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Welcome to the Coffee House Your place for a pick me up We've all hit that point in a challenge where you just need that little pick me up to keep pushing through. Quotes, stories and photos to help get through the challenges. Who inspires you?

This is the beginning of my journey, and I need your help. My name is Lindley. I am an ICU nurse with a really shitty night schedule. I am 5'1" and the heaviest I have ever been at 163 pounds. I was in a very unhealthy five year relationship, had two sons with the individual, and am now a single mom. I struggle with Borderline Personality Disorder, depression, anxiety, binge/purge, and PTSD. Now for the thing that sent me over the edge... June 12, 2016, I woke up and discovered my 5 week old son (Ronin August) had died from SIDS during a nap. Needless to say, it was the single most traumatic experience of my life and it's left me with an overwhelming feeling of hopelessness and apathy. Any kind of will to live just went out the window, let alone any king of will to get healthy and back in to shape. Now, just waking up and doing day-to-day things is a struggle. I live in Oklahoma and have a very limited support system (one friend within physical proximity, and my mom and aunt available via telephone). I'm maxed out on my antidepressants and I go to hypnotherapy 4 times a month (which is not cheap!). Also, I'm now hypertensive and I just FEEL the toll this is taking on my body. I don't feel good. I used to be very in shape. I loved being active and eating clean. But now, the smallest things are a challenge. I don't want to live like this, but the sadness overwhelms me. I am reaching out to this community because there is still a sliver of something inside of me that wants me to "get better". I'm searching for support. I've tried to be mentally healthy, thinking my body would follow suit, but that obviously didn't work. And now I need a different approach. I want to be healthy for my remaining son (Olin Anthony). We all have struggles. We all have our crosses to bear. I would love to hear what others have overcome and how they did it. Tell me your story.

This is a thread inspired entirely by laziness. Because I want to encourage others, but I don't want to navigate through lots of people's different threads. So Why don't we all post our challenges and encouragement to each other in this one thread. Here are my challenges for the next four weeks. You'd think creating a show to play at the biggest music festival in Japan would be the most difficult thing, but I have NO FREAKING IDEA how to find a freaking charity. Upon searching for "Charity Niigata" in Japanese nothing that is actually based in Niigata came up. So perhaps I'd need to find an individual instead of a charity. I've also walked all around my area at night and cannot find a single homeless person. This is inconvenient. . .

I love my family, but they are some of the laziest people I've known. I really want them to get in shape and get better habits, and not waste everyday in front of the t.v., computer, or Nook. I've already resigned myself to the fact that my mom and dad won't be getting out of their rut, but I at least have a chance with my sister. I'm more worried about her anyways, she has gotten a lot bigger compared to what she looked like when she went to college. And since she has Bronchitis, I've already noticed her struggling with breathing. The pants she wears when we go out are way to tight for her, which she tries to hide it with baggy shirts. Everyday she sits at her desk or on her bed on her computer. She sleeps in late, sometimes till 2 p.m.! And when she eats it's loaded with carbs. Her favorite meal is two ramen packets, with three pieces of bread. And I've caught her raiding the fridge late at night. She also doesn't drink water, only soda, or Crystal Light lemonade (which she claims is just sweetened water, I don't think it is when you put half a packet in one quart jar!). She at one time joined me on eating clean but didn't last two days. And she DVR some Yoga and a Power Sculpting program but never does it. I've tried getting her to join me on walks, but she always says it's either to hot or she's to tired. Anyone have any advice?