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Day 1 okay so here it is January 1st and I have started trying to better myself yet again. OMG is this frustrating. I have been trying to do really good today on watching what I eat and drink, but here it is 8:35pm and I am STARVING. I have learned today - again - that I need to make sure that I am planning out what I need to eat on a daily basis. I keep looking around my room looking for something to eat. Positive thing is that I really don't have anything in here to eat. But at the same time that is just making me even hungrier. UGH! LOL So even though I am still starving, I think today has been a good day. I haven't had any pop/soda, I have recorded everything that I have eaten, and I am journalling about my day. Well I haven't gotten into my day yet but I am going to because it is super easy. Work today SUCKED!!! You would figure that fast food would be slow on a holiday - which if we were staffed, it would have been, BUT there were only 3 people there today including myself over our lunch rush, which REALLY sucked!!!! The person who was doing all of the drive thru and front counter stuff is a 17 year old kid who has some sort of mental thing going on because he is always doing the "potty dance" but never really has to go. He is also a bit of a flake so it was basically just myself and the other person who was making food. Goals for the rest of the night: Working on my resume - goal is to find a new job by the end of this year. Work on finding exercises/workout plan I can follow here at home.

Okay so here I am yet again..... for the third time. I need to be brutally honest with myself - I just have not been trying the last 2 years. I want to take the easy way out by getting surgery. Background on who I am: I am a single mom. I have 2 teenage daughters - one is almost an adult now, the other is fully in puberty. I have what can be a very stressful job in fast good that I am really beginning to hate. I have a boyfriend that I love dearly, but makes me feel like an afterthought at times. I suffer from depression. I am currently homeless but am living with my ex husband and father in law. I am back to where I was when I first tried this 2 years ago. Background on where I want to go in 2018: I want to get back in the habit of eating 90% Paleo - I can't afford to go 100% I want to get in the habit of working out - other than walking while at work - at least 3 days per week I want to get back in the habit of tracking everything I consume I want to get in the habit of journalling daily about my daily success, failures, stresses I want to work on losing weight - ultimately I need to lose 100 pounds. But I will take losing 20 pounds this year and keeping that weight off. How I am going to go about getting to where I want to be: I have no clue at this point. Cut out carbs from my diet. Find a workout plan that fits in to what I have available and schedule Set an annoying notification for my fitness pal to remind me to log my food Come on here and keep up on a battle log Find/buy a scale to weigh myself. Buy a tape measure to track my measurements since I know that the scale lies. Why I failed in the past: I have not been trying. I gave up. I was lazy. There you go. Me in a nutshell. Now to just let the past go and start the year fresh.

Hi Nerd Fitness, Well, I suppose it should read, ‘Hello Again NF!’ I left a few years ago, when life threw a few speedballs that had me thrown to the ground, crying, and lamenting the losses of my physical abilities. Most especially, I lost my ability to run. So, no more trail runs and working toward a good 5k time result. I also lost the ability to do Olympic lifts like deadlifts, squats, and presses. With these major changes came the depression and anxiety that kept me in a dark and hopeless place. I gained back 65 of the 96 pounds that I lost during my past challenges, between Feb 2013 and June 2015. I turned 50 years old with a new and worsened set of physical limitations. I have degenerative disc disease which includes: osteoarthritis throughout my spine and SI joints (along with my hands), one bulging disc, and mild to moderate facet disease in my neck, low back, and some in my mid-back spine. I am left with a small ability list. As I’m sure you can imagine ‘complaining’ and ‘giving up’ came easily with these physical changes. I find myself at a crossroads today. I can give up on trying to maintain the positive changes that I’ve been working on for the last year or so. I can continue to rely on ‘woe is me’ and ‘I can’t do ANY of that anymore.’ Or… as I am working on now, thankfully, is attempting to juggle the priorities in my life. I want to be consistent with my: at-home physical therapy routine, cooking at home, limiting sugar junk food intake, and creating art for expression, healing, and sharing. To succeed on my journey, I want to use all the avenues available and known to me. Hence, coming back to Nerd Fitness is essential to my journey. So, Hi NF!! I’m Back!! Cheers, Terinatum