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Hey Rebels! This is Big Adam coming to you with his post-Camp Battle Log! It also happens to be his first battle log . I've been around the forums for about a year and a half. I've done a few challenges and haven't been super-active, but now that I know a few rebels in real life, I'm hoping to get on here more often. We'll see how it works out. This first post is going to be a bit meandering (and BIG). I'll start off with my big takeaways from camp, then the goals and daily disciplines I had going before camp, then my thoughts on where I'd like to go in the future. I'll be doing a bit of external processing as well to figure out what my plan will be going forward, so bear with that. CAMP NERD FITNESS RECAP Oh my gosh. I knew camp was going to be a blast, but didn't expect the community to be quite so awesome. I knew I was meeting fellow nerds so we'd hit it off, but damn, the positive vibes were incredible. I'm still drinking in gallons of positivity from the facebook group.. Quick Summary: For the first time, I took workshops on Parkour, German Longsword-fighting, Tae-Kwon-Do, and Slacklining. I took classroom sessions on Nutrition, Storytelling, Confidence, Goal Setting (The curiously-titled "Sexification), and "Eating to be a Sexual Beast" (Way out of my comfort zone, but there were some great insights into the parallel between food-relationships and person-relationships). Outside of formal sessions: I met some great people, did Kali sparring with a fellow camper (don't know if he's on the forums), taught a few Kali drills to fellow campers (yo, Rowan!), and had a surprise Capoeria lesson and session! WTF! Oh yeah, I also danced a ton, wore a Steve Rodgers Costume, Lots of glow sticks, and bright yellow women's clothing - in that order. So camp was a blast, but what am I taking back to my everyday life? Here's what I got: On the diet side, I want to add some fermented foods to my diet besides yogurt and also ensure that I'm getting enough protein.Make sleep a priority - I already knew this was important, but Maggie's "Sexual Beast" class really drove it home.Meditation is awesome and I want to establish a daily practice other than using it just before bed to help me sleep.Mindset: This was the big thing (isn't it always?). The confidence classes - plus seeing the other campers being their weird, vulnerable, awesome selves - really drove home the importance of being authentic and not shaping my words and actions around what I think people will think. As Rog Law would say, conserve your fucks.Pre-Camp Goals and Plans: A few months ago, I laid out the following goals for myself: Health: Get a flat stomach by December 2015Career: Submit Peace Corps application by June 2016. Obtain a position as a Project Manager sometime in the interim. Not crazy about my current job and even with the Peace Corps plan, I'd like to get something new and move my career forward in the meantime.Mindset: Develop an unshakable confidence in myself, accepting my imperfections even as I seek to better myself, and freely, unashamedly show my true self with people.Romance: Get a girlfriend whom I'm crazy about.Social: Find a core group of friends in my new townReligious: Find a church or group of Christians I can relate to. I've been a Christian for my whole life, but in recent years have been deliberately moving away from a lot of fundamentalism and exclusivity found in many churches. I'm trying to find one that's a little more open minded and values the things I do.Hobbies: Reach Level 5 in my Kali / Wing Chun Club​For the Kali, I was going to my club consistently. Peace Corps - i joined a volunteer mentoring group called Friend Fitness which actually meshes amazingly with me and would mesh well with any NF member. Social and Romance, I've been taking more opportunities to get more social and go on meetup. I've been a little lazy on churches. Regarding the rest, I was attempting the following daily disciplines: Calorie-Counting and staying under/around 2100 calories/day (number derived from the IIFYM calculator) Daily Exercise - even if only a warm up - and Stretching. Bodyweight strength Train 2-3 x/week. Career work: 10 mins of a Project Management book/day 1 NoFap Video or Exercise/day. (Warning: if a frank discussion of a sexual topic offends you, don't read the next paragraph) Consistent Bedtime (around 11:00) Moving Forward (This'll be short. I promise!) A bunch of thoughts have been bouncing around my head the past few days. One is that I think a performance-based fitness goal would serve me better than a particular appearance. Another is that counting calories sucks and I takes a lot of time and takes the joy out of my food-relationship. I think I'll go back to eating Primal and not sweat the calories. I definitely want to add a 10-minute meditation to my morning routine. I did that this morning. I'll just need to make my lunch the night before. Not too hard if I'm not counting calories anymore. For strength training, I'm thinking of focusing a bit more on mobility work. I have a hard time getting into a full squat unless I'm warmed up. I'm thinking of checking out some of Kate G's products. I kind of wish I'd attended more of her sessions at camp. As for authenticity and confidence, I think it's just a matter of doing the crap that scares me and remembering "My only goal here is showing up authentically. Whatever the result, I win if I do that". I may set up confronting certain social fears as part of the next six-week challenge. Not sure yet. And thank you all for reading that Mammoth Post! Good Lord, I have a lot of thoughts in my head. As a reward for sticking around, here's a picture from Skies of Arcadia: My Favorite game of all time. An RPG about Sky Pirates that deserves a little more recognition and the source of the "Blue Rogues" name.

