Handsome, huh?? The rest of my challenge outside of my D&D campaign will involve two things: Steps & Reps. Goal 1: Steps Did you know that for every 2000 steps walked equals 1 mile? Well, since starting my second job at Costco, I've realized I've been taking a MASSIVE amount of steps. On average, I get about 12k steps in a day (if not more). Over the coarse of a 5-day work week, that's 60k steps, or around 30 miles walked a week. And that's NOT including anything extra on my days off. 30. Miles. A. Week. And that's on the low end. Yesterday I had 15,972. The day before was 15,182. That's 15, almost 16 miles walked JUST on the weekend. My goal is to track my steps daily and see how many miles I can cover over the coarse of this challenge. My goal is 175 miles walked over the next 5 weeks. That's 35 miles a week. I think I can achieve that goal. Bonus points for anything over 175 miles. Possible Points Earned: +4 STA, +1 DEX Goal 2: Reps This little workout thing I've been doing....I've got it down these days. I don't need to track my daily/weekly workouts. I do however want to track how much weight I'm moving per workout. I will do this by multiplying the amount of weight in each set including reps, multiplied by the total number of sets per exercise and then continue this process for each exercise in the workout. An example would be today's workout: 4 x 6-8 BB alternating reverse lunge 2 x 115# x 6 (each side) = 2760# 2 x 135# x 6 (each side) = 3240# 2 x 6 seconds leg lockout iso 4 x 6-8 DB lying triceps extension 1 x 30’s# x 8 = 480# 3 x 35’s# x 6 = 1260# 4 x 8 DB high pulls (40#’s) = 2560# 2 x 6 seconds cable high pull iso 3 x 12 Deadlift (125# x 12) = 4500# 3 x 10-12 DB bench press 1 x 40#’s x 12 = 960# 2 x 45#’s x 12 = 2160# 3 x 10-12 chin up grip lat pull down 1 x 100# x 12 = 1200# 2 x 115# x 12 = 2760# Drum roll... dibadibadibadibadibadibadibadibadibadibadibadiba... TOTAL WEIGHT MOVED = 21,880# !! Possible Points Earned: +3 STR, +2 DEX Goal 3: P.R.I.D.E aka Party of Ridiculously Interesting and Daring Explorers Dark_Raider coined the term: P.R.I.D.E in our discord last week and we all just loved the idea of it! With the unique group make-up we have, it's likened to popular titles such as Guardians of the Galaxy and Suicide Squad. I'm really excited about this whole thing and can't wait to learn the D&D ropes from some of the best! This goal ties into the D&D campaign. I want to: Have weekly updates on how the campaign is going, interesting facts and short story write-ups from Ark's POV if time permits. Ark's starting spell list: Cantrips- Vicious Mockery (you know this one's gonna be a lot of fun!) Minor Illusion Ray of Frost (due to my Levistus racial variant) Spells- Charm Person Sleep Healing Word Hideous Laughter Ark's Starting Stats: Strength- 8 Dexterity- 15 Constitution- 14 Intelligence- 10 Wisdom- 12 Charisma- 16 Possible Points Earned: +5 CHA (because, duh! Charisma is my most important stat! ) It's good to be back with the Rangers! Can I get a woot woot for my lute lute?! Wolf
  19. Okokok HI FRIENDS~ I've based this challenge theme off my two favorite classes in FFXIV - Bard and Dark Knight. ( I know, you're SOOooOOoOOoo surprised~) Y'all know what a bard is obvs but the Dark Knight class is a tanking job with a big sword (see above) that's pretty much a combination of My Chemical Romance and Hot Topic and too much black eyeliner and has skill names like Delerium and Quietus and The Blackest Night IT'S NOT JUST A PHASE MOM The challenge theme really isn't apropos of anything, I just like the classes and wanted to cram them together to birth DIRGESINGER. (Also I have never played Dirge of Cerberus, isn't that a crime??) Also this time of year is my favorite and my dark little haunted heart loves a spooky New England fall.......... I guess I should set some goals, huh?? :3 So I have a LOT GOING ON in the next few months (aside from my normal hijinks) - mostly trips! I finally sat down and populated my personal calendar the other day with all my upcoming stuff and I was kinda like The things that will fall within this 5 week span are as follows: - Work trip to Texas for training (Monday 9.16 - Wednesday 9.18) - Saturday on-call shift (Saturday 9.21 from 9-2) - Tattoo consult (Tuesday 10.1 9:30am) - Work charity event (Saturday 9.5 all day - basically we have people submit applications for a family in need that needs a new hvac system and we choose a winner and go and install it all for free <3) - Tattoo appointment (Monday 9.7 9:30am) - Weeklong coastal MA vacation in a bomb-ass beach cabin with The Boy (Thursday 9.17 - Thursday 9.24) After that I've got a trip to NYC for a show with K, she is coming to visit here in