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Hi everyone, well, I've been gone for quite some time. So here's a bit of a catch-up of everything that's been happening the past few months. I've been studying in Cambridge, England, for one semester. I joined with the 2nd years of Film & TV Production and I generally had a good time there, especially because I learned a lot about film and all the jobs that are needed in order to make a film. It was pretty amazing. The main module there was Documentary and I must say I'm proud of what I've made. The two side modules were Directing Studies (which was also really nice) and Design for the Screen (which I found difficult, but educational). I came back just before Christmas and coming Monday I am starting lessons at my home university again, in the Netherlands. I'm glad to be back, because I get to see everyone again and the stress in Cambridge with school was pretty bad, so I get to have a bit more breathing space here again as well. This is my documentary, by the way During my stay in Cambridge, my mum has been living in Denmark, with her new boyfriend. He's Dutch, but he's been living in Denmark for over 10 years already and my mum is moving there. The house here has been sold already and lots of promises that my mum made were broken, which makes me angry and sad, but most of all frustrated, because I don't feel I can trust the one person I've always trusted a 200% anymore. And that in itself makes me feel quite lonely. Because of all of the above, I've been feeling a bit down. I've done stuff on automatic pilot and, well, it wasn't good. So now that I'm back home and I have had some time to myself I've been sleeping a lot and I've played a lot of games. (I have Steam now, so I get to play stuff) I know this behaviour from when I was in the lowest point of my depression and I am a bit afraid to fall back and get in a nastier part of my depression again, which I really really REALLY want to try and avoid. Pretty logical, huh? Only doing it is harder than stating I will do it. While I've been away I have deliberately chosen not to do any challenges on NF for that time, because I wanted to focus entirely on my studies in Cambridge, as it was busy enough in itself. However, now I am back in the Netherlands, in an environment I know. I have a bit more space, I know what I'm doing here, I feel at home. So here I am, back and ready to start doing something useful again. Let's do stuff! What I want to focus on this challenge is to get back in my daily rhythm, because I know that will help me avoid falling back into a worse part of depression. I also want to get myself a new sports bra and running shoes, so I can go and jog a bit in order to work on my cardio. (Just before I left for Cambridge, I got diagnosed with asthma and they say it helps if you do cardio, to make it go away) And I want to lower the intake on sugar, because that has been going crazy in Cambridge and the past few days. And now in a neat list of what I'll be doing these 6 weeks: Daily goals: - sleep 8+ hours - drink 1.5L water - eat fruit - eat veggies - get star status for a day if I don't have any sugar (apart from fruit) Weekly goals: - do BBWW - make a drawing 6 week challenge goals: - buy sports bra - buy running shoes - find a room in Breda WIN I know it isn't much, right now, but I have kind of fallen back to zero with my fitness and diet and mental health and.. well... everything. So I'm building stuff up again from scratch, okay? Because of this I will definitely not raise a level. I am fighting in order not to lose a level. That's what this challenge is about. If I manage to keep my level, that's a yay. If I lose a level it means I obviously have to do more in order to get back to where I was. I have to win at least 30 days with the basic stuff and get at least 6 days star status. I have to complete at least 5 of 6 weeks with the weekly goals and I have to get everything for the whole challenge goals. Oh, and to let you know how bad my body is right now... I weigh 93 kg or 205 lbs. I got down to 87 kg or 192 lbs before I went to Cambridge. So some change is REALLY needed. I just want to see if there'll be any change in my weight during these weeks. I am not setting a goal for myself with my weight. Not this challenge, but probably future challenges will have a weight loss goal. Progress: Weight on Sunday 4th of January: 92.2 kg or 203.27 lbs Week 1 (BBWW FAIL - drawing WIN) Mon WIN - Tue WIN - Wed WIN - Thu WIN - Fri FAIL - Sat WIN * - Sun WIN Weight on Sunday: 91.1 kg or 200.83 lbs Week 2 (BBWW - drawing) Mon FAIL - Tue - Wed - Thu - Fri - Sat - Sun Weight on Sunday: Week 3 (BBWW - drawing) Mon - Tue - Wed - Thu - Fri - Sat - Sun Weight on Monday: Week 4 (BBWW - drawing) Mon - Tue - Wed - Thu - Fri - Sat - Sun Weight on Sunday: Week 5 (BBWW - drawing) Mon - Tue - Wed - Thu - Fri - Sat - Sun Weight on Sunday: Week 6 (BBWW - drawing) Mon - Tue - Wed - Thu - Fri - Sat - Sun Weight on Sunday: