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I've been reading the blog for several weeks and lurking around the forums for a while but not quite ready to commit. What if I failed or only stuck it out a couple of weeks and them wimped out? Then, today, I decided that if I'm ever going to start leveling up my life, I need to take the plunge, get involved, and become accountable. So that's what I'm going to do and if I fail I will remember just because I have a bad day I haven't failed at everything and can get back tomorrow. My Journey: I'm twenty seven years old and I've tried multiple times to lose weight. I've been heavy for pretty much my whole life and right now, I'm at the heaviest I've ever been and though I can accept myself where I am I don't have to want to stay here. I would love to lose somewhere between one hundred and a hundred and fifty pounds all told. Eek, that goal is so massive that just looking at it terrifies me so I try not to think of the big goal but the little steps along the way. Like I said, I've tried multiple times to lose weight though I have a lot of trouble sticking with the plans. I don't mind exercise, in fact I actually enjoy it but I get bored doing the same thing over and over but feel that my size holds me back from doing other things. For instance, I think that running sounds like a lot of fun but that doesn't seem possible at my weight. My most recent attempt at getting in shape lasted about three months where I went to the gym six days a week, ate relatively healthy (definitely more healthy than I used to eat) and gained weight. I work with a couple of guys who did body building and they encouraged me and said it was likely just muscle and not to worry about it. But it's quite frustrating to have such a massive goal in front of you and see little to no weight loss. So I'm trying to divorce myself from the scale and the number and instead focus on pictures, how my clothes fit, etc this time around. Challenges: My biggest challenge is that I'm a super picky eater. And when I say super picky, think like a three year old and you'd be close. I don't eat meat, I don't like most vegetables and the ones I do like are the less good ones for you (corn, potatoes). I often feel defeated because no matter how hard I push myself in the gym or a workout I feel like my diet is my real struggle. I've done better in a lot of things (another reason why it was frustrating that I didn't lose weight) like fruit smoothies that I sneak spinach into, cut out liquid calories, moved all my breads/grains to whole grain, and trying to find new things I'll eat. But my healthy options that I like are so few that I get discouraged with the same old thing and then slip back into habits and feel defeated because of it. It's something I'm working on but it's so tough sometimes. My other challenge is that I really need to feel supported, hence joining this website. My husband is supportive whether I want to go to the gym or order a pizza so sometimes it works against me haha I have some friends that are into fitness and they help me but I can drift off or not mention things and they don't really hold me accountable. Or I choose not to be accountable when I do bad because I feel I've failed people and don't want them to know. My other small challenge is that I have an injured ankle that I hurt in high school in a four wheeler accident (young and stupid lol). I tore/stretched most of the tendons and ligaments so it's weak and I try to avoid high impact when I can because the doctor told me that next time I sprained it, I would probably break it instead because it's so weak. Motivation: I want to be healthy and fit, not tied to a number specifically though I do want to lose weight and a lot of it. I want to live longer for my family and I want to be able to have family. Getting pregnant when you're overweight is not only more difficult but also super dangerous. My husband and I want to start a family and I want to be able to enjoy that not be worried about what my weight will do to me or the baby if we get pregnant and I don't want to worry if I can be there for my family in the future. So long story, exhausting airing that all out there but I'm excited and hopeful about the prospects. I love everything I've seen on this site and I want to get involved but I'm not sure where to go or how to get started. All advice, encouragement, pushing welcomed