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Continuing on the trend of trying to rebuild my damn good habits this go round. Maaaaaaaaybe something will stick this time, eh? Goals aren't really changing much - maybe adding novel accessory work is just the kick in the pants i need. Buckle up for a brain dump. Goal The First: Work Out I am still sucking at making this a consistent thing in the face of having an inconsistent schedule. This is something that is always going to be difficult for me given my love of routine. This is also something I need to actively fight to work on - coasting isn't going to get it, waiting for a stable schedule damn sure isn't getting it - actively working against my need for order is pretty much the only thing that's going to work here. I need to tell my brain that the world is not going to stop spinning on its axis if I don't work out at 5:00 4x a week. I don't *have* a 5:00 4x a week. Now, that's not to say I'm going to be radically changing things (to am workouts ... eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeewwwwwwwwwwwww) or dropping responsibilities that are either actively making me the benjamins or will lead to future cheddar. I'm more going for a 'stop in the face of schedule panic, look at the panic, identify the panic, and tell it to go F itself' kind of thing here. Baby steps. My brain is not going to melt if I work out at 3:30. I'm (sorta) unemployed, for jibbers' sakes. What I'm thinking: Start trying out yoga studios either near home or school or both. Get all up in this 14-day yoga challenge Come up with some sort of accessories thing - like 50 squats a day for a week - something I can do while cooking, watching tv, or taking a pee break during class Goal The Second: Quit Eating Like A Damn Ninny -- AGAIN Seriously. I can't be trusted with 2 variances a week, because apparently that means in my little raccoon brain that I can visit the uber fancy-ass coffee/"healthy" food place and eat damn dessert (because it's not a sandwich and it's cheap). When did dessert - even healthy dessert with mostly paleo ingredients - become ok in my brain? I don't even really like dessert. Why do I keep getting it, then? Ohhhhhh yeah. Keto. Keto increased my intake of sweet stuff from zero to 'every damn thing has Stevia in it let's eat a zillion Quest bars because that's all I can have' mode. Thanks, me. Gooooooood thinking. I really don't want to have to Whole30 it to break this mental cycle - especially not with class starting back up in a couple weeks - but I will if I must. Until then, I'm going for a more balanced approach to thinking about what I am shoving into my face. Fats: Good - but not allthefats because I'm not operating under the cloak of fat burning Carbs: Okayish. Don't eat allthecarbs but don't eat keto-few carbs. I missed kale and pineapple Fruits: Moderation, yo Veggies: Eat more of these and more variety - broccoli and kale are the jam, but other veggies exist Meat: Let's not go back to 'all meat all the time' snacking, shall we? Nuts: I'm finally almost tired of nuts - except hella expensive macadamia nuts and cashews Other Snacks: I need to calm down on the packaged snacks. Quest bars are great, but I don't need more than 1 a week - and that one, only in an emergency Sugar: What the Serious F is going on here? Dates: still sugar. Cacao: Always has sugar. Stevia: Yep. It's sugar. Sthaaaaaaaap Dairy: Also stop. Cow milk hates me. Other animal milk is ok, but not when it makes cow cheese a thing in my head. I've been pretty good here recently, but this always needs work unless I'm strict paleo-ing it So, what does that leave me? Back to paleo land. Which is a land I'm comfortable in. I lived in harmony there for a couple years. I need to go back. No crazy other hard stuff until I get back to that land and sit there for awhile. Also. Contemplate going back to tracking macros. I know what works for me: 70g or under on carbs, 100g or under in fats, 70g or so of protein. It works when I'm consistent. My calories are sometimes too low, buuuut I can fix that with more fat since I'm still in fat = yummy mindset. Goal The Third: Get A Job - Or More Of A Job I've got my hated copywriting gig, a part-part time teaching gig, a part time teaching gig coming up, and that company I've poured hours into in hopes of eventually garnering a paycheck. I need to continue on working to get some gainful employment situation happening. I'll be pretty wiped at night, so networking events most likely won't be happening once class #2 starts up. I need to continue: Submitting 10 applications a week Working on my portfolio Learning CSS Grids while I'm at it Practicing something related to HTML/CSS or Javascript daily Other things I need to do: Build out my "formal" UI/UX portfolio a bit Work on more graphic designy things I actually want to show people - like SVGs (consequently, there's another 50-day challenge for SVGs I could do) Work on networking through my social groups (I'm a part of a few online tech and womens' groups) Goal The Fourth: Rando Keep the house clean Go take pictures Go for a ruck Explore the neighborhood Work on the deadline-driven craft project I've barely started Do what I can where I can to make living in Suburban hell a little better for myself Find peace on mass transit while I'm stuck there for 1:30 often Get back to doing the things I enjoy doing, despite now having 4 hours of my day being taken up by transporting myself a couple times a week - like recipe creation and blogging. And a zillion other things. Not worry about how much more difficult that shit is going to get if I get an office job Fit QT in with the DH since he's now busy at night too with BJJ