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Last month I turned 30. I was not looking forward to it; I thought it meant that I was running out of time to do everything I wanted to and that it was the start of a massive countdown to when I was going to have to have kids (or not) and blah blah blah. I think I set up a self-fulfilling prophecy there with those negative expectations, even though I had a plan for all the great things I was going to to do and awesome new habits I would start and all of that. Well, I didn't have a real tracking/accountability system aside from the blog I started, which I haven't even been brave enough to share with my friends and family. So, super useful. Also, I got hit with all sorts of surprise obstacles: An old injury came back with a vengeanceWork got really difficult and really stressful with plenty of overtimeI wasn't paid on time and had to get by on a few dollars a day for a couple of weeks (welcome to Kazakhstan)I found out my on and off ex started dating someone (just a month before I was supposed to go see him in America)I had to move to a new apartment because mine had so many problems (landlords in Kstan are pretty useless)So basically lots of great excuses for all those great plans to go right out the window. Three weeks later I don't think I've made any solid progress at all on any of my goals. I guess now that my new apartment and job are a bit more settled, I've accepted the situation with my ex, and I've been paid, I can hit the reset button. So after one last cheat day yesterday where I put all of my last negative feelings into that red wine and dark chocolate, I'm ready to start over today. I don't know if anyone reads other people's logs here, but if you do and want to send an encouraging comment that would be amazing. I'd love to meet someone who needs an accountability partner or just wants to swap messages from time to time. I seem to be the only Rebel in Kazakhstan. If you have any interest in reading about how I'm coping with turning 30 (I REALLY DON'T WANT TO BE 30, but I'm working on it), living/working in Kazakhstan, or other very random things here's my blog: http://30isthenewwhatever.wordpress.com (Hasn't been updated this week--oops) Okay, here we go.