December for another show in Boston, somewhere in there I have an audiology appointment to find out why I Don't Hear Real Gud, hopefully scheduling a dentist appointment sometime, the Holidays (HOW IS IT SEPTEMBER ALREADY) and just surviving I guess phew. PHEW. Anyways here's the shit I want to upkeep amidst the chaos: - Gym three times a week at minimum. - Keep batch-cooking work lunches. - Weekend drinking only! - Outdoor activity at least once a week! I'm a weirdo and want to visit as many historic New England cemeteries as I can this fall. - Finish Z'jai's new roleplay profile website AUGH JUST DO THIS SHAAR. I'm going to be doing some minor recruiting for my FC soon and I want to have this done and looking fly before I do. - Be mindful of my health. After my recent bloodwork, while it's nothing to be concerned about right now, I need to keep a closer eye on myself and how I'm feeling and take precautions to take better care of myself when I'm having an achy day, and find out what works for me. <3 - VLOG MORE, I want to try and do one vlog a week as an update!!! Okokok I think that's all for now thanks for coming to my Ted Talk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
  20. *emerges from a secretive cave beneath a mysterious mountain a week late, as is per the norm lately~* OHO~ Crap guys it sure has been a while huh. HELLO HI GREETINGS! Jeez, where do I even start now?? Okokok, TL;DR version RQ - Last August I uprooted my entire life in North Carolina to move back home to Massachusetts. It’s been a long and, at times, heavy adjustment period as Literally Every Aspect of My Life Was Different. It’s been almost a year since the move and I feel like I’m finally at a point where I’ve settled into a comfy work/life balance - I’ve been at my job for 6 months now and I ABSOLUTELY love it, like, I just, there are no words for how happy I am to work where I do. I love being back home in New England, my sleep schedule is FINALLY regulated so I’m not all strung out, I’m able to integrate my job and my commute with getting to the gym and getting outside and doing things and still being able to lead my XIV FC events and have fun and be social without stretching myself too thin and it’s just. GREAT. V. v. great. So this is the part where I try to slowly add one more plate to my balancing act, and it’s returning to have a presence here. While I won’t be nearly as active as I used to be - work is SUPER strict about internetting on the clock - which I don’t mind at all but it’s v. different from my previous job where I was Around All The Time. I want to do my best to post when I can on my lunchtimes and on weekends, so I guess I’ll just..... Do my best?? Very Simple Goals: Gym, 2-3 times a week. I’ve been doing this! Go team!! Planet Fitness is really my only option and I’m discovering it’s really not the worst, but there sure are some Characters up in there. Keep batch-cooking meals. I’ve been doing this too! It’s definitely made a difference nutritionally and also FINANCIALLY. My weight/comp sure isn’t where it was when I was powerlifting, but frankly I could give a fuck because I am actively living my best life right now so, YOLO~ Keep posting here, and tackle life as it comes. And start checking in on everyone else more too! I MISS Y’ALL!! I want to know what’s going on in your lives so I’m going to do my best to carve out time for posting. I have lots to talk about - buying a new car soon! - visiting the New England coast for a week before Halloween with The Boy! - finally getting the tattoo I’ve wanted for ages! - I’m growing tomatoes in the backyard! - Finnegan related shenanigans! - and of course, the 3976 video games I’m playing........ OKAY here's to keeping up and LIVING OUR BEST LIVES WOOOOOO PARTY TIME Y'ALL LET'SGO~ ~ ~ ~
  21. HI GUYS It is... springtime! (Is it? ???) Everyone is posting pics of leaves and blooms and flowers and I'm still looking out the window at bare trees and freshly mulched plots just w a i t i n g ............. Anyways my life has been 110% gogogo since uh. January? When I started my new job (which I love), and since I started fitting the gym back into my life routine (which I also love), so keeping up with challenge goals outside of DON'T FORGET TO SLEEP has been HARD for me! Life is seriously great for me right now after a long string of struggles and adjustments, so for this challenge I'm taking inspiration from the brilliant suggestion of @Urgan and we are gonna go.... IYASHIKEI. (surely you are thinking, shaar what is that WORD what does it MEAN i have never SEEN this word in my life???) Iyashikei (癒し系) is Japanese for "healing", a term used for anime and manga created with the specific