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Gah. I'm not sure what to say here, but I know that I need something to keep me accountable. Urgh. Allons-y! I'm a newb. I have tons of knowledge, and know things in theory, but when it comes to practice, I suck. Hard. I lose motivation far too easily, and when things hurt, I don't do it. I've been taught not to do stuff that hurts, since I have chronic pain, but that's not helping me at all. So, I'm going to try to work through it this time, finally. Right now I want to focus on my diet, and do some easy exercise, but eventually will start going to the gym again. Here's my start. Here's today. Almost 23 years old, 5'8", 317 pounds. When I tell people this, they seem genuinely surprised, so hopefully that means I carry it as well as I'm told. But no matter how not-fat I look, I am. And I'm tired of it. I'm making changes. So I have a few goals. Some may be my 6-week challenges, others may be a month-long thing, but these are some of my most immediate things to work on and build habits for, in no certain order: Lose 30 pounds by 12/21/14Get to bed with no distractions by 11PM on weekdaysEat a healthy breakfast each weekdayTake a walk at lunch each weekdayI have a couple short-term life goals, too: Pay $200.00 to my medical debtSave $500.00 for a school trip in DecemberPut $300.00 a month into savings account (and don't spend it!)I'm hoping that by taking care of myself, I can eventually stop hurting my damn self (not self-harm, just general health weakness/dumbassery) and get out from under my medical debt. I want to eventually be under 200 pounds, because I am tall and have a big frame (wide shoulders, hips, ribcage, the whole thing). I worry that my "ideal weight" is under 180, which seems far too thin, but I want to eventually get myself (and maintain!) a weight between 175-190. But first, I want to lose 30 pounds and get fitter by my trip to Chicago in December (which actually won't be til the 26th, but holidays SUCK). So, yeah. This is my new beginning. Lunch time, good time for a walk!