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Heya, nerds My name is Katrin, I go by Morag on various internet platforms. I am 36 years old now, single mum now (since june this year) of two beautiful boys (9 and soon to be 16). I am located in the real north of Germany. I work with demented elderly (since Sept this year), I started lifting barbells (dito), but the later makes my hip/something twinge painfully, so I need form adjustments at the very least. It hurts so much that I haven't been to the gym in weeks. I am 1,7m tall with just under 100kg for weight, which is ridiculously too heavy. Both my kids have their birthdays in December, a life choice I am still kind of unhappy about, and kind of not. You know? I just cast on a hat for myself in black fluffy yarn, something I had sworn to myself NEVEREVEREVER do again, but sadly Hufflepuff is black and yellow, and so is my gorgeous xtra-warm-xtra-long skarf, so there. I am taking an evening class of beginner Korean, which is fun and challenging and one of the few things keeping me sane. My therapist of several months brought up the BTW Therapy Is Almost Over convo, which is kind of scary and kind of exciting. I struggle with nutrition most of all. Consistently making decent enough choices (or these days it's more of an At All) and finding and sticking to humane portion sizes. I feel like my food choices are limiting where I am and where I'm headed in a VERY dramatic way. But calorie restriction is a stressor I have avoided for a while now, and consciously too. Separation has been a bitch even though it was kind of a mutual thing. This christmas season I am nesting. I will buy a tree one of these days, for the first time in possibly 10 years, we already have some decorations up. We will not celebrate xmas at my in-laws house for the first time in years and years. I made a memory board with maps and fotos and things. And I will keep adding to that. Most of all I have to keep keeping my stress levels in check. I am the whack'a'mole queen for a reason. And it would be hell'a nice if my physique reflected how much better I am all over, so I am thinking about what to do regarding food. Because I liked myself at under 90kg... I looked and felt amazing... I remember it being hard work, getting there: HIIT once a week, focused training to fix my abysmal posture (not sure how much of that bad stuff has come back, since my hip is acting up a lot lately), counting calories, weighing EVERYTHING that went on my plate, 500-1000kcal deficit (starting out with too much, and learning about healthy deficits lateron). Eating a limited number of veggies, still not being a fan of the things I ate too much of back then... So yeah, I want to restrict my eating, get that all sorted out, but on the other hand I do not want to fuck up my mental health with going down that rabbit hole of super-über-perfection. I also feel though, that I am paralyzing myself by over-analyzing here... so that's awesome! A coworker is sick, so instead of 4 days off next week I work every day but one. But then I have Wednesday through Chrismas off, which is nice. Plus all the extra hours bring extra money too, so that's potentially nice (unless they tell me I should take extra days off, that's not cool) plusplus it's short notice extra hours, so I get a bit more money per hour too, it's not a lot, but some months it's those small things... I bought myself a couple of japanese eggplants (I think. They are long and slender, but I didn't ask, so they may be from somewhere else), which I've never seen outside of my Korean cookbook before. So I am looking forward to soy marinated eggplant 가지 나무 (?) Gaji Namu without substituting the main ingredient. Maybe. Plus today is my 9yo son's bday party, which he is super excited about. We'll see how it goes. Plus knitting black yarn... what was I thinking?! Enough of my ramblings. Thanks go to @Terra, for messaging me privately and pushing me to make a challenge. Sorry, my friend, for being so late. I'm here now.

I will edit throughout this day and tomorrow. Promise. EDIT I am motivated but heatwave and their sweaty-sticky-yucky days are hard. Life has been achanging. My name is Katrin [CUT-reen], I go by Morag here. I am 35 years of age. I have two sons 15 and 8 both born in December. I have a husband who quite recently (mid june) moved out, and we are both happier now than before. I plan to start working in an elderly care facility as a ... I have no idea how to translate that "Alltagsbegleiterin" September 1st. There is room on "my" floor for 10 inhabitants with varying stages of dementia, each having their own living/bed room, bathroom, but sharing communal kitchen, laundry room, dining room and communal living room. We will be cooking with the inhabitants, supporting them with their laundry, helping them keep up a semi-routine. As well as be an person to talk to for their loved ones. I'll start out with 21h/week, to get me and the kids acclimated. I really look forward to it! The kids are still on summer break (up through first week of challenge. It's the last year for my BigBoy. He struggled quite a bit last year, with all the stress at home, and being a common lazy teen reading his fanfictions like it's breathing. Phone addiction? Possibly. LittleBoy is starting 3rd grade. He is clever and fun, but can also open up that stubborn side of him, that he inherited from both sides of his lineage. Yay. Will be interesting to see how they both adjust to things at home not being so stressful. I still am trying to get state support for the last month and a half, plus August, and however long I have to wait to get paid in September, but I am HOPING HOPING HOPING that today's visit at the Job.Center took care of things. I am overweight (upper end of obese stage I) at 97kg or thereabouts at a height of just under 1m70cm. I hate it. But I have to pick my battles at the moment. And staying semi-sane and mostly-functional has priority. I hope to eventually earn enough money to afford a gym membership, where they have free weights. Lifting heavy is something that really resonates with me... But alas I am only taking walks with my Wizards Unite account, and riding my bike to appointments, because busses are expensive and horribly warm. My goals: Keep hacking away at my running to do list. Keep updating and executing my Morning, Afternoon, Evening Routine Lists (adapted from FlyLady.net, and SecretSlob on youtube) Patience with myself while I declutter zone after zone and eventually (re-)implement Home Blessing Hour (also a Flylady thing) And patience while I KonMari most of my life. Eventually I'd like to yoga with Adriene again and also participate in Daily Dare PVPs on here. But right now. I am taking care of myself. And solidify my habits. And resist the temptation to do ALL THE THINGS RIGHT NOW also known as RangerBrainTM So far my thoughts. Missing a theme... all gifs are welcome, especially all things magical, Harry Potter Verse or otherwise, all things Voyager, Katee Sackhoff, Serenity/Firefly, and all things Mermaid. 'CAUSE