purpose of having a healing or soothing effect on the audience. These anime can be about anything, and they tend to be slow-paced and peaceful – the complete opposite of action anime. Their stories meander as they draw viewers into their worlds, giving them a relaxed, joyful feeling. Iyashikei anime are meant to help audiences momentarily put aside their troubles and remember to appreciate the small delights of life. So we're gonna chill it out in here this challenge - no goals, nothing to achieve, my only accomplishment will be to be mindful when things get slam bang bananas and do my best to take a deep breath and not run my poor skeleton into the ground. (I mean I know they eventually GO there but you know, prematurely.) ... No wait, I lied, my second accomplishment is to get out and EXPLORE MORE. I want to use my weekends for getting out into the New England countryside, the mountains and tucked away sanctuaries of nature and beauty. There is so much around here that I never noticed (or rather, paid attention to) when I was a kid, and I'm real hype to start a short list and get out to see everything there is to see!~ I'll take you guys with me and take photos and videos of the rural mountain life, promise. IYASHIKEI. If you need a good vibe or a chill moment, you know where to come. HERE. It's here, y'all. LET'S DO IT. <3
  22. Hihi y’all, WOO NEW CHALLENGE TIME~ I was gonna write a little bit of narrative for this originally but the nerw boards go up faster than a duck on a junebug lately so, time, not on my side. OH WELL. Perhaps later? Anywho, welcome back to the Furyheart Chronicles!~ <3 What is a furyheart? It’s everything I aspire to be - full of confidence and optimism and unstoppable fire, ready for adventures and whatever the world decides to throw at me. Knowing I can take on whatever obstacles come my way and come out the other side, while not necessarily unscathed (very often very scathed let’s be real), victorious. It’s my inner strength and indomitable spirit, it’s never saying die, and after a long period of change and struggle, it’s finally coming back to me. YESSSSS~ ~ MY GOALS! While they’re nothing as epic as ‘climb a mountain and punch a sasquatch in the face’, they’re slowly becoming more ambitious than ‘don’t succumb to the siren song of the void’ from a few months ago. I’ve got big plans and I’m setting the groundwork. So HERE WE GO! :3 1. PHYSICAL FITNESS THE GYM, guys, I love the gym, I’ve been gone for TOO LONG and it’s so good to get back. It feels like home. I’ve been consistent for 3 weeks now and my goal continues with lifting 3x a week; one day for legs, one for chest and back, and one for shoulders and arms. 2. FINANCIAL FITNESS My financial situation is very different now - but in a good way! I’m not used to having a fair amount of money and I’ve been a little frivolous with it - this coming from a VERY frugal person so I’m sure my ‘going out to lunch’ frivolity is minor - but I want to get a good handle on what I’ve got coming in vs going out so I can save and plan for the future. I’ve researched budgeting apps and am going to be using EveryDollar (thanks shadri!!) for the span of this challenge and track EVERYTHING! <3 3. MORE PHYSICAL FITNESS KINDA Limit alcohol ONLY to the weekends. I need to be stricter with myself on this!! IT’S BETTER FOR ME!!! 4. SOMETHING ELSE MAYBE I may add something else here IDK yet OKCOOL that’s all I got for now ZOOOOOOM LET’S GO NERDS~ <3
  23. (it rhymes~) *runs in like some kind of maniac* WOWJEEZ it's new challenge time already??!? Where does the TIME GO.... Hi guys, it's me Shaar, and here's where I'm at right now in my crazy chaos life!~ I'm at a new job and it's been rolling for two weeks now, and I'm starting to get settled into more of a routine and schedule. I've been thinking about my goals and while I wish they could contain consistant fitness, right now, I need to admit that just can't happen. With everything going on it's just not a current priority, and I'm okay with that. BUT, I've got a lot of big plans and ideas simmering in my little bard brain, and to get back to my unstoppable furyhearted self I've gotta do it the right way and start with building myself a solid foundation!! That's what this challenge will be for - setting a baseline with consistent habits that have definitely fallen by the wayside while I was unemployed/stressed/in the pit/etc. SO. My goals are as follows: 1. STAY HYDRATED. It's so dry here y'all. Cold northern winter air and oh hey I live on a mountain now cool, it's doing a number on my poor skin. I'm not used to this AT ALL and my poor dry irritated face is coping the best it can, but I need to drink more water. I can tell I'm not drinking enough, I'm thirsty a lot and my energy levels dip and ugh. My goal here is 60oz of water per day! 2. EAT (AND SNACK) RESPONSIBLY. Now that I have a real schedule again I need to make batch-cooking my lunches a priority. I've been doing this already for the past two weeks but I also want to expand this to include - buying smart snacks to stash at work, and NOT forsaking my homemade lunch to go down the street to Moe's or something. 