Last challenge I started with the theme of doing one challenge for each Color Kid: Here's the backstory for that. Last challenge was Red Butler, and I addressed social and relationship goals and that went about as well as most challenges, started out one way, and ended up really fucking different, but still great! This time around it's LaLa Orange LaLa is very sweet, frilly, and feminine. She can often be found primping and preening until she looks, as she puts it, "just so." She is a vivacious and energetic girl who knows exactly what she wants, and she usually gets it. Though she can be a little pushy and overbearing at times, she means well. LaLa is quite flirtatious, especially with her favorite beau, Red Butler, on whom she has a giant crush. Orange, the color of energy and zest, is hers. (see why I said I have most of her already figured out, lol!) So basically she is me (or how I see myself anyways), but a super girly beauty queen version, which I am able to do, I just don't, but I think I need to find a balance in it, just like everything else. Let's work on that, shall we? Goal 1: Develop and implement a basic daily/weekly beauty routine by week 2, and continue it for the duration of the 6 weeks (dudes like smooth legs and hair that doesn't make you look like Radagast) Goal 2: Get dressed neatly everyday (a questionably clean tank top and pajama shorts, is NOT dressed) Goal 3: Drink at least 100 oz of water a day (its good for your skin) Goal 4: Follow the NFA Dumbbell Level 1 workout (because muscles are sexy)

I am doing the exact same challenge as last time. ok, so maybe I don't want to be THIS big... but I DO want to be strong enough to do this easily. Short story: There is NOTHING like doing a few Kino MacGregor videos when you are 259lbs to make you realize just how weak and out of shape you are. (except I lost 10 lbs last challenge, so now it's 250...but still) Over the last 10 years, I have addressed and dealt with a lifetime of trauma and abuse, and changed dramatically, but also gained 100 lbs. The last 2 years have been about coming to grips with the fat me and loving myself despite what my body looks like...and just recently I turned a HUGE corner with that, and it's time to move on to the next phase of becoming who I want to be (and she isn't a princess...weird!) and that person is not 260 lbs and someone who plays video games all day long to cope with life. She is an active, fun, happy person who can do anything she wants with her body and loves her life. So it's time to get un-weak and un-out of shape and un-fat. So it's time to get strong, because getting strong will build muscle, increase my metabolism and help me lose fat and be able to do the things I want to do, but I am also going to be addressing cardio and flexibility, because you don't get to be a super yogi who can run whenever she wants, without doing those things. I am planning to keep the same 4 year-long goals I started last challenge, but the exercise portion will be a mix of yoga, cardio and strength and I am going to cold turkey sugar and dairy, seriously! I realized I am not capable of small steps with stuff like that and it happening, and it's not about my emotional health, so it's not going to screw up my head. I didn't quit drinking or smoking or drugs a little at a time, I said "no more" and walked away and never looked back. This has to be the same. TL;DR-- Goal Summary 1. Consistent Wake Up/Bedtime 2. Consistent Exercise Routine 3. Consistent Cooking Dinner 4. Read 2 Yoga Centric books this challenge 5. Cold Turkey Sugar & Dairy