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I'm Jessica. I'm 36, and I want to level up my life. Starting out as a Rebel seemed a good way to get going. For my first quest, I have chosen: Diet: 1. Eat a vegetable with one meal each day. 2. Reduce fast-food consumption by 50%. Fitness: 1. Walk or bike 5 minutes each day. Leveling Up: 1. 5 minutes of meditation (I call it prayer because of my personal beliefs) each day. As for doing sh** that scares me, this is it. Starting again when I've failed so many times at improving my diet and fitness is what scares me. But getting old without being able to live well scares me more. I don't quite know what I'm doing, but I guess I'll figure it out along the way. Good luck to all of you fellow Rebels, and to me.
Alright -- I'm going to lay my heart out for you. I'm scared. I'm scared that I won't be able to do a proper squat. I'm scared that I'll never be able to hike that strenous trail in the Shenandoah. I'm scared that I am going to get into my own way, only half-assing my health because I'm too lazy and ignorant to do otherwise. But, I'm getting my 20 seconds of courage, revamping my whole outlook on this health thing. I've been on the rebellion boards for several years, but never seem to connect with anyone due to inactivity. I have failed my accountability buddies, promising to keep in touch, but never really do. Why have I suddenly changed? Well, I haven't. I've been lurking in the background, wishing I was like that person. I need to be honest with myself. I'm not THAT person, I'm me. I have medical problems that cause me to fail challenges that are based on weight. I need to stop thinking like that. I need to reach out for support from my fellow nerds. Motivation: I don't want to be like the rest of my family, living a sedentary life like a good hobbit. I'm an adventurer who dreams of that long quest to save the world from evil. I want to be able to fit into traditional hiking clothes instead of hiking in yoga pants. I want to backpack the Appalachian trail. I want to safely SCUBA dive the great barrier reef. I want to be able to explore places where few people have gone and I don't want my health to get into the way. I want to be comfortable in my skin enough to go cosplaying without caring about how other people me because I'm feeling awesome. I want to strut down the beach and only wear a t-shirt because I burn WAY too easily instead of trying to hide that part of me I'm embarassed about that day. This doesn't mean I need to look like a super model; instead, I'm working on trying to fix my mental perception of myself, my self-image. I have been known to make my goals a little hard to obtain. I easily forgave myself for failing challenges after challenges. Half-assing exercises so that I hurt myself. I'm going to start with yoga to loosen up my joints and my muscles, clear my mind of negativity, and teach myself to BREATHE! I will continue with my walking as I thoroughly enjoy the hikes I take, but until yoga becomes a habit, I won't pressure myself to do daily walks. After a while, when yoga is more a habit than a chore and my body is able to move more fluidly, I'll add strength training to the mix. Fitness challenge for the month: -- Hard-hat challenge (yoga 5x a week) -- Walk at least 6 miles 2x a week Nutrition: -- Cook 4x a week -- Drink at least 5 cups of water a day Life: -- Work on debt snowball to get rid of car loan and one student loan -- Become more active in the community with at a daily battle log update and speak up on other's 3x a week. This will be hard! I'm not used to it, but I hope that I'll make habits.