3. STAY OUT OF THE CANDY DISH. Hrrrgghhh okay we have a candy dish at work and I've been eating candy out of it ok I ADMIT IT. They're so good though it's those little hard fruit candies with the soft filling. I will allow myself ONE (1) candy per day. NO MORE. 4. WRANGLE THE SLEEP SCHEDULE Here's a toughie, phew. Last week I had a hardcore insomnia streak during my second week of work and almost lost my mind. Things have evened out since then but I still find myself waking up at 3am a lot of times for no real reason other than ???? [insert any reason here really, it's all nonsensical]. I know my system will even out eventually but right now I need to get to bed at the same time every night. This may be subject to change, but right now my goal is for weeknights, to be in bed by 10pm and set my alarm for 6:20am. (Earlier in case of inclement weather.) 5. TAKE YOUR VITAMINS. EVERY DANG DAY. I just edited this because I'm at lunch and almost forgot my vitamins AGAIN jfc shaar get your shit together here Okokok I think that's all for now. I have more plans and ideas I can't WAIT to put into action but I have to be careful not to let my RangerBrain take over and, yeah. ONE STEP AT A TIME!! <3
  24. As dust gets swept away by footsteps of the newly arrived, a few pick pen and ink to dribble on recent developments. Many have perished on this path, many might never attempt it. “A man goes to knowledge as he goes to war: wide-awake, with fear, with respect, and with absolute assurance. Going to knowledge or going to war in any other manner is a mistake, and whoever makes it might never live to regret it†-- Carlos Castañeda, The Teachings of Don Juan: A Yaqui Way of Knowledge You have accessed Aeri's battle log, and are welcome to give input or press for oath keeping. Much love, - Aeri
  25. "You have to give it a name." The words were a gentle tug, but she couldn't bring herself to open her eyes yet. She wasn't sure where she was, how she got here, even who she was… The Voice seemed to sense this, somehow, and continued speaking. "Yours is Shaar Al-Khatabi." Ah. That sounded familiar. She mouthed the words slowly, 'al-khatabi', as if pronouncing them for the first time. But they were hers, through and through. Shaar Al-Khatabi continued taking slow metered breaths, the air brisk and cold in her lungs and equally heavy in scent, each one a little less shaky than the one prior as she slowly began to extend her senses outward to her surroundings. Fingers of one hand pressed gingerly into the ground she lay curled on; slightly damp, cold, spongy. She turned her hand, feeling leaves and pine needles against her palm, and honed in on the sensation against her skin as she brushed them aside. And one eye finally opened, slowly, gingerly, to confirm her suspicion that she was in fact, outside. She blinked slowly, trying to clear her blurry vision in vain; sunlight dodged through a heavy nest of branches above to illuminate the forest floor, autumnal hues of leaves stretching as far as the eye could see, piled aside age-worn stumps and massive tree trunks and strangely stacked rock piles. It was all too much - sensory overload - and Shaar squinted her eyes shut again quickly, curling a little tighter into her fetal position. "I feel like I've been poisoned." Exhaustion reigned and each enunciation was a struggle, and barely audible as they passed her lips. But he heard. "I know you do." The words were soft, kind, and tinged with a thread of regret. They settled around her like a warm blanket, comfortable and reassuring, and Shaar quietly relaxed her limbs and opened both eyes this time to have her gaze settle upon The Voice. He crouched at her side, unthreatening, slight in stature and in shape. His clothes were a shambles of rags and there was something about him she couldn't quite place, and perhaps it was his youth that caught her off guard; he was barely a scrap of a boy. Their gazes locked for a long few moments - hers that of a wounded animal, lost and frightened and scared, and his of nothing less than loving kindness, and Shaar felt the world around her slow as her breath hitched in her chest. "We're all so proud of you. All of us." He reached out one small hand, settling it delicately on the crown