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This challenge is going to be an extension of the past one, where I’ll keep tracking the activities I do every day, and how do those activities make me feel. Being attentive to what I’ve been feeling has been key to the success of the past challenge, after a few depressing months. Understanding how much I enjoy or dislike some things, helped to fight laziness, and also to avoid that overwhelming feeling I usually have because “there is so much to do”. I never felt overwhelmed during the past challenge, even on the days where I was working non-stop. Awareness has helped me find balance. Now, I’d like to introduce a couple of new things (nothing so new: cross-country running and handstands) and I’d like to find out whether I truly enjoy them and why I’ve always felt so attracted towards them. ACTION TIME SPENT FEELINGS AND SENSATIONS WH BREATHING AND COLD SHOWER MOBILITY MEDITATION ICELANDIC MUSIC PRACTICE HANGING/PUSHING YOGA (includes handstands) OUTDOORS RUNNING SKETCHING GYM

Wolverine is lost. She doesn’t remember who she is or why she came here. She has lost memory of the bright days, when she wandered through the fields and felt warm under the sun. She senses something is missing. Playfulness, adventure, effort… she hears their echos some times, but can’t fully grasp the meaning. In fear, she slowly distanced herself from life itself. But buried deep inside her heart, a small fire is still burning…

FRIGEDÆG, AUGUST 03, 2018 | JUST STARTING OUT ODYNNE'S INFO: Former: MMA fighter, lifter, owner of a healthy confidence and a sick 2-pack Current: tired, out-of-shape, overweight, bored, and frustrated normie... but in the process of getting back on track Near future: getting healthier, getting more confident Far(ther) future: getting healthier and more confident than I've ever been PERCENTAGE TO BERSERK MODE: 0.5%

February 15, 2014 The battle has raged for many weeks, but today - at last, today - I believe i can say with confidence that the enemy is defeated, we hold the fortress, and victory is ours! February 20, 2014 I do not understand. We are plagued by saboteurs. How can this be? We opened the gates with caution, we were at full strength and alert. How has the enemy slipped in among us? February 22, 2014 A terrible fear assails me. There has been no enemy invasion. The truth stared me in the face all along. The saboteur ... is me. This is not what I wanted! Why then, have I been deliberately destroying our defenses? How could I have done such a thing? Is this madness? Some evil sorcery? Or have my own dark desires proved my undoing? Translation: I conquered Whole30 during the last challenge. I did a slow and steady reintroduction and discovered some problem foods that I should probably avoid. I lost weight (under 200 for the first time in 3 years!) even though, as I explained over and over and over to incredulous family and friends and most of all coworkers, that wasn't the point of Whole30. And then ... the minute I didn't have "rules" ... I fell completely apart. I even knew that would be a danger! To be rational - a single week of less healthy eating is not the end of the world. My diet is still much better than it used to be - I may have had pizza, chocolate, pancakes, brownies ... etc. ... this week but I didn't binge eat anything. My serving sizes were all pretty reasonable. I still had vegetables with almost every meal. And it took years of trying and trying and trying to quit my soda pop habit; building healthy eating habits is going to be a long-term process too. I'm still annoyed with myself. I proved I could do it. I proved I didn't need the junk food to have satisfying meals. I proved sugar didn't control me. I learned that eating wheat makes me feel awful. And then I went right back to it. Argh. Today I ate the leftover pancakes and pizza for breakfast and lunch, in order to "not waste" them and to "get them out of the house" so I could "start fresh on Monday". What is with that thinking?! Eating something that gives you a headache and stomach ache when there's no need to is wasteful! So ... I also learned last challenge that right now, I need very simple goals. And not too many of them. GOAL 1 No sugar, No wheat. That's all. Those are some pretty simple rules, and I know I can do it because I did it before. Since life is life, I'm aiming for 95% compliance with my two simple rules. GOAL 2 Yoga every single day. I still don't know where I'm going on my fitness journey, but I do have my three starter goals - run 5k, do 10 real push-ups, touch my toes. I can't work on all of these at once (see "very simple goals" above). I dropped all exercise about 3 weeks ago, and wasn't doing too well before that. I will certainly try to do better all round but I'm heading into the Big Musical - my very busiest time of year. I'll be working days, nights, weekends ... so an ambitious workout schedule would be doomed to failure. Instead, yoga every day. I will aim for 20 - 30 minutes, but if I do one pose for 2 minutes, it counts. There are going to be days when I'll be struggling to get even that in. (School matinee before opening night ... why oh why oh why ...) LIFE QUEST Learn to Journal I feel pretty directionless in most areas, like I'm wandering around in an unfamiliar forest. Am I going in circles? Going in one direction but heading nowhere? Getting somewhere, just slowly? Completely lost? In the wrong forest altogether? Journaling seems to help some people, so I'll give it a try. However, when I've tried journaling in the past, it ends up more like, "Went to work today. Felt tired. People are idiots. Had chicken for supper." Which is not that helpful. It seems journaling, like so many things, is a learned skill that I haven't learned. If anybody has any nifty journaling resources they'd like to share, that would be swell