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Hello everyone! I'm David, a (currently) 25-year old guy in Houston, TX; originally from the good ol' tropics of Orlando, Florida! I'm going to tell you a bit about my heroic origin story; it's somewhat depressing I think. But hey, I love underdogs. In the beginning, there was a big bang and I try not to think about it because they're my parents. Fast forward a few years and there's little ol' me in Pre-Kindergarten, a wild ball of mischief and mayhem that was the butt of the joke of every other kid. This is a trend that continued on to Kindergarten, past when I got expelled for throwing a chair at a teacher at the ripe and happy age of six, past my first and last suicide attempt at the old age of 10, all the way up to High School, where the decade or so of bullying, trips to psychiatrists, and the whole ADHD craze of the '90s had my high school self dropping out due to severe depression, social anxiety, chronic procrastination, and being unable to even pull myself out of bed in my senior year. Then you had the fun time of the Great Recession happening in 2009, the year I dropped out/my generation graduated High School. No jobs for everyone! Woo! Just the thing my crippling self loathing needed for the next few years. Let's fast forward past the three years of not feeling anything, and you have me at the age of 20, exploding in anger that my life is going nowhere, and making the drastic life change of accepting a friend's offer to move in with him in Houston for a few months, get a job here, and get my life going at long last. And it worked! Job was get, I had money for the first time ever, and the world regained color again! Five years later, and I have gone nowhere and done nothing I wanted. I still work at this terrible job that I barely force myself to wake up to go to, I haven't seen my parents since I left, my only friends left are online, my first girlfriend that I got back in June of this year cheated on me with her abusive ex for two months before I found out on my 25th birthday two months ago, and my depression, anxiety, and self-loathing have reached a critical mass, a downward spiral in to darkness. And you know what? That makes me angry. I'm righteously pissed off. I have no idea what I'm doing, feel completely helpless, have been betrayed by everyone I've known in my life (save for my parents, they're awesome and deserve better), and the worst part is that I know most of it is my own fault. The only thing I can feel proud about is that I've managed to go from 270+ lbs to 215 lbs, but I've stagnated. And man, that anger? All that rage I feel? I'm using that as fuel, just like I did back when I came to Houston. But so far I've been burning that fuel and not going anywhere with it; so here I am. Right here among all of you. Got my first challenge posted in the challenge forum, and I know I wall of texted here. So I'm looking forward to chilling with you all even if you don't read my huge post. tl;dr I'm mad as Hell and I'm not going to take this any more. EDIT: Right, I forgot battle plans. I'm still working on them, sadly. But I know where I want to be in two years I think. Hell, I know where I want to be for my mother's birthday this February: in Florida visiting my parents and showing off the progress I've made. So I'll start with a four month goal: Reach 180 lbs by February 4th, 2017. Now, I have to break that down. That's 35 lbs in 4 months. 8.75 lbs/month, or about 2 lbs/week. 1000 less calories per day. That's a hefty amount, but it's doable. I've had practice at it. I've always done intermittent fasting, so that will be easy; I'll just continue not bringing lunch to work. I don't drink soda often, so I'll just go ahead and go all the way with that and cut it out completely for now. I have to drink more water anyway, dehydration is really messing me up. I eat way too much fast food, so let's cut that out - that will be easy, too. I just tell my ride not to let me buy anything. I can't go anywhere solo, I don't have a car! Basic breakdown: Smaller portions at dinner. Eat a small, healthy breakfast on the daily. Continue exercising 3x/week: Monday, Wednesday, Friday. All bodyweight, of course. I think that'll be a good start.