of her head as he spoke, and at the touch a single tear slid from one eye, curving slowly along her cheek. "You've done so much. Seen so much. Come so far." His intonation light and airy, like the first flakes of snow drifting from the sky on a cold winter day. Like the brief oft-lost moments of the morning where the sun glitters newly across the ocean. The pad of his thumb moved slowly across her temple as he spoke; back and forth, rhythmic. "We've been watching you for a long, long time. You are so skilled in conquering adversity in your path. It's why We chose you. But this challenge… this one…" The Voice let his words trail off as he lifted his hand from her head and moved it to his side, digging amidst the scraps to retrieve what seemed to be some sort of box. It was circular in shape, barely the size of his small palm, and as he held it out to her Shaar regarded the item with a quiet curiosity for several moments before extending her own hand in kind, gently taking the item with dirty fingers. The box had a hinge on one side, and she turned it over and over in her hands a few times before slowly flipping open the lid, steeling herself for whatever may come out or be lying in wait inside. "This one is different." There was a moment of quiet shock, and bright green eyes widened as Shaar found that she was staring right back at herself from the mirrored lid. - this one is different - Time froze for a brief few moments as the words rolled in her head, and Shaar slowly understood the task that lay before her. She let out a slow sigh, tilting her head to one side thoughtfully, watching her mirror image do the same. "This one is different," The Voice reiterated, kind but firm. "And you have to give it a name." She answered in one smooth word, voice lilting with the syllables. "Karaoghlanlar." ---- Hi my friends, and welcome (almost) to 2019! And also welcome to the story of Shaar. A while back I stumbled upon my old Nerd Fitness character I made eons ago, and it seemed to come at the right time for me, as inspiration with what to do with myself moving forward. I've always loved writing and have tried narratives a few times but they've always flamed out. This one though... we'll see, I'll do my best! It'll evolve as I do, and I think that'll be easier and more flexible on my creativity. ( The Karaoghlanlar are the nine evil sons of the Mongol deity Erlik Knah, the god of death and the underworld! ) 2018 was kind of a shit show (kind of??) and moving forward everything is going to be, and needs to be, different. Things that I thought worked for me in the past don't anymore, and I've effectively set myself back to square one to figure out what does work, and how to reawaken and move forward. This challenge will be different too, because this time none of my challenges come from outside, but instead inside. I'm still kind of in a hard place mentally and need to effectively deal with myself and learn how to take care of myself better, and all over again. My first challenge is my biggest: 1. Drink Less This is the big monkey on my back right now, and while I don't drink to excess at all, I still drink more than I would like to and I know it's not good for me. It's not a healthy way to cope and I don't want to do that anymore. It's bad for my skin, it's bad for my weight, it messes with my sleep... I KNOW all this but it's still hard to avoid "just one drink" to relax, and then it turns into two, and sometimes three. DO NOT WANT ANYMORE. My goal here is to not go cold turkey, but if I do want to drink, do it only on the weekends. That's it. Simple, huh?.. 2. Move Intentionally I've become so sedentary due to a. not working yet and b. it being winter in New England, and it's doing a number on me. I feel it in my achy body and my energy levels and this too, is not what I want. I'm not sure what I -do- want fitness-wise anymore, but that'll come in time, and right now I just need to get moving. 30 minutes of intentional movement at least 4 times a week. This can be anything from yoga to mobility work to getting outside. Just do something. 3. Find What Works This last one is less pass-or-fail but more trial-and-error - my self-care toolbox is empty and I need to find out what fits in there now. The first 3 months of a new year are always the hardest for me mentally and emotionally, and I have a feeling 2019 won't be any different... I need to keep a close eye on myself and figure out how to navigate these tricky times now that I'm in a whole new world. That's it! I'll start small, and see where it takes me. <3 ALSO HEY HI SORRY SO SERIOUS SHAAR WHERE'S THE CAPSLOCK?!!?! RIGHT HERE MY DUDES~
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